This is Jesse's story; these will be her words, her thoughts, her emotions. My sole purpose is to present her story to the reader in a readable manner, in an accurate manner, with no editing by me. She made me promise to do this, as she asked, and I promised. I always keep my promises to Jess.
Her Story
When Ray and I were introduced by a mutual friend, the last thing on my mind was anything resembling a 'relationship'. I was thirty-five, and had divorced five years previously, and was pretty damned happy with my life as a single. During those five years, I dated who I wanted, if I wanted. I slept with who I wanted to sleep with, not with everyone who tried to sleep with me. There were a couple of short term boyfriends, but nothing of a lasting nature, and I was just fine with that.
Our mutual friend was a woman who worked for me, and they had been friends for several years. The thing you need to know about Ray, is that he is a 'gal's guy'; comfortable around females, and females are very comfortable with him. When we met, he honestly had many more female friends and buddies, than male. He didn't want me to say that, but, it is what it is.
It wasn't very long into our relationship, maybe three months, when we both realized that we had fallen in love with each other, both amused that it had happened at a time in which neither of us was looking for anything other than a comfortable relationship, free and clear of clutter. Funny how that stuff works out, isn't it?
Ray had been upfront from the very beginning; from the time we realized we liked being with each other, about his participation in the swinging scene, both he and his ex. He was upfront about the thing with his ex's cousin; about keeping it a secret, that it bothered him for a long time, he told me, after it happened. So, yes, I knew that he had been with a lot of women, and, it didn't bother me, one bit. Hey, it's not like I was the 'Virgin Queen'; my soldier guy had been my first lover, but by the time I had met Ray, I had had more than my share of lovers, boyfriends, and 'friends with benefits'.
The first time I had ever had a 'meaningful' kiss with a guy, I was probably fourteen or so, young, but old enough to know that I liked the way I felt when kissing someone. I liked that flutter in the stomach, the rush of warmth to my crotch, even though it took me until I was eighteen before I let my soldier guy 'go all the way', it wasn't because I didn't want to, believe me! No, it was the fear of 'mommy dearest' that kept my legs closed, and I suppose, in retrospect, that was a benefit. Some of my friends in high school were having sex, and they'd talk about it, and I would get really excited inside but I would never let on just how much I liked hearing them talk about it. Before soldier guy, there had been a few boyfriends, and maybe, I let a couple of them feel me up, but, honestly, I don't remember. It couldn't have been much, if I can't remember it, is my view. But, from the first time that I did have sex, I liked it, I liked it a lot.
My ex had 'hinted' a couple of times about exploring swinging, after a couple of years of marriage, so I knew about it, and for some strange reason that I didn't understand, then or now, the 'thought' excited me but never enough to take that walk on the wild side. Oh, I would think about it, after he had brought it up, and wonder about some of the couples we knew, wondered about the male half, about whether or not sex would be good with him, whoever 'him' was. But, it never happened.
I'm on the slender side; 5'8, 120 lbs, and on a good day, a 34 B, not exactly busty, which has always bothered me, made me wish I were bigger. Ray doesn't seem to be bothered by it, nor have I ever had anyone complain about it, nobody but me, so I guess Ray's right, that it's a 'head thing' with me, and me alone.
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My first threesomeβ¦
After Ray and I became a couple, the sex was plentiful, and good! Very good! We've never had a problem connecting on a sexual level, or any other level, that I'm aware of. I moved from the small town I had been living in, to the city with Ray, and have never looked back.
I was introduced into his circle of friends, some from the swinging days, some not. I was warmly welcomed into their homes, at their parties, never being made to feel like I was an 'outsider', except for one couple, well actually, the wife of one couple.
Harry and Vicki had been friends with Ray and his ex, for years, living across the street from each other, and, of course, from the sex they had shared as couples. Vicki never really liked me, I think, never really liked the fact that I was now with Ray, and he was no longer with his ex. Vicki and his ex had a girl/girl thing for a lot of years, so I suppose that has something to do with her feelings towards me. She would constantly bring up how much she really enjoyed Ree's pussy, how she missed it. It sorta pissed me off, but I would let those comments slide. Harry, on the other hand, couldn't have been nicer, or more welcoming. He's a sweetheart, Harry is, a really good guy. Vicki, as I would find, would belie her demure looks, and in a 'public' situation, would like to do 'shocking' things, bordering on exhibitionism sometimes.
One evening, when the four of us were at our local pub, Ray was in the semi-finals bracket of a city-wide pool tournament, and it was being held at our 'spot'. The place was packed with watchers, and players, and as we watched the championship game, Harry, Vicki and I were kneeling in our booth, so we could see over the people between us and the pool tables. Vicki was behind me, leaning on both Harry and I, when she suddenly, quickly, slipped her hand down the front of my top, and copped a feel of my breasts, braless, as usual. The one advantage of being small-breasted is that I could go braless and not have to worry about my nipples sagging down to my waist. She squeezed my boob, and tweaked my nipple, then quickly withdrew her hand. I turned my head towards her, not in anger, but in surprise. It did surprise me, but it didn't make me uncomfortable; in fact, I remember thinking at the time that it felt kinda good. She gave me a quick smooch, and waving at our waitress, she ordered a round of Tequila shots to celebrate Ray's victory on the pool table.
I had never been with a woman sexually, at that time. I don't really ever remember 'wondering' about girl/girl sex; I knew it went on, but I never really thought of it, or longed for it. I will say, though, when she copped that feel, it did make my head start to wonder if she was trying to instigate something between the four of us. I do remember thinking that, if that was her game, that I'd go with the flow of the evening and see where it would lead. Ray and I were solid, our relationship stronger than hell, then, and even now, twenty or so years later. I had never told Ray that I wanted to try swinging, or not try it. I do remember that every time a story came up about some people he and his ex had screwed, that I did become excited by it, by the freedom on being able to share a sexual experience with someone that you loved as much as I loved Ray. He never, ever, pushed for us to get involved in swinging, but, he left the door open for me to talk about it, if I ever wanted to.
Ray rejoined us at the booth, amid congratulations from the pub regulars, all a friendly group of bar-flies. The owner of the pub, Sherrie, sent over a round of shots on the house. She and Ray were house-mates for a time, but they never were lovers. Sherrie said it wasn't because she didn't want to fuck him, because she did, but he didn't want to risk the friendship they had, not over a roll in the hay. She and I became friends quickly, and still are, to this day.
So, we now had two rounds of shooters in front of us, and we did them, one after the other, the Tequila burning as it went down, making my eyes water. I normally drink beer and can handle it very well. Hard liquor, not so much, and as it turned out, neither could Vicki, but it didn't show up until about an hour later.
Vicki was very mouthy when she got high, either on liquor or weed. I've done weed, but, it's really just not my thing. It makes me sleepy and too lethargic for me to enjoy it. But, I have no problem with those that do like it, it's just not me.
Vicki order us one more round before anyone could stop her, and Harry looked at Ray and I, his eyebrows raised, as if to say, "your guess is as good as mine as to why she was in 'this mood'. We did the shots, and Vicki suggested that we all go back to their place, yank off our clothes, and relax in the warm waters of their hot tub. Ray looked at me, questioningly, and I simply said to all of them, "I don't have a problem with that, if that's what everybody is wondering, I don't have a problem being naked in front of ya'll, if that's what you guys are concerned about."
"You sure you don't mind?" Vicki cooed, her smile giving away her tipsiness.