It took me years to bring this up with my partner.
Going to a sex club has always been a fantasy of mine, but I was certain Isabel would not be interested. And I wasn't sure I would enjoy the reality as much as the fantasy. But one evening, after a bit too much (or maybe just the right amount) of bourbon, unexpected words escaped my mouth.
You see, occasionally, and always after "some quantity" of whiskey, I'd say naughty words to Isabel while we were making love. I'd tell her how I love the feeling of my penis inside her, that I like to look down and see her lips stretched around my shaft, and that I can see her swollen clit. She's a little shy when it comes to sex and would never admit to me, or to herself, that she likes to hear these words, but on the rare occasions when I do whisper naughty words, she gets very excited and cums even harder. She'd deny it, but it's undeniable.
On this particular evening, as I was thrusting into her at a moderate pace (while being sure to bang my pubic bone against her mound), I whispered in her ear, "Sometimes when I masturbate (the fact that I masturbate wasn't news to her) I fantasize that another man and I are working you over. The fantasy makes me explode! Sometimes I imagine that you're sucking on me while someone is pounding you from behind. God, I love seeing you cum. Sometimes there are several guys. We're kissing your breasts, licking your pussy, and fucking you from behind. You're surrounded by handsome guys who just want to please you and make you cum, and cum, and cum."
I am sure
she
has never had that fantasy--which might have made it even more thrilling, or disgusting. As I told her my forbidden thoughts, she began moaning and pumping against my penis, banging against me.
"The men have clean, hard shafts that ache to please you. And while you're being fucked, you are also holding a stiff penis in each hand... and sometimes mine is in your mouth. And you're cumming and cumming without any guilt, just loving the feeling of being surrounded by stiff penises that want to thrust and cum inside you."
With that, she let out a long moan and her pussy began a pulsing orgasm around my cock. I stared at her wonderful face as I unloaded into her sweet hole. And then I collapsed onto the bed beside her.
After a few minutes of rest, she broke the silence with, "Good fuck!"
I held her in my arms and thought the same. I agreed, "God that was wonderful."
We lay there for several more minutes; I think. I may have drifted off for a bit.
"Do you really think that?" she asked.
"What? That it was a good fuck and that it felt wonderful? Absolutely!" I replied, grinning like a high-schooler who was just starting his sexual life.
"No, do you actually imagine a bunch of guys fucking me when you jack off?" She asked.
I paused. I could feel a blush that she couldn't see in the candlelight.
"Um, sometimes. Yeah." I admitted. In reality, this was a rare fantasy for me, but yeah, I'd thought about it.
"How come?" She asked. "How come you want other guys to fuck me. That sounds creepy."
"I guess because I like to pleasure you. To see you cum. To see you horny." I said.
"And it's just a fantasy," I continued. "I wasn't proposing it, just imagining it. Thinking about you horny as hell, surrounded by penises, loving it..." my voice trailed off as I searched for the words. "Okay, maybe it
is
creepy, but the
fantasy
turns me on," I confessed.
There was a long pause. Maybe a few minutes. I thought the conversation was over. I hoped I wouldn't regret having shared my fantasy.
"And how do I end up surrounded by all these guys? Are they people we know? Is it in our house?" She asked.
Ugh! The details. I was embarrassed to answer. But I'd been embarrassed to justify my thoughts already and, although this doesn't make sense as I write it now, it didn't seem like letting her know what I was thinking could make things worse.
"It varies." I explained, "but it usually involves us visiting a sex club in a big city."
I thought for a moment, "And it
never
involves anyone we know."
There was another pause before she asked her next question, "Are there other girls?"
"No, not usually," I explained. "Or when there are, that's a different fantasy."
"What do these guys look like?" she asked.
"It's a fantasy, so there isn't clarity. There are usually a variety of guys. You know, sometimes there are soccer-type athletic guys, or Black guys, or distinguished grey-haired guys,..." My voice trailed off.
"What?" she asked startled. "How many guys are there?" she asked.
"Usually just me and another guy, but sometimes several," I told her. "It's a
fantasy
, so there aren't a lot of details--it's more like a dream. The only consistent things are that they're clean, fit, and think you're hot. And they're hard and horny and want to fuck you."
"And you're okay with that?" She asked.
"Well, in my fantasy, yeah, I'm okay with it. Because in my fantasy you're in love with me, in love with my penis, and you always want to fuck me."
"So why do you think you fantasize about me having sex with another guy, or guys? Why isn't just the two of us doing those things enough?" She asked.
"I think because, at least in my fantasy, I want you to go over the top. To have sex that is beyond your imagination. To cum harder than you've ever cum before. And while you are experiencing sex that you could never have imagined, I want you to know that I am giving you that experience. That I'm giving you that experience by putting you in the position where a lot of guys want you. That I'm giving it to you by having these men fuck you. And I'm giving it to you because I love you so much and want to you experience this sexual bliss." I admitted.
"In my fantasy, and that's what this is--a fantasy, you love me even more, even while other guys are fucking you and pulling on your labia, you love me even more because I'm giving you this experience."
There was another pause. I was hoping she would understand that the root of my fantasy was making her happy. I was hoping she wouldn't think I was too creepy.