She just kept staring at me; not frowning, not smiling, just staring. "What if there was something that didn't make me so amazing in your eyes," she finally said, "What if I had a secret that you...ah, well you found perverse or at least not to your liking?" Her face suddenly took on a solemn, almost fearful look.
I guess I looked surprise; what the hell was she talking about? She didn't wait for the question, she continued.
"Dalton, I'm falling in love with you as well; but I do have a secret that I'm scared to share because I'm afraid it might end out relationship even before it starts; the thing is, I also know a relationship can't be built on lies."
I could see her starting to tear up; I took my thumb and wiped one away from the corner of her eye. I couldn't imagine this woman having such a terrible secret that it would alter the way I felt about her. I gave her a reassuring smile and kissed her gently. "Whatever this deep down secret is, honey," I said, "I'm sure I can handle it."
She looked scared; cautiously she spoke again. "Well, I'm kind of...ah, I mean, in my business world I'm always the one in charge and sometimes..." she stopped and just looked at me for a few seconds, "Oh hell, I'm just going to say it and pray you don't think I'm some kind of pervert...I like to be tied up... in bed I mean; not all the time but sometimes I like to be tied up and dominated, helpless and unable to stop my lover from ravaging my body anyway he desires," she said abruptly, then stopped to see what my reaction was going to be.
It stunned me, of all things, all that build up; she was so scared, just like my fucking ex-wife...only Tracy actually had the guts to tell me. I knew it was the wrong thing to do; she didn't know the details of what happened with Jean and me, very few did; but I couldn't help it, I burst out laughing.
Tracy looked horrified; she thought I was laughing at her. I quickly put my arms around her and assured her that wasn't the case, then I went on to tell her how Jean was tied up in the motel room when she was arrested and how she was too afraid to talk with me about her bondage fantasies and wound up with Irv instead. I told Tracy, not only didn't I consider her a pervert, but I admired her. I said I appreciated how hard it was for her to reveal that and how much it overwhelmed me to know she trusted me with her secret; if Jean had trusted me like that we'd still be married.
"I'll admit, I've never done anything like that, but if you don't mind putting up with a novice, I'd like to try it," I disclosed.
Finally...once again she lit up my soul with her smile. God, how I hated the thought of waking up in an empty bed again after that morning, but she had things at home she had to do before opening the gallery the next day; I hadn't thought about it all weekend but I also had to get off to an early start. Birthday or not, when you work for yourself there are no paid holidays; if I didn't work I didn't make any money.
The first thing I did after returning from dropping Tracy off was fire-up my laptop and find some bondage sites. I never was into porno; I just didn't think of sex as a spectator sport, for me it was full contact or nothing, so it didn't really surprise me when I wasn't turned on by the pictures; in fact, what I wound up doing was criticizing the camera techniques; poor, straight-on, single strobe lighting, bad composition, overexposed, underexposed, lousy color saturation; damn, if there's so much money in this stuff how come they can't afford a real photographer?
I found literally hundreds of sites and started jumping around from one to the other; I found I learned more from reading stories about bondage than I did looking at the pictures. Some of it I considered way over the top and hoped Tracy wasn't interested in going to such extremes, but there was some stuff I thought could be a lot of fun, I even got hard reading about it; hmm, this might work out okay, I thought.
I wasn't to see Tracy again until the middle of the week so I studied and read about various bondage techniques each night when I got home. By the time Wednesday night rolled around I was pretty sure I knew enough to at least tantalize her taste to be tied up and dominated.
I had a little surprise for her when I got to her apartment; it was in my pocket. She met me at the door with a big kiss and an even bigger smile. God, she felt so good in my arms.
"Where are we going, honey; is this okay to wear?" she asked turning around so I could see how the pretty little sun dress flared. I told her on the phone we were going out to dinner but I didn't say where.
"Stand still," I told her in a commanding voice. She looked at me a little startled but did what I told her to do. "Don't move," I said walking behind her. I slowly unzipped her dress and pushed it off her shoulders, letting it fall to her feet.
"What are you..."
"Ah, no talking till I tell you it's okay," I said with a slap to her beautiful, panty clad butt. "Separate your legs" I demanded with another slap to her posterior.
"Oooh;" she realized what was happening and I could feel her starting to breathe a little heavily.
I leaned in close and whispered in her ear, "This is what you like, isn't it?"
"Oh yes," she moaned.
"Yes what?" I said sternly.
"Yes, Sir," she whimpered, catching on right away.
My thumbs found the sides of her panties and I slowly lowered them to her knees. I reached around and felt her slit; God, she was so wet already I couldn't believe it. "What's this?" I taunted, "Are you wet for your master?"
"Oh yes, master," she sighed, "I'm so wet for you, Sir."
"Well you're going to have to wait until we come back from dinner."
"Oooh no, please Master, can't we stay here, I'll make us something...please," she pleaded.
"Are you arguing with me?" I corrected her.
"No, Sir."
"Good, do you know what this is?" I said pulling a piece of pre-tied rope from my pocket.