Congratulations Book Four
Is There Recrimination?
Ashkey sat alone in the front room waiting for the computer to come to life and spring into action. She was acutely aware of how quiet the house was. She strained her ears to listen and just could make out the snores of her husband.
It would have been so easy to climb back up the stairs and go to sleep alongside the warm body of her husband. Tiredness however had come and gone from her so now she was alone. At last, the computer flicked to the main screen and she logged in.
Ashkey did not know why she had come onto the computer. It was not for sexual purposes. In the last twenty-four hours, she had performed more sex acts than she had in the preceding year.
She needed company and just to feel loved. She knew that her husband worshipped the ground that she walked on and would do anything for her and the children. She also knew that the depravity of the last twenty-four hours had been nothing but sex.
At no time had she felt an emotional connection with either Anton or Maria but she had enjoyed using them as much as they had enjoyed using her. Now the guilt and recriminations had begun to creep into her mind and she had to find someone to talk to.
As the computer had warmed, itself up Ashkey had thought about her circle of friends trying to find if there was one of them, she could confide in about what had happened. By a process of elimination, she had discovered that she was not particularly close to any family members and the friends she had all knew her husband and would either not understand or want to tell her husband.
It was a sad condemnation of her life that over the years as a result of marriage she had lost contact with the many friends that she used to have. Of course, it had not mattered to her previously as she had her husband and children and had been happy in the cocoon of the home.
Now however things had changed for Ashkey. She had broken the rules of marriage. She had performed depraved and erotic sex with herself, a young man, a woman and then to make it was she had given herself to her husband.
What had happened? Where had all this come from? Who could she talk too?
Eventually Ashkey went to Literotica. She had not been on the site for a day or so and was not surprised to see that she had a few private messages. She flicked through them and answered them in order.
Once the board was clear, she then went to the Amateur picture site. She perused the board and located some new sets of photos. She quickly looked through them and found that there were quite a few sexy women on them. Had she been in the mood she knew that she could have masturbated to these pictures.
This morning however was not the time. Her head was still swirling from the events of the past two days and she had to find a way to put these into perspective. For a moment, she sat looking at a particular picture of a woman but was not really looking at her.
It was all so hard. Ashkey could resolve the fact that she had enjoyed the sexual liaisons that she had indulged in.
This was not a struggle the pleasure that she had felt was real. The sheer energy used in sexual relief had filled her life like it had never been filled before. This however was not where the struggle was.
The struggle was that in participating theses acts she had consented to break the vows of her marriage. Then to top it all she had lain there tonight and allowed her husband to have sex with her. Did she have any scruples anymore?
It was getting too much. Her head was just swirling theses ideals around and around and she knew that sitting here alone she would never resolve anything. Even if she was wrong and people told her, so she needed to have another opinion.
Eventually she came off the picture board and looked through the list of available forums. She settled on one entitled general chat. Ashkey logged on and look through the threads that had been posted. There were people here chatting about diverse matters such as anal sex and the best way to masturbate and how emotions contribute to love.
It seemed to be the appropriate board. Ashkey did not look at any of the threads. She just clicked on post new thread and then stared at the screen as her name was there as a headline and she was faced with a load of blank boxes.
Ashkey stepped away from the computer and went to the kitchen. For a moment, she needed to be distracted and compose in her head what she wanted to write. By the time the kettle had, boiled Ashkey was certain in her head what she had to write.
She prepared the coffee and then she went back to the computer and began to write.
Hello to All of You on Literotica
My name is Ashkey and I am in a real moral dilemma. For several years, I have been a happily married woman with a loving husband and two gorgeous girls. I do not work but I am a busy working housewife.
Although my sex life with my husband never set the lights flashing in my head I always thought I was happy.
However recently I discovered the internet and this awoke me to a new world of sexuality. I enjoyed the adult company and chat and thought nothing of what I was getting to.
I met one particular man and we developed a relationship and then friendship. We exchanged an erotic story two days ago and it set off a sequence of events.
After reading the story, I masturbate openly in my front room. Unbeknown to me I had an audience of a young man and instead of sending him away, I encouraged him. I played games with him and eventually I fucked him.
It was fantastic and when I went to bed that night I was happy for the first time in years. The next day I went shopping to change my clothing and ended up with a female sales assistance. We made love and it was fantastic,
I then got home and carried on my sex life with the young man.
