As I look back on it now I don't know if I would have really cheated on Mark, but I do know that I'm glad I didn't have to find out.
For the first 7 years of our marriage I considered our sex life great. Mark was a very tender and giving lover that from time to time would get really wild and just fuck me for all he was worth. It was great.
Then I started listening to the conversations that my friends were having. They were all talking about the men they were fucking. Some of them were single, but most of them were married. The women...including the married ones...were having hot wild sex with men with large cocks. The married women were NOT talking about their husbands. They were having affairs.
They kept talking about how long and thick their lovers' cocks were and how much they enjoyed getting fucked by cocks that big.
They frequently described the sizes of the cocks as being 9, 10, 11, or even 12 inches long. At first I wasn't really interested by the whole thing, but over time the idea slowly crept into my mind.
Let me reiterate that I had always considered my sex life with Mark to be great. Hearing about large thick cocks and the kinds of pleasures that they gave to the other women though made me start thinking about Mark's cock.
I'd never really thought about the size of Mark's cock, I'd only been with a few men in my life and though Mark's wasn't the biggest I'd had it wasn't the smallest either. I'd never really measured it, but I guessed that it was around 5 inches long.
My friends were talking about fucking guys with cocks twice the size of Mark's. I'd never experienced anything that size before and the way that the described the pleasure that the large cocks gave them...well I knew that I'd never felt like that with Mark.
I hated myself for that. I love Mark, I love making love to Mark, but I started thinking about him as sexually inferior. I should have just walked away from my friends and not listened to any more of their conversations, but I didn't. The more I listened the more I started thinking about having a large cock inside me.
I was conflicted though. On the one hand I was excited by the idea of getting fucked by a big cock. On the other hand I knew that if Mark found out I was fucking another man I'd lose him. I also knew that I'd never be able to keep it a secret from Mark. Several times during our marriage I'd done something and then admitted it to Mark right away because I felt so guilty about it.
There was no way that I could go behind Mark's back to have a big cock.
That's when I decided to talk to him about it. I thought that at the very least getting it out in the open would give him the chance to say no and then maybe I could just forget about it.
I sat him down one night and told him that I wanted to experience a big cock and I explained to him how I had come to want to try it.
The first thing he said was that he didn't want me spending time with those friends anymore as they were obviously filling my head with bad ideas. I can't say that I blame him for that. If I hadn't been hanging out with them I'd have lived the rest of my life knowing that Mark was all I needed and wanted.
I was surprised that he didn't immediately say no to me having sex with someone with a big cock. He said that he needed to think about it. He asked me not to do anything until he'd made his decision. I promised that I wouldn't do anything without his consent.
I waited patiently for 3 months without asking him if he'd made his decision yet. I longed for him to tell me...yes or no...I just wanted to know. If the answer was no I could try to forget it...I was pretty sure that I could if I had to. If the answer was yes I was eager to find a man with a large cock to fuck me.
When he finally did give me his answer it wasn't one that I was expecting.