My wife and I have been married for twelve years and we have 3 children. Our life is very good. Our sex life is very ordinary. The fire is very low in our fun life. I love my wife with every breath. And I am sure of her as well. We have just lost out spark. I have given the problem many hours of deep thinking to find an answer. Is she sexy? Much more than I can tell you. Men are crazy about Karen. And every move of her body is sexy. We just can not find the spark. We are too busy being parents, working, etc.
We both have friends of the opposite sex. But not that we desire to have sex with. I have watched Karen flirt and tease other men at parties. I finally brought it up and found that she felt the same but had no idea how to try to fix it. We talked about it more and more, but we got nowhere.
I finally told her I found it sexy when she flirted with other men. She was shocked and a little offended about it. Several days went by before she brought it back up. We talked in depth about it then. No I had no desire to flirt with other women. But I just was turned on if she flirted or men did with her. What if they touched her? Well I didn't know because I had never seen another man touch her?
We talked more and more about it. I found it exciting and she was kind of curious about my feelings. Our sex life improved a little. As we talked more about it she ask more questions and we explored deeper. Would I be turned on by her going to Bars alone? Yes, probably? Could I just stay home and let her do that or would I need to be there to watch her?
I wasn't sure but I found a crazy empty feeling in my gut wondering when she would come home. We talked about that. If she came home before midnight would I be disappointed? Probably! Not til maybe 2am? Probably excited. What would I really hope for? I finally told her. I would probably not want her to come home until morning.
"But Sweetheart if I came home in the morning it would mean I had slept with him."
"Yes I know."
"Would you really want that to happen?"
"I am not sure but I think so?"
I was sure Karen could not do that but I told her anyway. I am the only man she has been with. She was raised very strict. We had waited until after we were married. And I was not sure it wasn't part of the problem. She could not let her hair down. As we got deeper into my fantasies I opened up more and more. I told her I could see her actually dating other men.
"Do you mean as friends or for sex?"
"Sexually for fun."
"Really, you could let me do that?"
"Yes I think so."
"What else excites you?"
"You and men of color."
"Do you mean as friends? I have clients who are men of color and men I work with who are."
"Yes I know but no sexually. Has anything ever happened with your clients?"
"Yes it has."
"One of the bad ones?"
"Yes, one of the very Bad ones."
"Did you report him?"
"No, I didn't."
Karen is a welfare worker and works with young people with problems. She is involved with young men and women who are in trouble. She councils some who are very bad . Most are of color.
"Did he touch you?"
"Yes."
"Just the once?"
"No, it happened a few weeks ago. And several times since."
"He has fondled you through your clothes?"
"More than that."
"More than just outside of your clothes?"
"Yes, much more."
"Has he fucked you yet?"
"No, He hasn't yet but he plans to. He wants me as his slut. His white married whore, he calls me."
"My God, Karen that is so sexy. How old is he?"
'It is so crazy, he scares the crap out of me. He is one of the crazy little killers from the Bad gangs. He is 18 and his record has been cleared since he turned 18. If he has told me the truth? He has killed 16 people since he was 15 to now."
"Other gang bangers?"
"Mostly but not all of them."
"What do you mean not all of them?"
"His lawyer is a real scum bag and he claims he has done work for his Lawyer."
"What kind of work for him?"
"Wet work. He claims. He says he has killed 7 people for his Lawyer. Two husbands and five wives."
"Do you believe him?"
"Ya, I think so?"