I went into the bedroom took a quick shower (I was just too tired to wait for a hot bath) I came out and decided to go see if Danny was still down stairs in the den. In our house you can look down into the den at the top of the stairs. I walked over drying myself and looked down. Do you know what that son of a bitch was doing? He was sitting there in his chair masturbating as he watched me on the TV fucking those men on the Video. I wanted to scream at him for being turned on. I did that to hurt him the way he hurt me, but what happens he’s down there all turned on and jacking-off, what an ass-hole I turned around and went back to my bedroom.
I laid down on the bed and I think as my head hit the pillow I was out. I felt like my head was throbbing and I was sick to my stomach. I opened my eyes and realized that it was morning. I hurt from the top of my head to my feet. I swear my hair hurt. You see, I may drink one glass of wine a year and then I seldom finish the glass. My nipples hurt like hell, My back, my legs, and the inside of my thighs. I laid there trying to think between the pounding in my head. I had to pee real badly and I did not want to move from my bed. My hands hurt my jaw I laid there trying to figure out what happen. Maybe I had been in a car wreck? I reached for Danny and he was not there next to me. My mind was a fog. Danny, where is he? I had a flash in my head of Him and a woman in our bed, or was that a dream, It had to be a dream and it was wild.
The more I laid there trying to think the worse the pain was. I managed to get up and make it to the bathroom. After I finished I wiped myself and I had sperm on the tissue. I looked at it and all I could think about was this hammering going on in my head. I too two Tylenol to help get rid of the pain all over my body. I took two Excedrin to get rid of the pounding in my head and just to make sure this pain would leave I took two aspirins. I slowly made it back to the bed I had the worse hang over I had ever had in my life. I remember thinking as I started to fall back to sleep “GOD, PLEASE LET ME DIE”
I realized that I needed to call work, I did and in great pain I told my boss I was very sick and I would not be in today. I hung up and just died. I woke up again about two hours later and thank God my headache was gone. I was still sore and I still felt real bad. But the good news was the headache was gone and now I could think and try and figure out how I got this way. I laid there and started to remember yesterday. I laid there with tears in my eyes as I recalled Dan and his girlfriend in my bed. I really started to cry when I started to recall what I had done.
The more I remembered the more I wanted to just die. I forced myself up but on my light robe to cover my sore naked body, I went down stairs to the kitchen and made coffee. I sat down at the table to drink it as I sat there I realized that Danny was not there. I started to wonder how he reacted to that nasty video that I had made and that I had showed him. Then I remembered how I had looked down on him from upstairs and he was masturbating. I felt so ashamed how could I have done anything like that? I know that I was drunk and I was mad, but that is no excuse what so ever for what I had done. It is one thing to get mad at Danny, but to do what I did I just sat there and started to cry.
I sobbed for awhile and realized that this was getting me no where. Sure I wanted to make Danny pay for his cheating and all I did was make a porno tape for him showing him I was a slut. Did he get mad? No, he gets turned on and masturbates. I just knew my life was ruined and right then I had no idea how to get my life back together. I still felt sore everywhere on my body. My nipples, my butt and my vagina simple hurt I slowly went over to the Video machine and checked, the tape was in and I decided to see just how awful it was.
I turned on the TV and pushed play. The TV lit up and there I was in all my glory, I had this black man fucking me and I was going nuts. I had another man in my mouth. This black guy kept fucking and fucking and fucking. He would change his pace, move me around and I noticed his cock. He was a monster what really took my breath away was watching me and the way I reacted to him fucking me. Then to hear my own words telling him how I never wanted him to stop. I told him how much I loved his big black cock. I told him I wanted him to fuck me in both my holes, I told him I wanted his big black cock in my ass. He talked sweet and I went after the cock trying to get in my mouth.
I watched and I had two feeling going through me at the same time. I was sick with myself for acting the way I had acted. I was sick with my self that as a married woman I would beg for a strange man and he was black to never stop fucking me. I was ashamed of myself. Now at the very same time I was stirring, I was watching myself at a point in my life that I was at a sexual bliss. This was a sexual bliss that Danny had never taken me too and I felt that Danny could never be able to take me too. I sat there watching and wondering just what was I going to do? I could never do anything like this for my pleasure; I did this to get even with Dan, yet... I hated to admit it to myself I did remember the feeling what I had experienced yesterday afternoon and early evening.