I Am___________
By: by lrhustler
Ray and I meet on our college campus. Ray had a college roommate Susan who become a life-long friend with Susan. This is the story of the transformation of the relationship between the three of us (Ray, Susan, and I (James)).
In my sophomore year, I walked into my chemistry laboratory class five minutes before the lab was to start. My eyes immediately fell upon the best looking pair of female legs I had ever seen. They were long, beautifully brown, and muscular. This college girl was sitting on a lab stool wearing this mini skirt which revealed those legs. I was normally a reserved guy who would have never gone up to someone as good looking as Ray. In this case, summing all my courage, I introduced myself and start up a conversation with this physically fit and beautiful female. That bold move on my part changed forever the lives of three people.
Ray was surprisingly receptive to my advance. She started talking about the lab class and challenged me as to which of us would get the better grade. Normally, I would have had no problem accepting such a challenge, but I wanted nothing to possibly come between us, so I just said, "not competitors but study colleagues". I wanted any excuse to spend time with this woman.
After the lab class ended, I walked Ray out of the building into the campus square. As we were walking and talking, out of nowhere this girl came up and hugged Ray, almost knocking her over. That, of course, was Susan. Ray introduced us and told me that Susan and she met in their freshman year and since then have been dorm roommates and inseparable friends. Susan was also nice looking but I had eyes only for Ray.
As the three of us became friends, I noticed that the differences between Ray and Susan were almost night and day. Ray was the serious, studious, and conservative person where Susan had that "Free go lucky devil may care" personality. This difference was also evident in their different dating styles. Ray, before me, had only 2 boyfriends, while Susan had a different one every three to four weeks. Susan would be on a high when she started a new relationship and when she ended one, she would be very low.
The college dorm had a liberal policy concerning boys being in a girl's dorm room. Boys were permitted during the day only if the door to the room remained open. Violation of that rule meant the girl would lose her dorm room.
Very often, I would be in Ray's and Susan's room studying with Ray when Susan would come rushing in crying and depressed over the breakup with her latest boyfriend. Susan would immediately throw herself into Ray's arm seeking Ray's embrace so she could cry her eyes out attempting to receive comfort and reassurance from Ray. When that occurred, I would quietly gather my stuff and leave them alone.
Ray and I over that year realized that we wanted a life together. We kept it to ourselves that upon graduation and job employment, that we would be married. The remaining two years of our college relationship was a gradual increase in our physical relationship. Intercourse, however, was kept for our wedding night (I know, that was totally not the norm). As the time for our wedding approached, we did start getting into some petting.
On our wedding night, as one would expect, the sex was awkward in that neither of us really know how to proceed, how to ensure that each other enjoyed what we were doing, and especially in how to excite and generate pleasure for each other. Thus, once penetrated in the missionary position, Ray was experiencing pain within her vagina, and it was even painful for me (since I am not circumcised and the pulling back of the fore skin was painful). While the mutual pain our first sexual experience was somewhat unsatisfying. Ray was really disappointed and seem to hold that against me.
As time when along over those first two year, our sex life did not really improve as we continued only having sex in the missionary position with no touching or foundling prior to my entering her. If I tried any type of foreplay, Ray would resist that. That was due to Ray's resentment of what happen on our wedding night and her unwillingness to try things to spice up our sex life. I, on the other hand, did some research by reading and watching porn. I then knew how good sex could be and what to do but could not get Ray to try things to spice up our sex life.
During those first two years of living together, Ray continued her friendship with Susan. At least every other month, Susan would pop up at our front door seeking Ray's comfort for another of her failed relationships. You need to understand, Susan was very sexually active according to her accounts of her sexually activities, which she freely shared with Ray and me. It was apparent that Susan could really "Fuck". So, sex was not her problem. Her problem was the choice of the type of guys that she dated. They were in for the sex but not for a real relationship. Susan would send a few days living with us after each of her episodes. There were times when I felt that I was living with two women! That really didn't bother me, I like Susan as a friend. At times, her being in our home, gave Ray and I a much needed break from our sexual problems (there was no sex during those days when Susan was staying with us).
One night after Susan departed our house after recovering from her latest sexual mishaps, I sat down with Ray to have a frank discussion about our sex life or the lack there of. I explained to Ray that it was becoming difficult for me to continue being sexually unsatisfied and sexually deprived. Ray looked at me as if I had just lied with my hand on the bible!
"James, how can you look me in the eye and say that you are sexually deprived? We have sex 3 to 4 times a month"!
"Yes Ray 3 or 4 times out of possible 30 plus times a month. Do the math, I am deprived not only in the quantity but especially in the quality! Even though I climax, it feels like they could be bigger and better. You have never had an orgasm! That makes me feel less of a man if I can't bring you off".
"James, you have been listening to Susan describe, in great detail, her sexual experiences. Even though Susan has numerous and exciting climaxes, none of her relationships last more than a few months and then she comes running to me to comfort her. Why is it with her great sex, that she can never establish a long time relationship"?
"I have been giving ours and Susan situations a lot of thought over the last six months. I have been researching literature, social media, and the internet for answers. The conclusions I have arrived at are You are afraid to try anything new because of our disastrous wedding night. This fear has led you to believe that sex between us can never improve. That conclusion will one day lead you to seeking sexual satisfaction in the arms of another man (one with more experience than me). Your lack of willingness to try new things is going to drive me into the arms of a woman who has no qualms about doing various sexual things that some in society consider abnormal or weird. I do not want that for either of us. I love you and you love me. We should be able to express that love physically and emotionally. So far in our marriage we have not had no holds bar physical and emotional sex where we put our whole bodies, minds, and our strengths into having sex".
"Now for Susan's problem of not being able to establish a long term relationship. What is the one prominent aspect of Susan relationship with guys"?
