Ohio, 1959
As Cathy and I left the motel, we both felt a strong feeling of submission and blissfulness after what had just happened. When we got home to the babysitter, our girls were still up and we had dinner and put them to bed. Cathy and I then went to our bedroom and shut the door, then got undressed and lay down naked together on the bed.
As we cuddled facing each other and wordlessly looked into each other's eyes, Cathy guided my hand down to touch her belly. Her face had now grown a sad and worried expression like it had earlier in the motel when I had first seen her after fucking Robert. "You won't leave me, will you, James?" she asked.
As the submissive blissfulness of the evening wore off, I was hit with what felt like a fresh churning in my stomach as the realization of what she indicated truly dawned on me. At the same time, I could feel my penis growing hard for a third time. "I love you, Cathy," I said. And then after a while: "I won't leave you. I promise."
Our lips kissed as we drew closer to each other, our eyes still locked, and my hard penis now pressed against her belly. She noticed this and smiled as I began to probe her pussy hairs with my penis as we cuddled closer. I ached with the desire to penetrate her, and I did for the second time that evening. I lasted longer than usual because I had already ejaculated twice, and I again noticed that her pussy felt looser and gripped me less than it had before. Yet, somehow, that turned me on even more. Cathy looked up at me as I was fucking her and smiled but I could see a grimace on her face as well.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"Nothing, honey," she said. "It's just I'm a little sore. Please finish soon."
Somehow these words and what they conveyed pushed me over the edge and I orgasmed deep inside her, or as far as I could reach. I stayed there for a long time but I'm not sure I ejaculated anything, as the two previous times this evening had dried me out.
Cathy fell asleep quickly after that but something kept me awake. My mind kept racing wild with images of what I had seen in the motel room and even more my imagination of what they must have done when I left them alone together for over two hours. I thought of how red and swollen her pussy had looked under her bush when I came back. How loose her pussy felt when I had frantically fucked it then and just now. How flushed and sweaty she was. The smell of his cum and her juices. The musky smell and taste when I had finally kissed her where he had fucked her. Why had I done that? What kind of man was I? How could I have let this happen? How could I have allowed my beautiful young wife, my high school sweetheart, my first kiss, the mother of my two young daughters, to give herself over to another man--my own boss even? And why did she do it? Why did she want it and allow it? There was no going back and I anguished over how I could possibly live with myself after this.
Then another thought hit me again. What if she was really pregnant by him? Would I accept that and raise their child as my own? Be a literal cuckold? Tears started to fill my eyes again and I wept quietly in the dark over these fears and anxieties that settled at the pit of my stomach like a great weight and made me feel nauseous. How could I forgive her? How could I forgive myself?
Finally I slept, fitfully, and awoke Saturday morning to find Cathy already up. I could hear her making breakfast for the girls in the kitchen and them laughing. I looked at the rumpled spot where Cathy had lain beside me last night. I thought I saw some wetness on the sheets where her pussy might have pressed.
My stomach still churned from yesterday. How could my wife in the other room just go back to her normal life and being a mother to our two girls after what had just happened? These thoughts and everything that had happened came flooding back and rushed through my mind over and over again for the next several hours as I simply lay awake in bed. I felt too tired to get up and I knew I wouldn't be able to focus on anything either.
Eventually, at about eleven, Cathy came in to check on me and then offered to bring me breakfast in bed but I said I didn't want it and was still sleeping. At about noon our youngest daughter came in and asked me why I was being a sleepy head, so finally I dragged myself up and took a shower before showing up in the kitchen to get something to eat. I didn't feel good.
Cathy kissed me on the lips but looked worried now that she could see how I felt. We talked more that day and weekend about what had happened and how I now felt about it. I told her that despite having been turned on by her fucking Robert, the full reality of it had now hit me and I didn't want it to go on... but at the same time I knew I couldn't take it back, and it crushed me as a man. She was devastated to hear this and we both cried together again like we had that night. I said I didn't know what to do. She pleaded to have sex with me to make me feel like a man again but I told her I didn't even feel like it. She shook her head and quietly wept at this rejection and our mood together became somber and depressed. We slept together clothed in our undergarments on Sunday.
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On Monday I wasn't even sure if I would be able to go to work and face Robert, but when the morning came I got up and went to work, although I was a little late. When I saw Robert I couldn't look him in the eye and out of the corner of his eye I saw him only slightly wave to me as a greeting. He seemed a little nervous toward me and both of us seemed to avoid interacting as much as possible.
That night Cathy and I talked again and I said I was feeling a little better. The familiar tingling of arousal in my penis had come back and despite myself I felt turned on by the shapely form of my petite little wife again. She seemed sad but I tried to be more easygoing and give her some reassurance. Neither of us brought up the encounter with Robert or the possibility she was pregnant.
It continued much like this for the rest of the week and slowly I began to feel better about the situation as my arousal again heightened, but we still avoided any more discussion of what had happened. Cathy know doubt expected I was still taking it very badly. That Saturday, night after the kids were in bed I kissed Cathy on the lips for the first time in a week, and she kissed me back and we looked into each other's eyes for a long time.
"I love you, Cathy," I said, "and I want you to know I will never leave you, I could never leave you...." As I said this I helped her undress on the bed and kissed her breasts, then her belly, and slowly got lower to her pussy. I kissed her pussy and then looked up at her.
Cathy looked down at me the way she had when I had kissed her there just after her encounter with Robert, but this time she had a puzzled yet almost hopeful expression on her face. I kissed her hairy pussy again and then started to lick it. I continued to lick and she began to give small moans of pleasure and I could smell and feel her juices beginning to flow. I did this slowly and wordlessly for around half an hour and eventually it seemed like she had a small orgasm. I stopped and started kissing her belly and then worked my way back up to her breasts again and sucked on those. Eventually we started making out. My penis was erect and throbbing with arousal now in my boxers but something held me back from touching myself or taking them off.
We switched to me spooning her and she could doubtless feel my erection against her butt through my boxers but I still didn't take it out. I knew that if I ejaculated now it could deprive me of this heightened feeling of sexual arousal. After exchanging more "I love you"s we both fell asleep like that.
The next day we did the same thing and this time as I spooned her with my throbbing penis still inside my boxers, I suddenly asked how big Robert's cock was. She didn't answer for a long time, then said "Not that big." It sounded like a lie and I turned her around and got on top of her to look at her face. She looked guilty and scared.
"Don't lie, Cathy," I said. My penis was throbbing and pressing so painfully now against my boxers that I had to get off her and take it out. She saw my very hard but modestly sized erection and then looked at my face. I looked back at her and then said I knew he was bigger than me.
She interrupted to say "No, no, he's not bigger than you. I didn't say that! I love your penis, James. Put it inside me and fuck me."
I was on the edge of ejaculating and tried to control myself. I wanted to fuck her but I didn't want to go back to not feeling aroused like I was. Something else in me also just didn't want to ejaculate inside her. I thought of Robert ejaculating inside her with his much larger cock. I wanted that.
"Come on," Cathy said, "putting her hand around my penis and stroking it." I immediately thrust into her hand as if it was her pussy and with the help of my other hand ejaculated right there. Some spurted on her belly and pubic hair. She drew her hand away in surprise but then brought it back to help jerk me off as the last bits of semen spurted out and dripped on the bed. Then she got a tissue and helped wipe it up and throw it in the wastepaper basket in the corner of the room.
We returned to snuggling and spooning for a while after that. I again started to get hard and touch myself but didn't let myself ejaculate. I then asked for more details about what she did with Robert. She was reluctant to say. I pressed her and she finally said, "Well, we fucked. He fu--." She trailed off.
"He what?" I asked.
"He fucked me," she said again and then turned to look at me and down at my erection growing for a second time. "He fucked me DEEP, and he fucked me HARD," she then hissed slowly, enunciating each word with an almost angry passion, like a cat mewing in heat.