I woke when he got up and peed.
"Come back to bed, baby," I said.
He came.
I kissed him.
"Do you want me to stay," I asked, "escort you to the luncheon and the banquet?"
When he didn't say anything I kissed him again.
"I'll make you proud," I said.
"You can introduce me as Pam and show how you handle me," I said, rubbing my body against him and breathing into his ear.
He chuckled deep in his throat and said, "of course I want you to stay," and after a brief hesitation he added, "Pam."
"Good," I said, kissing him again, "now take what you want."
"You shouldn't have said 'no' all those time," he said, his hands moving me until I straddled him, classic cowgirl fashion.
As I leaned back he grabbed my nipples and twisted them, making me gasp.
"You shouldn't have spent so much time on the road," I said, hoping I hit the mark.
And I obviously had.
I cried out as his hands crushed my tits. Jesus, it felt like he was trying to tear them off again.
"GODDAMIT!" he said, "I was busting my fucking ass to keep you in all the shit you wanted."
"Baby," I said but was stopped again by the pain in my boobs as he squeezed.
"And my reward was you kept your goddam knees together," he said, squeezing again.
I bent forward, my tears real, Jesus, he was really mauling them, and breathed into his ear, "please baby, quit hurting me. I'm sorry," and I was, but not necessarily for the reasons I figured he thought, "I just thought you had given up on us and my feelings were hurt."
He released my tits and pulled me into an embrace then, making me breathe a sigh of relief.
"I didn't know, baby," I whispered, "and I'll never be like that again, I promise."
I was excited too. The pain had gotten to me, and my hips set up that special womanrhythm without me consciously thinking about it.
"Do you really, Pam?" he asked, and I could hear the tears in his voice.
"Really what, baby," I breathed into his ear, my own tears wetting our cheeks.
"Really promise?" he said, pushing me away and locking my eyes with his.
I smiled through my tears and said, "yes baby, I really promise, I'll NEVER say 'no' to you again."
He was crying now and I started covering his face with little kisses, tasting tears and snot salt.
"God, I love you," he said, "you can see why I needed to go to whores, can't you?"
And that snapped me back to reality although he was obviously lost in his fantasy.
"WHAT?!" I snapped, leaning back and looking down at him, "WHORES?!"
"Baby," he said, still crying now, "you had cut me off, what was I supposed to do?"
"HOW MANY?!" I said, not quite yelling but not far from it. I was glad to be back in charge here. Christ, my tits hurt.