I laid back, my hands behind my head, thinking. Sleep was the farthest thing from my mind.
"You'll never be the same," David had said, so I laid back, taking mental and emotional inventory, wondering if he had been right.
I was definitely a whore, and I knew that I would be doing it again. I don't know exactly why, but my mind was clear on that point. Laying here, with a man I had known for a few hours and made love with, I felt - - well - - and I had to stop and think about my feelings for a few minutes, laying there in the dark, only the soft light from the clock radio and what diffused through the windows giving my eyes anything on which to work.
I felt female, perfectly, utterly female.
I felt feminine, delightfully, and exquisitely feminine.
Dammit, I was proud. I was proud that he had wanted me, had been willing to pay a good price for me. I was proud that I had satisfied him and that he had wanted to satisfy me. And he had.
There was no shame there, and I searched hard for it.
I smiled in the dark and realized I was, well, a bit aroused.
So I reached down and masturbated, slowly, not wanting to wake him.
And I realized something else, as I came, almost gently, a delightful release rather than a hard, passionate orgasm. I realized that someday David would want me but I would have a date with a client and, on some level I wasn't really proud of, I would enjoy telling him "no."
So I was to be a commodity, to be bought and sold. Well, rented and returned.
I liked it.
My self-analysis complete, I slept.
I woke, with it still dark outside, to the feeling of a hand cupping my breast and an erection pressed against my ass. I hummed a soft "mmmmmmmm," caught the hand on my breast in mine, kissed his fingertips, each in turn, put it back on my breast, and used my own thumb to make sure my nipple was good and hard.
Then I snuggled back against him, arching my back, offering him my ass.
"Take what you want, baby," I said, wiggling against him a little.
"You're sure?" he said, his voice deep, his breath warm against my neck.
"Please baby," I said, pushing back a little more, "I like it this way."
His hand left my breast for a moment and I felt it trail across my hip to lift my cheek, helping him to get what he wanted. I felt his erection as he guided it, finding my asshole.
"Mmmmmmmmmm," I hummed again, and then said, softly, "Please, baby."
I relaxed and when I felt the first penetration I squeezed, making myself tight for him.
"Oh God, Patty," he said, softly, "are you okay."
I giggled and said, "I'll be okay in a minute, sugar, when you get it in."
I met his push with my own and suddenly he was inside of me, giving me that deliciously full feeling only anal sex can give a woman.
"Hold still now, baby," I whispered, pushing back, "don't hurry, enjoy."
I squeezed again and he hissed, "Jesssussssssss."
"Don't worry, Chet," I said, "I LOVE it this way."
I caught his hand and brought it to my mouth. Then I kissed each fingertip again before taking his middle finger into my mouth and sucking it, holding his wrist, taking the full length of his finger until I triggered my gag reflex. I swallowed hard and took his finger into my throat, continuing to swallow hard. Then I released his finger from my lips and moved his hand back to my breast.
"Play with them, honey," I said, using my hand to lift and drop my breast, then covering his fingers with mine and using his fingers to squeeze.
"They won't break, baby, go ahead," I said, squeezing with my strong sphincter muscle.
"Oh Jesus," he sort of moaned, pushing deep into me while squeezing my breast hard enough to draw a little gasp.
"That's right baby," I started but cut off with a yelp as he twisted my nipple, HARD.
"If my wife understood," he said, twisting harder, forcing me to bury my face in the pillow to muffle my cry, "I wouldn't need you."
"Baby," I started but again, his hand dug into my tit, making me cry out into the pillow.
"You like it like this, don't you Patty," he said, twisting my nipple and thrusting deep into me.
There was only one professional answer to that, so I gave it.
"Yesssssss, unnnnnnh," I said.
His fingers grabbed and crushed my breast.
"Tell me how much you like it," he said.