"When you say you think you are dirtier than most girls, what's your definition of 'dirty'?"
My boyfriend JD and I had not been dating long when we started to talk about what we liked sexually. We were trying to work out exactly how compatible we might be together, and he had a lot more sexual experience than I did. I always felt I was more experimental than my female friends and to be honest, when they had shared stories of their sexual experiences or relationships, I thought they were prudish. But my boyfriend still out did me.
JD wanted examples of when I thought I had been dirty. It was hard to think of exact moments because I had always just seen what I did, as sex. It was not unusual for me to give my previous boyfriends a blow job every morning we woke up together. It was not unusual for me to fuck other women's husbands during the day before I worked night shift. I didn't really respect the sisterhood because I never felt it was my job to keep their men faithful. I loved the way these men treated me- like a mistress. They gave me their A-game and fucked me in a way that although satisfying, left me begging for more. They pretended they were going to meet clients for work, and instead they would spend hours fucking me in my hallway, on my kitchen bench, in the shower, and on my bed.
We exchanged dirty messages and photos, I would make them send me video footage of them wanking until they came. I collected a gallery of cock photos on my phone and would look at them while alone, to get me off. But I thought that was all normal sexual behaviour, and my boyfriend JD sounded like he had done some pretty out there stuff in his past. JD is very open minded and he had told me some of the things he had tried with previous girlfriends. I was worried that I wasn't adventurous enough or sexual enough for him. I was scared he might be into some really weird stuff that I wouldn't be comfortable with, and even though were new to a sexual relationship together, I had already invested the last year in a friendship with him and was falling in love.