PART I – DISCOVERY
I was around 20 when I was reading a book in which the main character discovers his wife is cheating on him. They don't have particularly happy marriage and they are drifting ever further apart. At one point he actually watches hot sex his wife is having with his colleague from work and does nothing about it. He however finds himself mildly aroused by his wife's passion during the sex, something he fondly remembers she also had for him when they started dating. They eventually get divorce.
I remember having instant erection when reading the part where he watches how his wife is fucked by his coworker. I immediately shared that interesting concept with my girlfriend at the time. We were in a relationship almost a year at that time, and we were madly in love how only 20 and something years old university students can be. We were in a loving relationship, and she was sexually liberal so she accepted idea with a playful smile on her face. "Would you like to see me fucked by your coworker in little red dress?" she asked alluding to the scene from the book I just told her about. "Yes!" I said loudly as my rock hard cock was entering her wet pussy.
Over time, I continued exploring the idea. On internet I found the idea and the fetish was called cuckolding. I went on gathering lots of pictures, clips and articles on the topic, but her interest waned. For her it was something interesting that would spice up our sex life, for me it was my deepest utmost fantasy. I think she never understood how much it turned me on. However we still played about the idea from time to time and I kept coming with more and more elaborate scenarios. I found out that I enjoy the idea of being denied sex while she is having mind blowing sex with her lover, and that I really loved the tease and denial. I discovered I like the idea of her wearing revealing clothes and underwear I bought her for a date with her lover, especially if she would not wear it for me. I found out that humiliation of being a cuckold is a huge turn on, and that humiliation intensified if I imagine her having sex with someone we both now, or that she is making me a cuckold in public.
However, relationship did not end very well. We were near the end of our university days when we decided we should break up. It was sort of a mutual decision, and I can't say that my persistent insisting that she tries having sex with another guy was not a contributing factor. This thing was just not her cup of tea.
I graduated and started working and had a string of very short relationships or one night stands. I am quite good looking and am working a very well payed job (lawyer), so I had no problem attracting opposite sex. Interesting thing I never had this fantasy recurring while I was dating girls who I don't really have any feelings involved (or not too much at least).
Then around four years ago I met my now wife at a bar. We were celebrating our colleague passing bar exam, and she was there celebrating her friend's birthday. I was mesemrized the moment I saw her. 5'8" tall, long blonde hair with somewhat pale complexion, green eyes. She had a body of a model, perfect ass and small tits. She was wearing shortest possible plated miniskirt (golden colour!) and a similar bright top. We started conversation, exchanged phone numbers, and agreed to meet for a coffee next day.
We met once for a drink and then hooked up on our second date. It was great, she wasn't just looking perfect and sexy we were also enjoying our time and conversations together, we made each other laugh so much and so hard. I was sure this is a new serious relationship I am about to enter and indeed it was. First year was year filled with laughter, fun trips and great sex. Oh when we mention sex I might add that first time when we were about to have sex I couldn't get it hard. We were out in the club, drinking some wine dancing with the music, we kissed so much, she was grinding with her ass on my rock hard cock in the club, and I could tell she enjoyed knowing how hard she made me. Eventually when we got home when she undressed, I just couldn't get an erection. No need to tell you how much such thing can affect man especially when you like the girl so much I liked her. However my performance significantly improved second time we tried, once I relaxed a bit more, I suppose her beauty was really creating extra pressure on me.
PART II – BEGINNING
After around a year idea of her sleeping with someone else again slowly crept in my mind. I realized this fetish was connected to my feelings. I really needed to love someone in order to be aroused by the idea of that person enjoying sex with someone else. I started fantasizing again about my girlfriend having great sex with someone other than me. It was quite easy for me to tell her, did I mention I am lawyer and skilled with words? First, I told her that I found that jealousy is a very powerful aphrodisiac. She was interested so I continued explaining how I would be very turned on if she would flirt with someone. She found the idea amusing so I continued to elaborate, little by little during pillow talk I finally confessed I am extremely turned on by the idea of her sleeping with another man. I have to say she was very curious about the fantasy. She wasn't superficial at all, she wanted to know the reasons, what makes me tick, what exactly turns me on in that idea. So I told her everything about tease and denial, about humiliation, about her having mind blowing sex with someone else about importance of her enjoying in the process, without her enjoyment this fantasy of mine had very little sense. I think she grasped the fantasy very well, especially how in order for me to enjoy she must have really good time with her lover.
She enjoyed teasing me lightly with her hand, caressing my hard cock and asking me more and more about these fantasies. I would drip precum and tell her about everything that I find hot, humiliating and turn on. I was telling her about amazing orgasm she has riding her lover's huge cock, when she asked, who this lover should be?
"I don't know" I replied "some hot guy you are so attracted you can't resist."
"No", she said "you mentioned that the most humiliating would be if it is someone who knows us, someone close. Do you have someone in particular in mind?"
"Well, I don't know who of all the people we know you find most attractive?"
She was considering this for a while, "Hmmm no one really."
And that was a problem indeed. Among our friends, she and I were best looking and most handsome. I didn't have a friend she might be attracted to.
"Hmmm I can see how that could be true."
"Come on, she insisted, you must have someone on your mind", she said stroking my cock lightly to make sure I don't cum before she discovers my deepest fantasies.
And I did. There was this crazy idea that sneaked in my mind over past few months, every time I was thinking about it I would cum within 5 seconds. It was absolutely the most devastating humiliating thing I could come up with.
"Well... ", I started insecure.
"You do have someone specific on your mind I knew it!" She laughed.
"I do but I am kind of embarrassed", I admitted.
"Oh my God, you blushed, now I am intrigued tell me."
"No... I can't ... I am simply too embarrassed to say it out loud..."
"Honey, your dick just grew even harder if that is possible after not cumming for a week, this thing obviously turns you on immensely, just tell me..."
I wanted but as I were about to say it my mouth went dry.
"I can't", I said.
"Nonsense, you are just not turned on enough to tell me. I bet if you don't cum for a few more days you will tell me, she said as she stopped touching my throbbing cock."
"No, no please"; I begged "please continue". I was so desperate, I didn't cum in a week "please continue and I'll tell you."
She continued caressing my precum leaking cock, gently with a triumphant smile on her lips.
"I am listening", she said.
"I was thinking", I said with my heart pounding like a drum, I could feel me face growing red and hot...
"I was thinking", I said as I bite my lip.
"Go on", she replied.
