The beginning!
When my husband Jack first told me about it I knew he couldn't be serious. I didn't think he was joking or anything like that, but so many other ideas popped into my head. What could be the reason he would want such a thing?
Is he falling out of love with me?
Is he slowly caring less and less about me?
Did I do something wrong?
Is he questioning his own sexuality?
Is he just trying to open up our relationship so he can sleep with other women?
And others...
I couldn't register it as something anyone could actually just want. I was in disbelief with my husband of over 6 years. Typically being a fairly jealous person he admitted that he was also surprised that he was having these thoughts, but he assured me it had nothing to do with any of that and that it just turns him on.
It wasn't until quite a bit later that he started dirty talking about it to me during sex that not only did it obviously turn him on, but it was also pushing me over the edge. He was making love to me and whispering in my ear about another man dicking me better than he ever has, I was shocked at how much it made me horny. I couldn't get over why I was so intrigued with the naughtiness of it all, I was in ecstasy. Surprised by my own excitement I didn't last very long. I began to pant and moan as I came harder than I had in a long time. The thought of some random stranger having his way with me was hot to think about. The fact that it was my loving husband that planted that idea while he was pleasuring me was just a bonus. I even dreamed about it that night so when we woke up we had great sex before he left for work that morning as well.
He didn't mention it until the next day over some chilled Italian wine and dinner that he prepared at home. He's a great cook, and puts a lot of effort into his meals.
Jack- Now that I'm a little buzzed... I've been thinking about it all day and I have to ask. Do you think we could actually give it a try?
I knew what he meant, but I awkwardly play innocent trying to avoid the subject
Me- I don't know what you mean. What are you talking about?
Jack- Well, you seemed to have a good time last night.
Me- Oh, you mean you want to really try that with another person?
Jack- Yes, I could tell you liked it too.
Me- I did, but I thought we were just role playing. It was a lot of fun.
Jack- It certainly was a lot of fun. I'm just letting you know, it doesn't have to be role play. I would love to watch someone fuck your brains out.
After last night I was hoping that he would have gotten it out of his system. I must say that I was a bit shocked by his forwardness, and a little excited by his vulgarity. Clearly that wasn't the end of it.
Me- I mean... I know you're way too jealous to really go through with something like that, and I think it should just be something that we dirty talk about from time to time. I like that it's just you and me.
Jack- I understand that you are reluctant to believe me, but trust me I really do want this. I'm giving you the opportunity to have sex with someone else, and not only do you not have to feel bad about it but I'm asking you to do it.
Me- I don't want the opportunity to be with someone else. I honestly only want you. Maybe someday we could do this for like your 30th birthday or something, but even then... probably not.
Jack- You're telling me that you have absolutely no desire to have sex with anyone else?
Me- Yes, if I did this...and that's a big if, it would be solely for you.
Jack- Well, I guess I don't want you to do something that you don't want to do. To be completely honest I guess I'd feel weird about it if you were super "for" it. I am glad and also a bit relieved to hear that you are really happy with just me.
Me- Yeah, I think you might have other things to worry about if I jumped on board with this right away. Besides, if I were to do it i don't think I could do it while you watched. It'd just be weird for me, and I don't know if I would be able to "enjoy" myself if you know what I mean. I'd feel too awkward, and I'd be too worried about hurting you.
Just then his eyes shot over at me and as he glared I could tell I struck a jealous nerve. I can only imagine what he was thinking about. Basically at that point we both knew that would never happen.
Jack- You wouldn't be hurting me, but like I said before. I won't pressure you into anything you don't want to do, and I don't know if I'd be okay with not being there.
Me- Thanks, I'm glad we talked about it. It's still a no, but that's the way it would have to be.
The sex that night was amazing. We didn't role play or do anything kinky, but I got on top of him and rode him hard which is our favorite way to make love. I pushed into his thrusting hips as hard as I could. His dick was as stiff as a rock and it was in as deep as it could go. His penis is very nice and always does the trick, but it's not as long or as girthy as the dildo he doesn't know I secretly use from time to time. He could tell by my body motion that I was getting close when he let out a moan louder than usual. He came more than I've felt inside of me before. I felt his cum shooting into me and it was hotter than I expected. I was so turned on that I lasted about ten more seconds. I laid there exhausted but very satisfied, and fell asleep in less than a few minutes. I had to admit it to myself, "I knew that going through with something like this was a bad idea, but did we just have 3 days of the best sex in a long time?". We both slept like babies that night.
He said he wouldn't pressure me into it, but as time went on he'd subtly mention it here and there and remind me that the offer was still there. Not to mention that we never stopped the occasional role play or dirty talk of the idea. Regardless of what was said, it wasn't long before it came up again and like before it involved some wine to loosen his inhibitions. I still felt the same about it but I could tell now that it was a bigger deal for him than I thought.
Jack- So remind me again why you don't want to fuck anyone else?
Me- Because I only want you. Also I still think you're a bit too jealous to go through with this and not be angry about it afterwards.
Jack- Well I've thought about it, and it makes sense that you would be uncomfortable with me just sitting there watching you have sex with another man. The main reason that I want this is because I'm obsessed with your pleasure, and if that means you go on a date and don't return until morning that would work for me. I'd need sex immediately, and I'd also need all the details of course.
I could see the bulge in his pants growing, and noticed his nerves building. He was breathing heavier waiting for my response.
Jack- Well???
Me- I think it could happen, but just remember this would be what you wanted and that it wouldn't be for me.
Jack- So is that a yes?
Me- It's a maybe. There are still other issues with this.
Jack- Like what kind of issues?
Me- Well who would we pick? Where would it happen? I don't want it to be with anyone we could run into at the grocery store. You know how embarrassed I would be.
Jack- Well I've given this a lot of thought and there are a lot of ways this could play out...
We discussed many different scenarios. We talked about meeting someone at an out of town club and leaving with them to my nearby hotel room, but it felt too unsafe to me. Being alone in a room with a strange man could go wrong at any second. This is when I decided he could be in the room, but hidden. While he was excited about it he was also very on the fence about the likely hood of getting caught. Not to mention the following embarrassment that would follow while explaining the situation.
We were unwilling to do it at our place where he could easily hide, or come to my assistance if needed. The neighbors could see, or the guy could remember where we live.