We walk out to the car and he drives us around the district. It is run down and the drabness of the buildings is cut through by bursts of garish lights offering sex for sale. I sit beside Will and shiver as I think on the fact I have become part of this scene. I am so wound up from the hours working the booth and desperate for Will to fuck me. I need his cock inside me, and I look at the whore district around me with only a flimsy car door between me and this world. For the first time I contemplate how real this fantasy has become. I have always been shocked at the idea a woman could sell her body for sex and yet I am so hot for Will right now and I know he will flutter banknotes around me for the use of my body. These signs apply to me too.
I should feel appalled and yet I am excited. In fact I am hyper and need to talk, talk about all that has happened to me today in the booth. I have been longing for this moment of confession and it excites me telling him every dirty little detail. I want to let him know what I did all the while imagining he was watching me.
"I call my little friend Frankie." I smile up at him holding the dildo in my hand.
"Oh?"
"Well, while I was performing in that room I got to watching myself in the big window like I was on a giant screen. I imagined I was in Hollywood." We both laugh. He reaches across with his arm.
"Bend over and give me a blowjob as we go home. If you're lucky someone might see what you are up to."
I look at him, feeling so wonderful inside. "I love you." He looks at me a moment.
"I know you do." I reach across and unzip him. I am finding it so much easier to draw him out. Once his cock is out I lean across and swallow him. I love his taste and aroused at the thought of being seen sucking my lover's cock as any whore.
"I bet you're wet at the thought of being seen."
"Mmmmmmm" I moan into his cock before pulling back, "I am always wet when I'm around you."
"Truth is you're always wet around cock, and you don't seem to care much whose it is." His words pinch into me and I feel wounded by them. I think about the afternoon and how excited I have been by knowing there are unknown men watching me. There was truth in his words, however hateful they sounded to me.
"I told you, you have made me into such a complete and utter slut."
"Then get on with your slut duties and suck me off like the other whores around here." My lips sink back down the length of his shaft and my mind replays what he said: 'just like all the other whores around here.' I feel my stomach lurch, could he really find me no different than any whore here? No I know this is part of what we create, but I also know there is nothing really between me and the whores who work here: now I work here too, but only because Will makes me. I need reassurance, I want to make him cum, I want him to spill his seed down the throat of his slut and know he still wants me; to know that it excites him knowing I am performing before those unknown men. I work vigorously at his cock as it grows in my mouth. I haven't paid attention to where we are, I haven't even noticed he has stopped the car. It is only as I hear a woman's voice saying,
"Well I declare. Can you see what she's doing in that car!" that I start to take in my surroundings. I stop and lift my head. Will has parked in the middle of a very public car park outside a shopping mall. We have left the seedy backstreets behind. People are walking right by the car and being a convertible, everyone can see precisely what I am doing.
"Come on, let the neighbours see my whore in action."
I want to die, I want to run away. I know he is forcing my darkest desires out from where I have buried them. Although I feel more exposed now the car is stationary, that those disapproving women can come right up to me and slap me for what I am doing in public, slap me for being a disgrace and slap me because I deserve it; I know a strong part of me believes they should, yet I have a dark reality that makes me want them to. I know I should get out quick before anyone I know sees me, but that is not what I want. I am frozen, torn, forced to accept my true desires. I turn back to my whore duties, feeling disgusted with myself and hoping for that familiar growing tension within that will transport me away from what I am becoming. I work hard on his cock desperately wanting to feel his cum launch itself down my throat. I can feel it stiffen and I prepare myself as he shoots strings of hot cum all over my tongue, the insides of my cheeks and slip sliding down my throat. The force of it pushes some dribbling out of the corner of my mouth.
I can hear the disapproval in the voices of the people around us, and someone mentions they have called security who will be here in a minute. The heat in my cheeks is scalding. Will's hand takes mine and brings it to my cheek where he helps me scoop up the cum running towards my chin. He is smiling at me as I look nervously at him. It was ok when we were running at speed down the highway, but not here, not like this with the hostility of people so close, all around us, fencing me in with their disapproval. He pushes my hand up through my hair leaving a ribbon of cum draped over it. I smile at him feeling insecure and then bend down and slurp up the last of his cum. I clean his cock dutifully as he has taught me.
"That was perfect. You gave them a masterclass."
He puts the car into gear and drives off before security can arrive and I sit there revelling in the taste of his salty seed in my mouth, trying to shut out form my mind everything else. I have so many mixed emotions about what has just happened. I loved it, I loved being pushed, I feared where he was taking me, I feared liking it too much. I need Will, I need his approval and I fear not being good enough for him. As we pull up outside my house he drops the weight of his hand directly between my thighs and cups my pussy.
"When you are in bed lying next to your husband tonight, I want you to use Frankie while he sleeps and think on your visit to Hollywood today."
I say nothing. What can I say? We both know I will do it. He never lets up, he always has something more to push me with.
"Will I see you again before you take me to the booth on Friday?"
"Maybe." I had to settle for that, but I knew I would be pining for him the minute he leaves. The contrast with life at home and being with Will is immense.
"I need you so much now. When I am not with you all I can think about is when you will be back."
He squeezes me really tight. I feel so small and insignificant next to him.
"I'll come round tomorrow afternoon." I visibly brighten and get out the car. Rushing in I take a shower and hide my whore clothes before Colin gets home. All I can think about that evening is lying next to Colin using Frankie and trying to keep quiet and still not to disturb him as I remind myself that I am no longer just Colin's wife but Will's whore too. I am excited when I think about telling Will tomorrow about this adventure.
In the dark of the bedroom, the rhythmic breathing of Colin deeply asleep beside me provides a restful backdrop to the turmoil in my head. I have been lying here wide awake for what seems ages, unable to sleep, excited about what Will is making me do. There has been no relief for me all day and when Colin got home I was begging him for sex. I knew it wouldn't be like Will - Colin is too considerate and has no idea about rough sex. I know it is wrong for me to make comparisons, but I can't help myself. I needed cock and yet I wasn't satisfied by the time he came. It was not enough and I just lay there feeling frustrated. I wanted Will so desperately and made do with Colin, how awful is that?
To compound my guilt I knew that manipulating Colin into fucking me would make him sleep soundly afterwards; and I need him to be fast asleep so I can play with Frankie. I tell myself I am not being unfaithful to him by playing with myself. Yet when I saw the relief on his face after the strain of the past few days, when he understood I wanted to have sex with him, it cut right through me. If only he knew what was going on. I wonder whether Will would make me tell him. I could never do that, but could I resist Will?
I lift Colin's arm up gently and move it over to his side of the bed. Reaching down by the bed I grasp hold of Frankie, my slender fingers slipping around his wide girth and my mind goes back to holding Will in the carpark of the mall. I close my eyes. I feel bad, really bad thinking about Will as Colin lies asleep beside me, but I haven't been allowed to cum all day and after the booth I really need a good fucking. I am only meeting my needs since Colin hadn't satisfied me. Even so I know I am only doing this because Will told me to. I bend my knees slowly drawing my legs up and slip Frankie between them. At last I can feel something hard inside me and dream Will is there.
The next morning I go out for shopping. With the money from the booth I can buy new outfits and I want to find something that will excite Will. I had such hot dreams last night: Will showing off his whore then finding myself alone in sex shops in a red-light district surrounded by men demanding sex from me, being handled roughly and passed from one to another. I am so geared up these days I live for sex. Will has shown me a side of myself that I had never allowed expression. I have changed so much so quickly. I never used to think in such crude terms, but now I think like a whore and long for the lifestyle.