This is not a stand-alone story and should be read after parts 1 & 2.
To all those who have taken the time to read the previous 2 chapters of the story so far, I would like to thank you and hope you have enjoyed it. However, if tales of slut wives offends you then why are you reading this?
I suggest you go and read a romance novel.
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It was just after 10am when I eventually woke up to find myself alone in our bed, although listening to the sounds emanating from downstairs, I could tell Liam hadn't gone very far. As I lay there the events of last night came flooding back into my mind reminding me of just how wanton and shameless, I had been.
Had my husband had changed his mind about me in the cold light of day? What if he hated me now? What if I had been seen by someone who knew me? Where did his strange obsession with prostitutes come from? Numerous questions tumbled through my brain without any answers and I knew I needed to talk to Liam and try to comprehend what had taken place.
But first and foremost, I needed to try to understand why I had been so turned on by the things that had happened to me the previous evening. Originally, I had agreed to do it for my husband, to please him and to fulfil what had seemed to be just a long-held fantasy but it had quickly turned out to be much more than that. So, having done it once what had made me go back onto the street after that first time?
Confused by everything I lay in bed, not wanting to get up and face my husband, just staring at the ceiling trying to work out what was wrong with me.
My mind drifted back to my childhood and my parents.
When I was young my childhood had been a happy one, I was especially close to my father, and it came as a complete shock to me when, aged six, he left us. At the time I didn't understand why and it was only when I got older that I found out he had been having an affair with one of my mother's friends and had, eventually, run off with her.
After that things changed. My father wasn't allowed access to me, something I didn't find out until I was an adult, and I always wondered if it was me that had driven him away.
The happy atmosphere at home disappeared almost overnight and I suddenly found myself becoming the recipient of my mother's bitterness. When my father had been at home we had gone to church on a Sunday and had a very Christian lifestyle but now there were just the two of us everything seemed different. My mother had always been strict but now she was tyrannical in her attitude and as I didn't know any different, I simply accepted the unnecessarily firm guidelines she placed upon me.
Over the years as her strong religious and moralist attitudes grew and became almost fanatical and I started to notice how much more controlling she was compared to the others kid's parents. Especially the way she dictated what clothes I wore, where I went outside of school and who my friends were, not that I was ever allowed many close friends.
My mother deemed all boys to be the spawn of the devil and only interested in satisfying their disgusting needs with whatever slut they could find. She constantly reminded me that I should keep myself pure for marriage and, even then, sex was not something to be enjoyed. I was there just to conceive children for my husband.
It was a message preached to me by my mother with religious fervour, on a daily basis during my teenage years and went a long way to influencing my attitudes. The only saving grace for me was my time at school and the other girls there. Talking to them, seeing what clothes they wore and generally having friends, albeit not close ones, showed me the extremism of my mother's radical views.
As much as I was able to, I rebelled, talking to boys at school, rolling over the waistband of my long skirts to make them a little shorter and even, on occasion, putting on a little make-up when I was outside the house. Of course, I tried to be careful and not to let her see me doing something forbidden but I wasn't always successful.
I remembered once, I forgot my mother was meeting me after school to take me to a dental appointment and she caught me talking to a boy as we walked out of the gates. The look of pure disgust and anger on her face told me I was in for a very bad time when I got home and I wasn't wrong.
She remained tight lipped for the rest of the afternoon but as soon as the front door closed behind us, she angrily laid into me, reading me the riot act and repeatedly telling me what a little slut I had become. I took her irate tirade timidly, tears rolling down my cheeks, until she called me a slut for maybe the fourth time. Then I reacted and snapped back at her, telling her I wasn't a slut, I was a good girl and we had only been talking about our school work.
From the look of unadulterated fury on my mother's face you would have thought I had committed a crime and not just standing up for myself. She went a shade of puce and screamed at me, telling me that I was an ungrateful little whore, then slapped me with such venom that I literally staggered backwards. Stunned, my cheek red and stinging I fled up to my room with her words ringing in my ears.
After that I had resolved to leave home at the first opportunity. If I was such a corrupt and debauched character, perhaps I should be as far away from my highly straitlaced mother as possible.
However, there were more than a few years between deciding I was leaving and actually going and I was regularly reminded of what she thought of me during that time. There was the constant barrage of abuse, of being told I was worthless and that I had been the reason my father had left us.
As much as I tried to ignore everything she said, her comments, over time, had the effect of completely undermining me, of destroying my confidence and apparently after the events of last night turning me into a slut that craved humiliation.
The final straw had come when I told my mother I was going away to university. Her first reaction was to forbid it but, at 18, I knew in my own mind that if I didn't go, I would be under her influence forever. When that approach failed, she disowned me but not without a final flurry of vehement criticism during my last weeks at home.
That had to be the reason.
Satisfied that I had at least partially answered some of my questions about the previous evening I slowly climbed out of bed. I was still naked so I grabbed one of the large baggy t-shirts that comprised my usual night attire and made my way to the bathroom. Seeing my reflection in the mirror gave me a something of a start, my eyes were ringed by black circles and my face looked several shades of smudged foundation. Then I remembered, with relief, that I had left my make-up on when I had gone to bed.
A few minutes later, the ruined cosmetics removed, I took a deep breath and nervously descended the stairs. Still wondering what my husband's reaction would be I found Liam, sitting in the kitchen, with a coffee mug in his hand.
"You're finally awake. I thought you were going to sleep all day," his grin and friendly demeanour going some way to re-assuring me that things weren't as bad as I thought.
"Do I get a coffee to?" I stood in the doorway and enquired.