I was once a very lucky man. I had a beautiful and devoted wife who made me feel like the center of the universe. My wife Gina is everything a man could want in a wife and so much more. Then I blew it! Perhaps my story will be a cautionary tale for some of you men out there who find fantasy more compelling then what you have in your real world.
My wife Gina is a beautiful raven-haired woman of Italian heritage. She is not very tall but with a gorgeous curvy figure that never fails to draw the attention of every man in the room. It was those very stares that started me on the road to ruin.
Gina was inexperienced when we first began dating. She was very pretty, yet several years from the beauty that she would eventually become. She had green eyes and full lips topped by this wild mane of silky hair. We were both juniors in high school and each other's first love. It was, in other words, perfect. We attended the same college and, after graduating, got married. There have been no significant events in my life that my wife has not shared with me. And the same is true of her. Until recently.
Neither Gina nor I were very knowledgeable when it came to matters of sexuality. We were so in love that at first it was just enough to be in each other's arms. But as the years went by we began to fall into a rut. Always at night, always in bed, and later, always on Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday.
Being a man I began to purchase men's magazine and rent the occasional x-rated tape. Gina. Though hesitant at first, participated in this new distraction with me. She compared herself to the women in the magazines and we both agreed that there was no contest. She watched the videos and always seemed to get aroused. Our sex life definitely improved.
I should have left it at that.
One night we rented a movie featuring an orgy. The woman was a beautiful dark haired actress who more then slightly resembled Gina. The men were generously endowed and the sex was very hot! As soon as the men converged on the woman and began removing her clothes I could hear the change in Gina's breathing. She began to almost pant as the men penetrated the woman in every hole repeatedly. The actress seemed very enthusiastic and fucked back at the men with wanton abandon. That night Gina and I had exhausting sex and for the first time Gina allowed me to fuck her perfect ass. She actually came with my dick in her asshole. It was an eye opening experience.
Well that was it for me! I was hooked on seeing women getting fucked by multiple partners. I began bringing home an x-rated video once a week. At first Gina was fine with it and it never failed to get her hot and desperate to fuck. However after a while she began to become disinterested. She asked me to stop renting them so much. Unfortunately I began to need the fantasy to become stimulated.
Whenever I was home alone I would rent one and masturbate to it. This began to take the place of my normal sexual releases and I began to neglect Gina. At first she was confused and thought I no longer found her attractive. I tried to tell her that that was not the case but she kept asking "why then". Finally I confessed to my little viewing habits.
That turned out to be a huge mistake. Gina went ballistic! She was angry that I chose a video over the chance to fuck her. She was mad because I had gone behind her back. She was so angry that I spent several days alone on the couch. I stopped renting the videos and after a while Gina calmed down.
Things were back to normal. A few months went by and Gina had to go out of state to visit her parents. I would be home alone. This seemed like a reasonable time to rent a movie or two. I thought to bring this up to Gina, but remembering her anger the last time I decided against it. Gina was gone for three days and I watched a video each of those days.
When Gina returned I had returned the videos and figured no harm done. We had great sex that night and Gina seemed very willing and open even welcoming my finger in her ass. Gina fucked back on my cock and finger and came hard. It was very erotic. And that night I realized what a lucky man I was.
A week later I came home and found Gina waiting for me. She was not happy! Apparently, while Gina was gone, one of her female friends had seen me leaving the local adult bookstore and mentioned it to her. Gina was extremely angry! She cried and yelled and wanted to know what was wrong with us. I tried to calm her down. I said that I did not think she would mind (a lie.), I said it was just that one day (another lie), I promised not to do it again. Then I assured her that there was nothing wrong with her, it was all me. As soon as those words left my mouth Gina stopped crying and just looked at me. Then she said, "You are right it isn't me". She picked up her already packed suitcase and she left.
I had no idea where she went. I called her parents and they said that they knew but were sworn to secrecy. I found out that Gina had emptied a few thousand dollars from our savings account. I put more back in just in case she ran out. I was really pissed off at myself, and my weakness. If only I had been honest. Two weeks went by with no word.
Then on a Thursday night the phone rang. When I heard Gina's voice I almost cried. She said she was fine. She said she just needed to understand things, to put them in prospective. In the background I could hear music and I asked her if she was in a bar. She said I did not have the right to ask her anything right now. She said she would call again for a longer talk. Then she hung up.
Another week went by. Then I received a letter in the mail. It was several pages long. In essence it asked me if I was unhappy with our sex life, if she was attractive enough for me, if she was just not nasty enough to keep my interest, or if I just needed to see sex on a video to get turned on. She said that maybe I just did not know the true Gina and maybe she needed to show me what a dirty girl really was. My hands were trembling when I finished the letter. I looked on the envelope and found that she had left off the return address. My mind raced as I tried to come to terms with what I had just read. There was and ice ball in the pit of my stomach. What had I done?