The first time I met B--, I thought he was just a tall, nice looking white guy with a ponytail. He was rugged looking, with dirty blond hair and what seemed like a permanent shaggy unshaved unkempt look, kind of what the stereotype of a
gaijin
was when I was in Japan and what some of my female co-workers in the office would look for when they went to ex-pat clubs to trawl for American and European white men.
The first time we went out for drinks after we met, he came onto me very strong, touching me with his hands and massaging my shoulders and touching my knee and even running his hand up my thighs! I resisted him that night, having never met someone that bold and cocky and a little bewildered by his almost animal-like desire, but he was persistent and the next time we went out for drinks we ended up back at my place sharing a bottle of wine. I didn't really want a relationship with him, but once I saw his cock, and especially after I felt it in my mouth and inside me, I couldn't say stop. I thought to myself that I would only have one night of sex with him, a "one night stand" without any commitments. But even though I clearly told him that I didn't want to have a regular relationship with him, over the next few months we still would end up occasionally having sex. I could not resist him! Whenever we went out for drinks, I would always get too horny to resist fucking him. I knew that he really wasn't looking for a permanent relationship either, so it worked out well with no delusions on either side.
For about a year B-- was one of my "friends with benefits." We would go out and get a drink, sometimes ending up drunk and horny either at my apartment or in some other place like the back seat of his car having a quickie.
Later on, when I met the man who eventually became my husband, I took a break from fucking B--. When I met my fiancΓ©, at first I didn't tell him about my hook ups with B--, but eventually when I knew i was in love, I told him about B--, expecting that I wouldn't be having sex with B-- anymore and I wanted to tell my fiancΓ© the truth. He seemed very curious about every single detail about what I had done with B--. He asked about the size of his cock, the positions we used when we were fucking, even what his sperm tasted like! I thought at first it was just because he was jealous and was obsessed about the details because of that, which he certainly was.
But then before he asked me to marry him, before our engagement, my fiancΓ© asked one night if I was still seeing B-- as a "FWB"--I told him the truth that I had not, but that occasionally B-- still emailed and asked me to go out for dinner or drinks. I was being honest that I had turned B-- down each time he had asked me out, but I didn't mention that B-- and I had also occasionally exchanged some racy sexting messages with some revealing photos attached. I had kept our exchanges to sexting because I knew that if we actually met for drinks there was no doubt that we were going to have sex, and I didn't want to get into an awkward situation. I was truly in love with my fiancΓ© and was now willing to give up any communication with B-- if that was going to threaten the increasingly serious relationship with my soon-to-be fiancé.
He paused and very carefully said that he didn't mind if I went for drinks with B--, as long as I came home afterward and told him everything that had happened. I thought he might be testing me, and so I told him that I didn't really want to, and would rather not. My fiancΓ© turned and looked me in the eye. "But don't you miss being fucked by him?" I didn't answer. "I know you do, and I know that you loved having sex with him without any strings attached. I don't want you to deprive yourself, and it excites me to think that you will be fucking him and then coming home to me. Will you feel guilty if you fuck him? Do you want me to punish me when you come home?" I still didn't answer, not sure where this conversation was going to lead. But I was only mildly surprised because I had already learned (to my deep sexual satisfaction) how open and supportive my future husband was of my strong sexual drive, but I wasn't completely comfortable with the idea. I just wasn't ready at that time to do anything that might risk our relationship, and so I told him I wasn't interested. I thought I saw a look of disappointment in his eyes, but we moved on to talking about something else.
It was about a year after we got married that we happened to see B-- while we were food shopping. I chatted with B--for just a few seconds after introducing him to my new husband, very aware of how awkward the situation was. It had been almost two years since I had last seen B--, but I was surprised how my body almost instantly responded to his presence, even with my husband next to me. My body flushed and I felt the familiar tingling as my lips swelled and grew wet.
Later that night after dinner, my husband asked casually if I still felt any attraction to B--. I was wary, not wanting to trigger his jealousy, and so I was about to lie and tell him that there was nothing there but before I could say anything my husband said that he wanted me to have drinks with B-- and if there was still any sexual attraction between us he wanted me to fuck him and come home and tell him every detail. I was shocked when I realized that he was serious.