First Love Ch. 02: New Friends
It had been a couple of months since Kevin and I have found each other again. We’ve become close friends once more, and his finance, Jennifer, and I have hit it off also. Since neither me nor Jennifer work we spend lots of time together, letting the kids play, and telling stories, mainly about Kevin. She loves hearing about him when he was young, though he hates all the embarrassing stories I tell.
One day we were in my backyard, the kids were swimming in the pool, and we sat up on the deck tanning and talking. She took her sun glasses off and gave me a serious look.
“Jessi.”
“Yep.”
“Can I ask you something?”
“Yeah, Babe, what is it?”
“You won’t get mad?”
“Takes a lot for me to get mad. Just ask me, Jen.”
“Well, it’s, just that, I’ve seen the way you and Kevin look at each other, and some of the stories you or him tell seems to have things missing from them. And so I’m wondering if you guys were more than just friends.”
I looked at her for a minute, trying to decide whether or not to tell her. I couldn’t lie, I know I couldn’t. I’ve never been any good at it. I took a deep breath, looked at the kids swimming in the water with their little arm floaties on so that they wouldn’t drown then looked back at her.
“Well, Jennifer, we were never girlfriend and boyfriend if that’s what you mean. But, yes, we did fool around a bit.”
She looked as though she was going to cry. I had no idea what to say to her, I felt so bad. She looked at me her big brown eyes swelling with tears.
“Jessi. Do you and him still fool around?”
I looked at her like she was crazy. My mouth dropped open but no words came out. I know I looked guilty as hell at that moment.
“No, Jen, we don’t fool around. Why do you think that?”
“Cause he hasn’t been interested in fucking me since you guys met again. He’ll do it every now and again, but there’s no heart in it. And all he ever talks about is you. So, I guessed that you two were having an affair.”
I about cried then. Not because I was ashamed of what Kevin and I had done the first week we got back together, but I wanted to cry for her. She looked so heartbroken, so innocent at that moment that all I wanted to do was cradle her head in my chest and tell her everything was going to be alright.
“Jen, you promise not to be mad about something?”
“Yeah, I promise.”
“When Kevin and I first saw each other again we did have sex. Not just once but three times.” I looked down then, now feeling ashamed. I heard her whimper softly and knew she was crying.
“But I stopped it. I couldn’t go on with it. It wasn’t fair to you or to my husband.”
“I don’t blame you. Kevin is a great guy and you guys have loved each other for a long time. But why hasn’t he fucked me, it’s been two months?”
“I don’t know Hon.”
“Will you talk to him for me?”
“I don’t think that’s the best idea.”
“I really want you to.”
“I can try.”
“Thanks Jess. And hey, I forgive you.”
“Thanks.”
There was silence for a long time, and both of us stared at the kids. She turned and looked at me again.
“Does you’re husband know?”
“Yeah.”
“He’s not mad?”
I laughed, “No.”
“Why?”
“There’s a lot about me that you don’t know yet.”
“Like what?”
“Like the fact that RJ doesn’t get mad when I fuck other people. He wasn’t happy at first but he got over it.”
“Why doesn’t he get mad?”
I laughed again, “RJ and I live differently than you and Kevin do.”
“What does that mean?”
I thought, "Geez this girl really doesn’t get it does she." “RJ and I fuck other people.”
Her face filled with surprise, “Really?”
“Yeah, just most of the time we are together when it happens. You know threesomes, foursomes, things like that.”
Her faced flushed. I looked at her, I’ve always been perplexed by people who are embarrassed by anything having to do with sex, and this girl confused me quit a bit.
“What’s wrong with that?”
“Oh, I guess nothing’s wrong with it. I just could never do it.”
“Why?”
“I don’t know. I’d be embarrassed. So, why’d you guys start doing it?”
“If you’ve been together for as long as RJ and I have been, you need new things.”
“You guys only been married for six years.”
“Yeah but we’ve been together since we were 14.”
“Oh I didn’t know that.”
“Yep.”
“But you guys were young when you got together. You shouldn’t be tired of each other by now.”
I laughed, “Honey, we’re not tired of each other. We love each other very much, but after you’ve been fucking the same person for 10 years, you kinda run out of things to do.”
“So you chose to fuck other people for spice?”
“Yeah basically.”
“I still can’t see it.”
“Some people don’t. It’s nothing to stress over. Just something we do. You might never want to have a threesome where as I like them very much.”
She giggled, “Hey, you ever, you know, done a woman?”
“Many times.”
“You like it?”
“Hell yeah. Why? You ever thought about it?”
“Sometimes I do.”
“When?”
She giggled again, “I’d rather not say.”
“Alright, I got ya.” From the way she acted I knew she fantasized about a woman when she masturbated.
Things grew silent again, but it was a comfortable silence. After a while she got up, it was about time for RJ to get home so I had to start making dinner, and she had to go get her house cleaned up and start dinner herself. She hugged me, as usual, when I walked her to the door, but this time her hug was longer, and I could feel her body giving into me as though she wanted more than just a hug. I acted as though nothing was unusual about her longer touch and told her I’d talk to her later.
Later that night Kevin called.
“Jennifer said you wanted to talk to me about something.”
I remembered her concern earlier that day and took a big sigh, “Well, she voiced to me today that you were no longer fucking her and being too shy herself to bring it up she wanted me to ask you why.”
There was a long pause on the other line. “Why’d she even bring that up to you?” I could hear anger in his voice.
“Don’t get mad. She just wants to know. Maybe you should tell her.”
“You know why, don’t you?”
“I have a feeling that it’s all about me.”
“Well, then you know I can’t tell her.”
“She already knows.”
“What?”
