I let us into the room and we readied ourselves for bed, still not really speaking. I knew it was up to me to make things right, but my feelings were a mixture of anger at her for taking it so far, jealousy and annoyance at myself for being so turned on with the whole experience. So instead of discussing it sensibly, I punished her by behaving like a childish shit. I knew I was out of order, but I couldnât help myself. We climbed into bed; I gave her a peck and turned my back to go to sleep. I couldnât sleep, I kept thinking about the experience; also I had a painful hard on and couldnât stop stroking myself. I just wanted to tell her how turned on I was by what happened, make things right before fucking each others brains out. My stupid male pride wouldnât let me; I wanted to make her feel bad about it, thinking that I couldnât let her of the hook so easily. Blaming her, when I new that I had initiated the whole thing.
The following morning, after what was probably a restless night for both of us, things werenât much better. I was absolutely dying for sex, but wouldnât make the peace.
âAre you going to speak to me again?â she finally asked over breakfast.
âI donât know what you are talking about, we have been speakingâ.
âI speak, you gruntâ she replied.
âI donât feel very chattyâ.
âYou dared me to take my clothes off,â she said accusingly.
âI didnât dare you to play with his dickâ I responded sharply.
âYou bastardâ she spat at me âyou told me that you wanted me to touch him, you got me to strip of in front of him and when you came back to the pool we were just sat talking, why did you stand and watch, you could have stopped it at any time, the thing is, it was as much a turn on for you as it was for me, but you canât stand to admit itâ.
This was all true and instead of agreeing, I spat back.
âYou and your boyfriend looked like you were having such a good time, I didnât want to spoil it for youâ. I regretted it as soon as I said it.
She looked at me genuinely hurt.
âYou fucking pigâ, then standing up she said quietly âIâm going for a long walk, I will see you later when Iâve calmed down, at the moment, I donât want to be in the same room as youâ.
âWaitâ, she paused and turned round to face me.
âWhat! âShe said coldly.
I was now on my back foot, this hadnât worked out well at all. I decided to come clean, apologizing. She remained silent while I told her how she was right and how turned on I had really been and how I had masturbated whilst watching them, hoping that she would understand, another big mistake.
âYou selfish shit, I cried myself to sleep last night, worried that you wouldnât want to have anything to do with me anymore, while all the time it was just a childish game. Youâve been using me for your little fantasies all holiday. Iâve actually been really enjoying it, showing myself off for you and talking about what we would like to do together. Now, because you decide you donât like where youâve set the goal posts, you decide to punish me, by making me feel like a trampâ.
She quickly gathered up a few things and left, closing the door behind her.
âFucking greatâ, I said out loud to myself âwhat a prickâ. She had quite rightly turned the tables on me. I sat there for a while pondering how it was, that she was the one that had messed about with another blokes dick, yet I was the one that wound up feeling so bad and having to apologize.
I looked at my watch; it was only nine am, where could she possibly go at this time. Telling myself that she would be back in no time I decided to just wait on the balcony and read, enjoy the peace and quiet.
She let me stew for three hours; I tried to look calm as she came out onto the balcony. I actually felt like shit.
Before she could say anything, I started.
âLook, Iâm really sorry, I know Iâve behaved like a right prickâ.
âYes you haveâ she agreed âbut I think I understand, we were both equally to blameâ.
I wasnât too sure about that, but decided to keep my council, for the first time.
She sat down next to me and grabbed my hand âI think we should talkâ
We chatted for an hour, both having to admit what an incredible experience it was.
âThing isâ she said âI loved showing myself and I especially loved performing for you, knowing that you were watching, I wouldnât have done it if you hadnât been watching. It made me feel so in control and sexual. When you came out from behind the wall, I just wanted you to fuck me there and thenâ.
âWhat about now?â I ventured, smiling as I motioned towards the very obvious bulge in my shorts. She laughed as she reached over to squeeze it âlove to, howeverâ.
She went on to explain that she had spent the morning with Dave and Marie, at their place, bitching about me and that they had got pissed off with her, in the nicest possible way, told me that they were off to the beach and sent me back to make up. When we were ok, I was to take you down to the beach, to show that things were back to normal.
âDo they know why we fell out?â
âI just told them about the skinny dipping with Andrew and that you got the hump because he was paying me so much attentionâ.
âWhat did they think?â
âThey both thought that you were being childishâ
âOh, they did, did they, why exactly?â
âWellâ she ventured, hesitantly âthis beach that they go to is a nude beach, so they have been starkers in front of everyone all week, without a care in the world. In fact the reason Marie doesnât take her T-shirt off, when she comes up here, is because she doesnât wear anything underneathâ.
My dick twitched a little at that thought.
I paused âAnd you want to go as well?â
âI really want to, but only if you donât give me any more shit, I wont put up with it this timeâ.
I nodded âOk, this time youâre in charge, I wonât say or do anythingâ and added with a smile to keep the mood light â It doesnât matter whose dick youâre strokingâ.
She laughed and squeezed my dick, ânothing like that will happen, I just donât want you getting uptight if Dave flirts a bit while Iâm naked, you know what heâs likeâ.
âI told you youâre in chargeâ.
âGood, lets goâ.
We got our things together and walked down towards the beach, things felt back to normal it was great. The nudist section was separated from the rest of the beach by a wooded area; this made me feel a little less nervous. Anne seemed to know where she was going, we walked past five or six couples, all naked, most of them older than us, down to the far end and clambered over some rocks. I saw Marie straight away, stretched out on a towel, face down, she was also naked apart from a pair of sunglasses. The towel at the side of her was empty.