I felt like I really needed to say something to explain his part. I didn't want her to hate her late husband especially since it would be my fault, or so I felt.
But first I had to look at her standing there naked. I could see her pubic hair and a bit of her slit, her breasts were thrusting out a delightful way. She was one sexy woman standing there. I tried to see if anything was dripping down her thighs but I couldn't make out anything. Her fury seemed to make her even sexier in a way I couldn't explain. Its a clichΓ© to tell a woman she looks beautiful when angry but it was true in this case. I had never seen a naked woman this angry before and I couldn't believe it. with her standing there in all her glory and fury mixed together. Her anger made her look even sexier then when she was sitting on my lap. If I hadn't already had sex three times I think I would have felt like jumping up, pushing her to the bed and stabbing it in her. I'm glad I was able to control myself even though I had the feeling she may not have minded, just something about her body language.
I finally said, "They both felt frustrated, angry and possibly even abandoned."
"Abandoned??! But I never left him."
"Not physically but what about emotionally? You remember when I met you at the airport while we were both coming home from a trip away?"
"Yes," she said cautiously.
"Remember what I said that we both were spending too much time away from our spouses?"
"Yes, I took that to heart and changed my schedule."
"It looks like I was too late with my suggestion."
She had an incredulous look on her face.
I continued, "Georgina was extremely horny, we hadn't had sex for some days, sad and she was thinking that our relationship may be in a rut that was too deep to dig out of, plus she was very upset at me for fighting with her instead of making love to her before I left on a certain trip. Herb was feeling exactly the same thing, even though I don't know if you two had a fight."
"If it's the trip I'm thinking of. We didn't fight but he was trying to be amorous and I almost bit his head off since I had to leave very quickly on a last minute assignment. We also usually made love before I left, but I was too busy that trip. I didn't notice until later when I thought about it, but he just turned around and left the room and he barely said bye when I left for the airport."
After a moment she said in a soft voice, "No wonder he felt abandoned and horny. We didn't have sex either for a long while before the trip. I tried to make up for it after I got home, but he didn't seem as anxious. He was, I don't know, stand offish... But that doesn't excuse him for fucking another woman."
That last was said with some heat.
"I know. I feel the same way, but at least it wasn't just for lust or because they were seducing other people."
"Maybe but it doesn't excuse your wife for fucking my husband,"
Oops! I thought that was going too far but I didn't blame her for feeling that way. What I wondered about was why I wasn't angry with Herb. It wasn't until that moment that I realized all my anger and pain was aimed at Georgina. Maybe because I could relate to Herb better since I was a man, or maybe because he was dead. Any other man I probably would feel like taking a swing, or three, at. I didn't know why I didn't feel that way toward Herb. Maybe because I had had sex with his widow. I just couldn't figure it out.
Janet and I talked a bit more and I went home. Once there I saw that Georgina was waiting up for me. It was later than I usually went to bed. That sex session had been a very long one. She looked anxious even if it was because she didn't know where I had been, or if it was because she did know where I had been.
I was tempted to say that Janet's problems were taken care of, she is very relaxed now, and not feeling the least aroused, but for some reason I didn't. I just made some small talk and went to bed. She stood in the bedroom door for a minute, then left for the guest room. I think she was hoping that I would invite her back into our room, but I was still thinking of her sitting on Herb's lap with his cock inside her, that she put there.
The next day she fixed me breakfast and talked like there was nothing wrong. I tried to do the same but I don't think I did it very well. When I came home she asked me if I had told Janet about her and Herb. It didn't sound like a question so I just asked why. She said that Janet was not talking to her. She sounded sad. She didn't say anything though. She may have been thinking that this was just another bad consequence to what she had done.
I told her I had mentioned it, but not because I had wanted to. Janet had gotten some of it out of me while she was sitting on my lap naked and she had guessed the rest of it.
Georgina made a slight sound when I said the part about Janet sitting on my lap naked but didn't say anything. I had said it that way on purpose to take a swipe back at her. Later I was ashamed about that. Being mean like that wasn't my style, even if part of me thought she deserved it.
Two days later Janet called me at work. It was half an hour before quitting time and I was very surprised when I heard her voice on the phone. I thought it might be Georgina. The night before I had told her that she could sleep with me again. I made it clear that it was only to sleep. I think she started to pout, but then changed her mind probably realizing that would only make things worse since it was her fault I was feeling the way I was. She ended up nodding her agreement. I could see disappointment and pain in her eyes, but I wasn't ready for that step. I thought I would be eventually. I wondered if it was the fact that I had had sex with Janet that was helping me not to want my wife. If I had been extremely horny I may have given in sooner.
I woke up in the middle of the night with Georgina snuggled up next to my back like she usually slept. Two things came to mind. One was that I was glad I had told her we would be sleeping in separate beds. If I had woken up that first night after she told me, or even the second night, with her like that I probably would have pushed her away. I would have done it gently, not shoving, but she would have noticed. I'm not sure how she would have reacted, but it wouldn't have been pretty. The other thing I noticed is that she was where she was supposed to be. I didn't like using the new clichΓ© Soulmate. People misuse it at times, I think, and sometimes go seeking for something they have already, but in any case she was my soulmate. I still loved her with all my heart. She had hurt me very badly, but I still loved her.
Forgiveness is a wonderful thing. It is more for the person needing to forgive, I've been told. It cleanses them and helps them to get on with their life, but I think in this case it would heal both of us. I wasn't completely there, but I knew I would be.
Over the phone Janet asked, "Clifford, can you get off work early?"