Where Did Time Go
When she thought about her adolescence she wouldn't consider herself promiscuous, even though she enjoyed sex; it had always been selective and with someone she had been going with. That's not to say that she didn't experiment or allow things to get out of hand with some guy at a party; in fact there were times she felt having one night stands would have been more satisfying and easier to handle. Unfortunately that type of behaviour was a double edge sword: one side was the undeniable pleasure she experienced, the other side were the derogatory labels that came with the action; and it was the latter that she could not allow. So even though she was comfortable and receptiveness to erotic behaviour as something natural and nothing to be ashamed of; she learnt to control her actions and avoid any precarious situation that made her vulnerable.
Consequently, by the end of her graduating year, she had radically metamorphosed her persona; replacing social butterfly with subdued indifference. Socially and sexually the last year of high school had been a bust; and her only release from her self-imposed reclusion came from skilful self-indulgence, namely her fingers. Too make matter worse, her inadvertent ostracism from her friends and the celebration of graduating, also included no invitations to the prom.
Ironically, it was her graduation night that had changed her life. The disappointment of being alone on graduation night and finally relenting to have dinner with her parents to celebrate, started a journey she would never have believed in her wildest dreams. They had just finished dining when she met up with a friend from school, whom like her was having supper with her parents and flying solo on grad night.
They chatted for a while until the girl suggested catching a movie or hitting a nightclub; which was fully encouraged by her parents. Although she didn't really know the girl that well, the thought of going home and feeling sorry for her self held little appeal, so she had agreed. They never went to the movie or the nightclub; the girl, whose name was Laura waited for their parents to leave, before inviting her to a party her boyfriend was at.
The party had been great fun; there was drinking and drinking challenges, food and dancing. She was overwhelmed with drunken introductions and faces that within seconds had no name; the atmosphere at the party was loud with music, laughter and people taking turns at making a complete fool of them self. It didn't take much, or long before she was caught up in the revelry; and eventually she found herself drinking, dancing and dodging offers of going upstairs.
It was later in the evening and the party was showing no sign of slowing down, when she had thoughts about leaving; and it was while she looking for Laura that she met Matt. Everything about meeting him had such a surreal edge to it; for the most part they sat on the couch talking and drinking, every now and then taking time for a dance. There was no denying she felt an immediate attraction and connection to him; in fact she felt comfortable in his company, because there were no presumptions or pressure placed on her by him.