To the Reader. This saga is something of a follow-up to the "Friends Give Me Erotic Challenges" chapters which were posted in the Exhibitionism and Voyeur category.
This story has the same characters as the other set of chapters and there is continuity with them, but events are such that a new storyline, title, and category are warranted, thus this being placed in the Loving Wives category.
This new saga can stand alone but, for a full background, reading Friends Give Me Erotic Challenges, will be helpful but not required.
Please read and enjoy and constructive comments are appreciated. Comments which are sniping for the sake of sniping will be deleted.
As always: no real people or names are represented here and please do not copy or distribute any of this material without written permission from the author.
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I found myself enjoying my private time more these days. I loved my time with my husband Jack but also wanted and needed time just for me. My favorite place to contemplate the universe was a park a few blocks from our house. Unless the weather sucked, it was an easy walk or jog. Today, arriving in the park, I had the option of simply strolling, jogging around the park, or, as I was doing now, sitting back on a park bench, and contemplating the universe.
My own universe has changed so much lately. I've crossed so many lines when it came to my body and who was enjoying it that I barely knew what normal was anymore. This isn't bad. It's just different and the new me is taking some getting used to.
Up until a few months ago, my life was seemingly ordinary. I have a husband I love, two adult children who are off and living in different towns, a great job in marketing which also has me traveling some, and a boss I adore. He is also a boss that I have had sex with. It was just once and my husband was fully accepting of it, but still, I had fucked my boss. Should that go on my resume in the section on personal accomplishments?
I've also had sex, actually very rough sex, with two other men, my best friend's husbands, and been felt up in this same park by a complete stranger. Like I said, I've been crossing a lot of lines lately.
My friends, or maybe they are now former friends? Susan and Megan had started me on a goal of undertaking several erotic challenges. Their last challenge had been for me to act as a whore and have a customer, my john, pay to have sex with me. That "john" who had been selected by Susan, turned out to be my boss, Frank.
I think I won the sex lottery that night. Frank was the best and most considerate lover a woman could want. He is twenty years older than me but, well, I really don't care. If I wasn't married, I would have been making a fool of myself over him. I've even admitted to my husband that I have something of a crush on Frank.
Frank, as I now know, is a master at compartmentalizing. Work is for work, period. It isn't a place to have a relationship or remotely address them. Put another way, there is no way that anyone around us would know that we had spent a night in bed together. This was bothersome to me personally but a huge relief professionally.
I think I've lost two long-time friends in Megan and Susan. They're the ones who got me started down the track of taking on sex-related challenges and, as I later learned, it was all with the goal of bringing my husband, Jack, and I into a sex club of theirs.
For a while, I wanted to do that and found I would undergo any kinky thing they threw my way. Somewhere along the way, however, I had a personal wake-up call and decided to back out. A part of me regretted that decision, wondering if I had just been a coward. The saner parts of my brain said I had done the right thing. Being an exhibitionist, as I had recently come to enjoy, was one thing. Being in a sex club which was admittedly kinky and twisted just wasn't something I was ready for. Would I ever be ready for that?
My husband had learned that their sex club was very BDSM-oriented, and abuse of women was standard fare. A part of me was curious and maybe willing to be sexually abused some, but mostly, no. This wasn't what I wanted to be when I grew up. When does a person "grow up" by the way? For me, it seemed that I was learning new things and growing more every day. Maybe later the idea of being abused by a sex partner would be something I wanted, but not now.
I will also give my friends Susan and Megan credit for forewarning me that kinky activities were like drugs. You started out with a few playful activities and the need to expand on their kinkiness grew and grew. Each sexual "fix" needed to be more than the one before, just like with many drugs. Hearing this, and thinking my own mixed feelings and thoughts, I had backed out.
So, back to today. Why was I sitting here in this park when I could be with my husband at our house? I needed to be honest with myself and put this into words. I needed a mission statement, so to speak. I needed clarity.
I picked up my cell phone and started to do an audio recording. My goal was to put into a few simple sentences to outline where I was mentally with all of this and what I wanted next. I would replay it later and if it still sounded right, that recording would be shared with my husband.
So... I pressed 'record'... "You like a variety of sexual experiences. You enjoy exposing your body to other men and maybe even other women. You like the touch of other men and women. You like their hands and mouths on you. You enjoy having sex with other men and seek some variety in those activities. You are not into pain or humiliation. You do not want these things to dominate your life; they should just be an occasional fun thing to add spice. You want to be the one in charge of what happens with your body."
That last sentence, I realized having just spoken it aloud was most critical. "You want to be the one in charge of what happens with your body." I reflected on everything I had done since accepting the challenges from Susan and Megan and realized that there was only one act that I had initiated and, in some ways, it was the most erotic. That simple act happened right here in this park two weeks ago when I had a young man put his hands into my jeans and briefly finger fuck me while Jack watched. I had pretended to be doing some sex research and it ended up with that finger fucking. Bottom line, it was fun. It was erotic. It was kinky. And it was an act which I had been in charge of.
Okay, the first draft of my mission statement was complete. Now, it was time to head home to my husband Jack.