It had been about 10 months since we had called it quits. We had tried to keep it is amicable as possible but like most divorces things had gotten a little emotional towards the end.
A little back story about our marriage. It had started as an open marriage and had continued that way up until about the end. I had slowly learned over the years that it was a little more one sided than I had first thought it would be with her getting to play more as she turned out to be the more jealous of the two of us. It didn't mean I missed out, it was just more... restrictive. In the long run it didn't matter, I loved her and nothing turned me on more than her happiness.
Either way at the end it was her that wanted to call it quits for various reasons.I was not okay with that but what do they say? It is, what it is?
I'll give a quick description of her, she was 5'6, 132lbs but at almost 40 she went to the gym at least 4 times a week and ate well. Her hard work and dedication showed.
I on the other hand, had medical difficulties from a vehicle accident a few years back and put some weight on that centered in my stomach. So at 6'3" almost 300lbs I still had a good chest and shoulders but I think the belly took away from the overall picture.
So I'll skip past all the ugly details but to say in the end she was not happy with how I handled the open relationship and she couldn't get past it.
I was pissy cuz she got to do whatever she wanted with my support and love and let her know. Probably not the best plan but we were already having our problems and it seemed like our sex lives was the only thing holding us together so it didnt take much to fuck that up too.
Either way, I think by this time in our relationship, my wife was just looking for an excuse to end something she was already over with.
So to move on to the present. We did not see much of each other or even talk much. If it wasn't about the kids then we pretty much avoided one another. The kids mentioned mom had started going out more and more and they were old enough to know what was going on. My son said he had actually seen her out at the store one time with a taller kinda plain looking guy. What can I say? "Kinda plain" made me feel good.
So to say I was surprised when out of nowhere I got a text from her saying
"hey.... soooo...
I have a favor that might be inappropriate?"
I just answered with a "?"
"please have patience, this is really hard for me to even ask and the laaaast thing I want to do argue, so if you not interested I would really appreciate just a simple "no" I don't want to hash anything up."
I was tired and text back telling her so. So whatever it was just get on with it.
Her next text came in "note" form so I could tell she had put some thought and time into it. She was always way more 'professional' than me when it came to writing.
She wrote out her 'favor' with the pros of why she was asking me.
She knew my fetishes and thought I would also enjoy it and knew she would be comfortable and safe with me. Those were her 'pros,' I will try and combine all her texts into one...
"as I am sure you have heard through the kids or on your own that I am seeing someone and its pretty serious? I guess.
His bday is coming up and he is only asking for one thing. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me that I always get stuck with the same guys. remember what my mom always says? my picker is off!
so anyway if you haven't guessed he really wants a threesum. he says if we do it once he won't ever ask again. he is a little younger, I think it's like a bucket list thing for him. I didn't say yes for sure but it has been taking up most of our free time talking about it. I am at the point just to say yes so we can move on.
our talks have been to try to figure out the "who?" we went through all the ideas like a stranger? a mutual friend? you know the deal better than anyone.
so here I am again, I don't want any other stranger inside me, you know that better than anyone as well. i think initially he was thrown off when I suggested you but I think also his hormones overrode any worries. I know how much you liked that and if you think it would still be fun and not ruin where we are at let me know."
It was shocking to say the least. I was not expecting that.
I won't lie either, a lot of emotions assaulted me. Anger being one of the foremost. She was seriously asking me to do something with her and her new man that she stopped and refused to do with me.
All I said that night was "i'll text you tomorrow"
And yes I jerked off to it after the anger dissipated a bit. Or maybe the anger dissipated cuz I jerked off? We had done this countless of times over our years together. It was never a cuckhold or sissy thing, it was always more stag/vixen. I was big on respect. I did love watching her fuck. I did love watching her get off. I did love the time we had together after the other guy left. The fact of the matter was even if "we" weren't "in love" I still loved her.
The next morning I text simply "sure" and she responded just as simply with a "ty" and said she would text me the details when she had them.
Thats when it hit me, this wasn't about her and I, this was about her and her new man. And wow, that did not just hit me, it hit me hard.
That was the biggest turn on for me in the past. The connection her and I had after the other guy left. It was strange, the hurt and jealousy I felt now that I had avoided all those years together. I even picked up the phone to text her some line of bs that it wouldn't work out, that I already had plans or something. But she knew me to well to believe that.
My openness to anything sexual used to be such a turn on for her, maybe it still would be?
Either way I liked new experiences so I told myself I could chalk this up to just one more in that category.