Summer 1940, Eddie and I had been married for two years. No kids as yet. Unbeknown to Eddie I'd had a gynae check and they'd pronounced me ready and able to conceive. And I was certainly willing. They wanted Eddie to go for a check but I hadn't said anything about it to him. He was performing very satisfactorily as far as I was concerned and I certainly didn't want to undermine his confidence. Besides, there was still a good chance that nature would take its course.
I'd been saying that over the fence to Rosie Butterman. Rosie had two kids, both at school, and she knew just how much I would like two like hers. Rosie's advice was simply to keep trying and to enjoy trying. It had taken her four years to get pregnant then her second one came along while the first was still at the breast. "So you never can tell," was Rosie's opinion. "It could happen tonight. "Why not try a different position? That might-"
At that point, in what looked like becoming an interesting conversation, the air raid siren started up.
Rosie had a Morrison shelter indoors. We had an Anderson shelter at the end of the garden. We were living close to a military target and the wardens had told us to take air raids seriously. Darn right we took them seriously. I'd come to terms with being bombed. If it were to happen I just hoped it was quick. What scared me was the prospect of getting maimed and having to go through life all scarred and missing a limb. We'd all seen plenty of people with wounds from the First World War and my heart bled for them.
Usually the siren gave a few minutes warning and I had time to pee and grab something to eat. Oh and milk for a cup of tea. We kept a Primus stove in the shelter.
This time the warning was short. I heard the first kerrump of bombs going off in the distance and there were planes in the sky before I got into the shelter. Then the rattle of cannon and the bomps of anti aircraft guns. The battle was getting close and I hastened into the shelter.
I got the Primus going and put the kettle on. Then I sat and waited for the all clear. Mostly it was boring. I heard the battle going on overhead. I listened to the bombs exploding. Occasionally one would fall close enough to make the shelter shake.
Normally these air raids were over quickly. A wave of bombers would come over, drop their bombs as close to the target as they could and "bugger off home without stopping to admire the view" as Eddie explained it to me. This time though it went on and on. There must have been wave after wave of bombers. After two hours it was still going strong. It occurred to me that this could be the actual invasion they'd been expecting. They'd told us what would happen: landing craft on the beaches, troops, thousands of 'em, swarming up the beach. They'd probably drop paratroops, highly trained elite combat soldiers, inland as an advanced assault force. I was beginning to get scared. What resistance could I offer to a highly trained parachute soldier?
I imagined him in his combat kit, a big burly Jerry with fair hair and blue eyes, possessed of immense strength. Oh dear, I thought, knowing I'd be quite helpless against such a man. Even our own government had told civilians not to get involved in the fighting. We were supposed to surrender and stay alive."