a no narrative story
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The first three years of my marriage were great. The next eight years were okay, and the last eight were miserable. There was no good reason why I put up with it. I don't know if it was because I was hoping that things would get better, or if it was because I was just too damn lethargic.
Marsha and I were married right out of high school. I laid bricks, and she waited tables, and we made it work; at least for the first two years. The next year things changed and I didn't even know it. Of course I knew she was pregnant, and of course I thought it was mine. If fact I didn't find out the my daughter wasn't mine until eight years later.
As Claire grew up, the relationship between Marsha and I deteriorated. It wasn't a sudden thing or a specify thing. Just a slow eroding away.
Marsha stopped working when Claire was born. I was making enough to keep us comfortable, but not in high style. What I didn't notice right away was that Marsha and Claire always seemed to have new stylish wardrobes. She never spent an excessive amount of money out of the household funds on personal items, but they were always well dressed. I noticed it, but I never mentioned it to her.
When Claire was young, we seemed to get along great, but as she got older she started to become a bit surly. I mentioned it to Marsha and she just blew it off. At that point I realized that Claire was becoming just like her mother.
Our personal relationship was fading rapidly. Our sex life had gone down to almost non-existent. I no longer initiated sex, but did respond if she did. I took what I could get, but it was all a bit cold.
I had quietly been putting money aside so that we could buy a house. As things changed, I lost interest. I stashed the money away in a safe place, and continued to add to it.
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Claire's tenth birthday was coming up, so I knocked off early at work and went across town to try and find a birthday present for her. There was a small city park across the street. It was in the business district; an area that I very seldom visited. Marsha was in the park sitting at one of the benches with an older man in a suit. Between them sat Claire with a big smile on her face.
Now things were beginning to make sense.
I ducked into a coffee shop, grabbed a seat by the window, and I watched them for close to an hour. They were laughing and chatting just like a family. We never did that any more. They all stood up and hugged. The stranger gave Marsha a kiss on the cheek and waved good bye as he crossed the street. I followed him a short way until he enter the Barclay Building.
Malcolm Eugene Foote was a financial advisor who had a small office on the third floor of the Barclay Building. That was all I needed to know at the moment.
Up until this time, I had made every effort to be pleasant and congenial at home. I brought Marsha flowers occasionally and little presents for no reason. Now, I became indifferent. I mentioned to Marsha that I was having trouble sleeping because of a back problem I suddenly developed. I got a new mattress and moved into the spare room. Marsha did not protest.
Claire's birthday came and went. I did not get her a present and she did not seem to bothered by it. In fact it was never mentioned. My work days got longer. I was out of the house early in the morning and got home well after supper time in the evening. Marsha mentioned it a few times and then dropped it. She continued to keep the house normal for her and Claire. They sort of modified their life around me and my absences. It was never discussed. She did continue to do my laundry and keep the room up. On the weekends, I took care of the yard work and any house maintenance that was necessary. All the bills got paid as usual. They seemed to be doing just fine without me.