Dear Dirty Diary,
A few days and Doug and I were shopping in the mall. We went into a restaurant for a coffee. To my surprise, we saw my sweet Louise who, as it turned out, was a hostess there. When our eyes met, her shone dark and sparkling. Her nipples swelled and poked through the bodice of her blouse. We flirted back and forth with coy little glances to the point where I licked my top lip as my mind swam through delightful little memories of her. When she spontaneously gave me a big warm hug, she knocked loose a broach on my sweater. She carefully straightened and repined it, then smoothed my sweater across my breasts, then patted my nipple erect. At that point, I remembered that my husband was standing with me and was giving us both the oddest of looks. Blushing, I began to introduce them, but when she blushed after making eye contact with Doug, an expression of revelation swept across his face.
"Oh crap, he knows!" shot through my brain as he shook her hand graciously, while at the same time searching into her eyes for the truth. Louise's eyes met his for a moment then quickly shot away, desperately searching for an escape from all this awkwardness. She picked up some menus and said, "Come, I'll take you to a nice booth."
As I followed Louise down the aisle, my ears rang with my boot steps and nervously concentrated on Doug's as he followed. When we were comfortably seats, he took up and scanned his menu. After a few seconds, I heard him clear his throat and say, "And just how close of friends have you two become?" then stared right into my eyes for his answer.
I dropped my eyes to the table, said, "Closer than you could ever imagine." then took a frightened glance at his searching eyes.
The blood pounded in my brain as I stared at my husband. "Well, where did we go from here?" he finally said.
"It's all up to you, Doug." I replied in terror.
"Laura, before I jump to any conclusions, am I correct in assuming that you and Louise are having some kind of an affair?" he questioned.
"Something like that." I confessed.
Doug sighed, swallowed, bit his bottom lip, and then looked away from me. My ears began ringing and I felt as if the whole world was closing in on me. After a moment or two, he sighed again and said, "Well, I guess I had it coming to me." As he looked back at me, he continued, "Have I really not been there for you or is it something else?"
"A little of both." I replied.
Doug looked down for a few seconds and took a deep breath. "I'm sure I could be more attentive, but what else is involved here? What can she do for you that I can't?" he questioned.
"Just different stuff." I answered, somewhat elusively. "Trust me, my friendship with Louise is no threat to our relationship. It just makes me feel young and alive." I reassured Doug.
My husband contemplated the situation for a few moments then confided, "I suppose I could feel hurt and threatened, but to tell you the truth, I don't. I am in awe of your newfound friskiness and I'd certainly be a real hypocrite if I resented your happiness." He looked at me lovingly and said, "As long as it does not affect us adversely and I continue to benefit from your experiences, I promise to look after you better and not get in the way of your relationship with Louise."
Initially impressed with his understanding attitude, I soon felt there must be a hidden catch. I suggested knowing him, he'd probably want to watch us fooling around or make it a threesome. "That, my Dear, would be an intrusion of your privacy and I would never push myself into your affair." I speculated that there must be something he wanted out of this. "All right then." he replied, "Write me stories about your activities. You took a course in technical writing at community college, so compose me perhaps, a diary, a dirty diary that tells me what you've done, what you enjoyed and what you long for from me, to fulfill your desires and fantasies." I told him I could see my way clear to that, to which he added, "Just use first names in it and for God's sake, don't ever let it out of your sight."