It's been a couple weeks since the lake trip and things have changed for sure. Not as rapidly as I'd hoped but certainly changed in a good direction. Ginger has been more receptive to sexual conversations and sexual innuendos than before and has even dropped some slight subtle hints from time to time. I would love to say that our last episode broke the branch and things are exactly where they should be, but that would be an extreme stretch.
Things had slowed down since our last sex-capade and I had been tremendously busy at work, I decided to ask her to lunch on the upcoming Friday and started to work on another plan that I had in mind.
"Let's go to Moe's Bar and Grill on Friday for lunch," I said in a friendly voice. "I have arranged for Jack to be away for the entire day until late in the evening, he will be at his buddy Frank's house," I said.
Jack being our son and who is more than willing to go hang with his buddies at any minute of the day he's free.
"Does that work for you?" I asked.
"Yes, of course, but why would lunch last us through the entire evening?" she asked with a bit of make-believe confusion.
"I thought we may end up having a few drinks, besides, you know I don't like to be rushed and/or having a timeline on Fridays," I responded while shooting a provocative wink her way.
I had set the stage for an image, more-over a fantasy that I think she has buried deep within her that she has only alluded to a few times, yet extremely subtly. I think I understand it. My plan was to take her to lunch, get her talking about anything while getting a few drinks into her, then start asking questions around the subject very carefully and methodically. I would have to tread ever so lightly and test the waters as I go. This subject is a killer if there ever was one and I needed a clear exit strategy or excuse in case I had read her completely wrong.
Truth be told, I was extremely excited about seeing where it would/could go, and my imagination ran wild with the possibilities. I also, at the same time, realized I could have made all these thoughts up in my mind and that I could be 1000% wrong about her fantasy. Maybe it could be that I only WISHED this were her fantasy.... Either way, I was going to test the waters and determine once and for all.
Friday couldn't come fast enough, and it literally consumed my thoughts most hours of the day. I found myself calculating the conversation and rehearsing my lines, exactly as if I were closing a $10mm deal. I had created perfect escape routes, and easily explained re-directions in case I discovered I had missed the mark by a mile.
Friday morning, I felt like a schoolboy that was waiting for his ride to the amusement park, while I played out the actual fantasy in my head and became very aroused at least 4 times before it was time to go.
I asked the hostess if we could have a booth in the corner that had a very clear angle to the bar? As we ordered our lunch, I added, "please bring me a double bourbon neat," to which Ginger looked extremely surprised. "huh" she added, figuring I would go for a beer or something less strong immediately out of the gate. "It's our time to let go a bit. Jack is gone for the day, why not". Ginger changed her order from a beer to a "Mojito w/ Don Julio tequila please".
"Yes!", I thought, "it's on!"
As we ate and spent the next hour or so discussing school, Club baseball, and other normal parent crap. I noticed the anxiety I felt about the "subject" was all-but gone. The liquor was performing its magic and I decided it was time to start the process.
"You know, I seen an ad on Facebook advertising a swinger's cruise to the Caribbean. Can you believe those even exist?" Boom, -- there, I said it -- "Game on," I said to myself.
"Oh really?" was her reply -- without even looking up at me or without even a hint of shock. "Yes, apparently that is a thing. On the ad it says there are even resorts in Mexico that set aside specific weeks for "swinger couples" only."
"hum" she added.
"Isn't that crazy?" I said.
"Well, it makes sense." She murmured.
"Can you imagine being on a ship knowing that everybody there is fucking and probably fucking each other's spouse, or at very minimum inviting a third into their situation?" I said, calmly and matter-of-factly.
"Gross, that is PURE CRAZINESS!" she offered.
"Great," I thought. "FUCK! Did I miss judge her thoughts? Nah, I'm not giving in that easily. What else would she say?" "HEY, YA, LETS GO FUCK OTHER PEOPLE...!!"
Max: "Are you saying that you have NEVER thought about it, or would even remotely consider it?"
Ginger: "NEVER, and I think I know where you're going with this Max, and you should stop while you're ahead."
Max: "I wasn't going to suggest that we go on a swinger's cruise or to a fuck island! C'mon you know me better than that. I was just asking if those thoughts have ever crossed your mind? Not that you would actually do it, but have you ever even fantasized about it?"
Ginger: "Well, if I'm being honest, of course I have thought about it. I wouldn't say I have fantasized about it, but I have certainly thought about it and even though the idea sounds exciting, the reality is probably horrible. The insecurity it would bring on, the judgment, ..... nah.... I'm ok, THANK YOU!"
Max: "Agreed honey. I can only imagine the insecurity I would have if you disappeared with another guy, or that you would have if you saw me banging another woman. It would probably be unrepairable given our insecurities."