If ever there was an example of homely woman - I am she! I don't have the good looks most women have and my figure isn't really very good at all. I have had three children and fed each one of them so my belly is a little loose and my tits are sagging so you will see I am not attractive in the real sense of the word. My legs are nice and I am proud of them but my poor feet ache most of the time because I have run around after my children and my husband. I am about 5'6" and weigh about 110 lbs.
My husband, John, and I have been married for 6 years and we made up our minds to have our children early so they would be able to grow up with us. That was alright in the planning but the execution of the idea all fell back on me - it was my body which was twisted and pulled out of shape and my poor nipples felt as if they would explode because of all the sucking which the children did. I fed each one as long as possible because I knew it was a cheap way of providing for them and, if the truth is known, I liked having them sucking on me because it gave me some much wanted attention.
John is always busy and never has time for sex when he comes home from his work. He will make love to me about once a week if I am lucky and this leaves me very frustrated for the rest of the time. I met John at a party for my best friend and we sort of hit it off straight away. I had never had a boyfriend before John and had never even been out on a real date before. John played around with me quite a lot when we were going out together but I wouldn't let him get his hand inside my panties no matter how much he pleaded. I certainly let him play with my tits and he loved to take my blouse and bra off and play with my naked breasts. He loved to suck my nipples and I could feel my excitement building as he sucked them and I always got frightened I would get carried away and would let him fuck me!
It was on my 21st birthday he fucked me for the first time! What a messy time that was. When I look back and think what we did, I smile to myself because we were such amateurs and neither of us really knew what to do. John knew he had to get his cock into my cunt and I knew he had to put his cock in my cunt but the actual mechanics of it all was farcical. This was the very first time John had seen my naked body and I remember feeling surprised he hadn't told me I was ugly! I had tits but they weren't big like other girls and I had hair growing under my arms and between my legs and I didn't know if I should have shaved it off before he fucked me - that will tell you how inexperienced I was. I had nobody to ask these intimate questions - I certainly couldn't ask my friends because I had been bragging I had been fucked before and I didn't want to be caught out telling lies.
John eventually got his cock into my cunt! He pushed it in and it hurt even going into the first part but when he reached my hymen and pushed to break it, the pain was shocking and I cried out. He kept on pushing into me and eventually it started to feel better - in fact it started to feel very nice as my orgasm (I didn't know what it was then) started to build up. Suddenly when I was starting to feel very good, John pulled his cock out of me and spurted all this white stuff up over my belly and my little tits! I felt very frustrated and badly wanted to continue the feeling I was getting with his cock inside me.
After that John started buying condoms and we used them whenever we fucked but I hated those things because he always made me take them off his cock afterwards and I had to tie a knot in the condom before we threw them away. I hated doing this but I liked being fucked. Later we married and almost immediately started having our family. I wanted to wait longer and have John fuck me for a year or two before we had kids but he insisted and so I was pregnant within 3 months of marrying.
Here I am, 30 years of age, and feel as if I am worn out and that nobody loves me anymore. I had joined all the voluntary organizations connected with the children's school and eventually got myself elected to the committee of the PTA. I was quite thrilled to be elected because it meant some of the parents liked me and that was good.
I want to tell you about my one exciting night. As president of the PTA I was nominated to attend a conference at the Capital to learn about some rather drastic changes to our Association. I hated travelling alone but there was no one to go with me and I couldn't even think of asking my husband - he would never go with me.
Naturally I wanted to look my best and so I splurged part of our budget on some new clothes. I bought a new business suit which I knew looked very smart on me, but I really couldn't afford it but what the hell, I bought it anyway. I knew I would have to buy new shoes to go with the suit so that meant additional expenditure and didn't leave enough for new underwear. I tossed up whether I should buy a new blouse to go under my suit but finally decided I would either use one of my own or go without!
The conference was to be a two-day affair and we arrived early in the morning by plane (fortunately the PTA paid the fares) and the conference started at 10am. The sessions went until we broke up at 5.30pm and then we were to go to our respective hotel rooms and change for our evening meal which was a fairly grand affair. Of course I didn't have a second set of clothes to wear so I just showered and dressed again in my same suit having just my bra and panties underneath. I didn't wear stockings so that saved on expense as well. We really didn't have much money.