Rachel turned on the shower and stepped in before me -- I was still undressing, having a lot more clothing to be removed than she did. I heard her sigh with contentment as the warm water hit her body, undoubtedly relieved to be finished with her first ordeal, and to clean off the physical reminders Omar left behind. It was a strange feeling to say the least, and I'm sure neither of us had fully processed what just happened. But there was no turning back. Finished undressing, I stepped in to join her in the shower.
Rachel was still covered. The water had hit the cum, and it was running down her face and body, in this oozing, smelly mess. She looked like a porn star, and if I hadn't known where it all came from, or if she hadn't been my wife, she would've looked incredibly erotic. I suppose in a way she still did -- she wore the markings of an owned, used woman, and I had a bit of a visual reaction to that. But it was one marked by inner conflict. Either way, this visual reaction was mitigated as Rachel washed more and more, rubbing soap over her body, returning her to her normal pristine state.
"How are you doing?" I asked. I figured it was best we talked about things sooner rather than later.
"I'm... fine, actually. I thought this would be a bigger deal, but it really wasn't. It's kind of weird he has those pictures of me though..." She shuddered. "I hope he doesn't post them online. Shit -- why did I let him take them?"
"Because he offered you double the money." I reminded her. "You made the right choice, given the circumstances. And he doesn't seem like the kind of guy to violate your privacy like that..." I trailed off.
It's true, Omar really didn't seem like that kind of guy. But on the other hand, we really barely knew him, and he clearly had an aggressive side to him -- it came out when he was fucking Rachel's mouth. Still, there wasn't anything to be done at this point. I continued my thought. "Besides, even if he did post them online, it would just be a drop in the bucket -- there's already so much porn out there, I'm sure no one would notice."
Rachel sighed. "I guess... still. It makes me really uncomfortable. I just... I don't know, it's weird. After the way he'd been using me, I just couldn't say no, you know? I don't know what happened, I just felt so... submissive? I think I would've done anything he asked me to."
"That's a scary thought." I replied. "But like I said -- I wouldn't worry about it."
Rachel nodded. "It's too late now anyway."
I paused, unsure of whether to ask what was on my mind, but decided I had to. "Did you... like it at all?"
Rachel looked at me funny. "Of course not."
I pressed her. "Really? Because it sounds like you were in a pretty strange headspace by the end of it. You just said you think you would've done anything he asked you to..."
Rachel looked exasperated. "Okay, look. I mean, it wasn't awful. He was a nice guy, and it actually made me feel kind of sexy that he wanted me so badly he was willing to pay for it. But I don't want this, Luke. I didn't want any of this. I'm doing it for us..."
I felt guilty. I knew I shouldn't be interrogating her like this, even though I felt my insecurities were reasonable. Nonetheless, it was time to back off. "I... ... sorry."
"It's okay." Rachel replied. "I know this is hard for you too."
I shrugged. It wasn't easy, but I wasn't going to put that on her. "It's not that bad. You actually looked kind of sexy."
Rachel looked surprised. "Really?"
"Yeah." I replied. It was true, sort of. I was definitely conflicted about everything, but I obviously found Rachel really attractive, and seeing her do the kinds of things girls do in porn certainly had a visual appeal.
Rachel paused, then grinned a little. "You naughty boy. I never would've guessed."
"Hey, don't take this the wrong way." I protested, defending myself. "It's just... you're sexy, and it's sexy to see you do sexy things."
Rachel smiled softly. "No... I'm glad. To be honest, for a while there, I was pretending Omar was you, since it was the only way to get through it. And it was actually kind of sexy -- being your whore. I even got sort of wet." She admitted.
This time it was my turn to be surprised. "Wow, really?"
Rachel blushed, and spoke really softly. "... You know how submissive I am, and how I love being dominated."
"You mean... You liked that? What he was doing?" I was shocked.
"It... It's complicated. I didn't like it because it was him doing it. It just felt wrong. But when I imagined it was you... He was just so dominant -- in control. And because he was paying me, I felt like I just had to submit to him. As long as I was thinking about you, it was definitely kind of arousing." Rachel confessed.
I didn't know how to feel, or what to say. Part of me -- the jealous part -- had secretly hoped she hated every moment of what she had done. But another part of me -- the compassionate part -- was glad it wasn't terrible for her. And one final part of me -- the horny part -- just thought it was hot to see someone I found so attractive down on her knees sucking cock like a slut. A silence hung in the air, shortly broken by Rachel, who asked with a whimper, "Do... do you still love me?"
I stared her in the eyes, earnestly. "I'll still love you no matter what. But... I'd still really prefer we never do this again."
Rachel sighed and looked me in the eyes. "Just once more, and then were done -- forever. Never again."
******
A few minutes later, Rachel and I had emerged from the shower, and returned to the couch. I wasn't sure she -- or I, for that matter -- wanted to do anything more tonight, but on the other hand, there was something to be said for getting this over and done with. I asked her: "Well... What should we do?"
Rachel seemed to be on the same wavelength as me. "Let's just get this over with. One more, and then this whole mess is behind us." I saw her pick up her phone, which had defaulted back to the "solicitation mode" screen. She sighed, took a deep breath, and turned solicitation back on, then collapsed in my arms -- exhausted, embarrassed, nervous, you name it. I wrapped an arm around her, supportively, and we just sat there.
A lot of time passed. Hours, at least, with Rachel and I just passing the time doing nothing much in particular. Eventually, Rachel spoke up, forlorn. "I guess nobody else wants me tonight."
I gave her a mischievous little grin. "Somebody still wants you..."
Rachel chuckled. "Oh? Even after what I had to do?"