I've never blindly followed my dick before, but it was sitting in the driver's seat for all of the events prior. I felt simultaneously ill and more alive than ever before in my life.
Sarah and I crawled into bed that night, both of us exhausted, and for a long moment there was nothing but silence. My mind tore through the different scenarios and theories of what she was thinking. I fought the growing sense of dread as best I could. Surely my life as I knew it was over. The boundaries of everything lay smashed and strewn about. I couldn't see any way back to normal. How could she see me as her man when I had sat and watched her be defiled? But then I felt Sarah's hand creep across the bed and onto my chest. A connection that restored everything. Her fingers pressed into my peck and I felt how she was feeling. We still needed each other, and that was most important.
I broke the silence, "That was pretty crazy huh?"
"Yes," she replied, as if I had made the understatement of the century, "I didn't feel like myself. Once it started, it was like flood gates had opened and I was swept away."
I asked, "Was that a bad thing?"
She thought for a moment. "No, the feeling was incredible. I've never felt out of control like that. It was animalistic, a deep craving. Did you feel like that?"
"Not quite. It was like a thrill ride, kinda like jumping out of an airplane and finding a parachute on the way down. I think the main thing I loved was just how fucking amazing you looked. But I couldn't shake that idea that it was wrong. How could it not be a huge mistake? And why did the shame exhilarate me so much? Reconnecting like this made all of the bad feelings of it fade away."
She said, "Well that's good. I was so worried after he left. I felt like I betrayed you."
"I didn't see it that way. The sight of you writhing in pleasure, it was, it was just amazing. You're incredible."
"Oh babe," she said while leaning over and kissing me, "You're the amazing one."
The next morning life was back to the regular routine.
Halfway through the week, Sarah was sent away on business for a few days. This kickstarted a torrent of text messages of an escalating sexual nature. We poked and prodded the edges of the fetish, and we discovered just how much she loved acting slutty and being treated like one. Unfortunately, she didn't find it believable coming from me. Especially when we learned I had a bit of a thing for being humiliated. She wasn't great at doing that to me either. The level of honesty between us was incredible. Nothing was off limits. She divulged how many orgasms she'd had with Justin, it was a whopping four.
While she was away, Justin came by for his weekly mowing, and he was clearly disappointed to find Sarah gone. We cracked a few beers and chatted on the porch for a bit. The atmosphere was like that of two old chaps chatting. We stayed away from the topic of what had happened. I felt sheepish at first, but the beer opened me up.
I asked him, " So have you ever done something like that before?"
He chuckled, "Uh yeah, but its been a while since I fucked a girl as hot as yours."
This made me feel embarrassingly proud. "Thanks. I mean, yeah she's hot and she seems to get hotter every year we're together."
He said, "Good for you man, I never would've guessed you could pull a girl like that back in school. Her tits are perfect."
My mind went back to him hungrily maulinging her tits and sucking on her nipples as she rode in him in my living room. Her boobs are indeed perfect. Handfuls of perky flesh that look great on her toned frame.
What he said next surprised me. He started going on about his girlfriend's smaller boobs and how they didn't look quite as good as they had before. He noticed my confused look.
"Don't worry, she knows. We get a bit of an understanding. I even told her about what happened, and she sucked my dick while your girl's taste was still on it."
"Wow" was all I could muster, "that's pretty hot."
We talked for a little while longer, and he asked if we were wanting to do that again. I lied and said we didn't know.
He got up to leave after my sexy blonde neighbor with the fat ass drove up and walked from her car to the house. She stopped to smile and wave before turning to give us a view of her bubbly cheeks bouncing in her tight shorts. Justin said she got him all revved up, so he needed to go home to fuck his girl. Everything in my life seemed to be revolving around sex all of a sudden.
The morning before Justin was to return, I got up early and made us breakfast before helping Sarah pick out her outfit for the day. I went with a light blue Calvin Clein thong that looked so sexy with her swimsuit tanlines and fine ass. She wore a matching bra and a gray skirt with a maroon blouse on top. She looked hot, but in a very restrained type of way.