Monday through Wednesday were more of the same letters from Jean. They weren't long. She apologized for not writing more but she was staying out late. She added 'wink, wink' after the word late. Miguel interpreted her 'wink, wink' as a sign she and Leo were having sex. Knowing how paranoid Jean was and how protective she was of her reputation he wondered just how far she was going with Leo. Her behavior was completely out of character, but he noted it had been getting increasingly risky over the last four to five months. She was rebelling against her dad and maybe even society.
He responded to each of her letters, but since they lacked much in the way of details all he could do was tell her what he had been up to. He wished he could be as free in his letters as she was in hers, but she was adamant he keep them G-rated.
He focused on their emotional closeness and how saw their lives unfolding as a married couple. He was as keen to start a family as she. He was ready to graduate and start making enough money to support a wife and family.
Thursday night after work he checked his mailbox before entering his apartment. Inside was a letter from Jean. His heart galloped because he figured the letter was written after Sunday.
He opened it wondering what the contents would reveal. Its length disappointed him, but the words breathed life into his penis.
She wrote, "Miguel, I'm sorry this letter isn't longer. I promise you the next one will be. I'm sorry I snapped at you earlier today. I know this hasn't been easy for you. Your question floored me. Of course we are a couple. I consider you my soul mate. I don't think I could find someone as good as you. You spoil me rotten and you put up with my crap. You have no idea how much I appreciate you. You've made so many of my dreams come true.
I don't think there are a hundred men in this world who would tolerate my behavior or my dad's interference, but you have and continue to. Thank you for indulging me. My dad is off my back but more importantly I've found answers to my questions.
Two weeks ago my dad was bugging me to date other men. Now he's worried Leo and I are spending too much time together. He hasn't said anything but I can tell by the way he acts. If he tries to stop me he knows I'll throw it back in his face. He's the reason I'm seeing Leo. I always pictured my dad as big and strong so it's disturbing to see him kissing Leo's ass. It's like he wishes he were Leo. I've bitten my tongue more than once because I want him to treat you the way he treats Leo, like a prospective son-in-law.
I'm sorry if you misinterpreted me Miguel but I thought after our conversation in the hotel you were okay with me having sex with other men. I should have been clearer, but I didn't want to hurt you any more than I had. My dad's demands and running into Leo seemed like a message from God. He was telling me to date and Leo, a family friend, and someone we both know and more importantly I feel comfortable with, shows up.
As to the sex I am having with Leo (please dont take this wrong)it's how I imagined intercourse between a man and a woman would be. The sad thing is it's not lovemaking. Miguel, you are my lover. What you and I do together is lovemaking. What Leo and I do is what animals do; they mate. It's not gentle or respectful, but savage. I have never wanted your mouth as badly. I hurt and yet I want him to hurt me again and again. I want his rough touch and I want your soft caresses. I am not torn between two lovers. You are my lover Miguel, but I am torn between my physical desires. I am not worried because I know your love for me is so strong. We will work out a solution we can both live with.
I can't wait to have your head between my legs Miguel.
Te Amo"
At times he did find her bluntness extremely uncomfortable, but she wasn't telling him anything he didn't know. He was a good lover, but a less than adequate partner to have intercourse with. Leo was a first rate sex partner, but someone she didn't love.
He sat down, whipped out his penis, and jacked off. She hadn't provided much insight, but enough for him to picture their coupling as rough, more like animals than humans. He sensed Leo's cock was disproportionately large. He closed his eyes and dreamed of eating Jean, his tongue making the hurt of Leo's cock all better. As he imagined eating her he smelled and tasted Leo's presence. His cum oozed out of her vagina and Miguel eagerly lapped it up.
He shot his wad catching it in the palm of his hand. He immediately brought it up to his mouth and licked it clean.
Friday he found it difficult to concentrate at school or work. He couldn't explain it but he had fallen even deeper in love with Jean. With everything out in the open he believed her when she told him she loved him. He was no longer fearful their relationship was going to unravel. Long distance he didn't see Leo as a threat. When he was in town she would focus her energies on him, not Leo. They would in essence share Jean, an idea he had come to embrace. Jean's happiness mattered more to him than his own. If this is what she needed to be content he wasn't going to stand in her way.
When he returned to his apartment early Saturday morning wet from the waist down and bone tired finding Jean's letter in his mail box invigorated him. His penis began to harden when he spotted the letter. Before he opened it his penis was fully erect.
He closed the door behind him. Ensuring the shades were pulled down he stripped. He grabbed a beer from the refrigerator and stretched out on his couch. His body felt as though an electrical current were running through it. He swore his penis felt as though it was buzzing.
He took several sips of beer as he studied the envelope. He liked the way she sealed her letters with an imprint of her lips. He grabbed a letter opener and gently opened it. He retrieved the letter and with nervous trepidation unfolded the letter. He began to read the letter, holding it in one hand as he stroked his manhood with the other.