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(Girlfriend sharing story, haters beware! In the Loving Wives category since Literotica will put it there regardless of what I label it}
Part One- The Boss
I stared in the mirror as I applied my lipstick. It was a, "classy whore," look, which I suppose was what I was actually going for and not the "total whore," thing. To be technically correct, I believe I'm more of a slut than an actual whore. I mean, I'm not getting paid for it, other than a nice fancy dinner or something.
I wasn't the only one looking at my reflection. Paul, who I'll describe for now as my boyfriend or significant other, was staring intently at me. Bless his heart, I don't understand him, why he enjoys the things he does but I'm not arguing. The things I enjoy often match up with what he enjoys and if sometimes other people get pleased as a consequence, good for everyone. You see, I wasn't putting the lipstick on for Paul, or wearing the tight, form fitting skirt that went well above the knee or the top which allowed quite a bit of cleavage to show. I'm pretty blessed up there, to be honest. I'm curvy, as the fat girls like to say, but I'm not actually fat. I have nice hips, a big, tight ass, and tits probably too big for my frame. I stand a little over five feet and my tits are a "B" cup if I want them to spill out, or a "C" cup if I need them held in.
Why am I putting on lipstick and wearing a dress where every curve of me is on display if it's not for Paul? Because I have a date, with his boss, actually. Frank is one of those driven business types. He's much older, he's probably in his early 50's while Paul is 43 and I just turned 35. It was Paul's idea, of course.
Paul's mind is...kinky, to put it bluntly. He has all sorts of ideas on relationships that include swinging, or as the kids like to say now, shades of "polyamory." His ex-wife had quite a few experiences with other men while they were married, only a few of which Paul agreed to. He said he secretly actually enjoyed it as long as he was aware of what was going on, not so much, of course, when she "strayed" without telling him. She wasn't the information sharing type, though. Too bad for her, I bet she'd have been allowed to do a lot more if she'd only confided in him. In the end, though, she left him for someone she'd hooked up with through the internet. I think that's what she was after the whole time.
But here he was eyeing me while I lewdly smacked my lips so that he'd fully understand what it would sound like wrapped around another guy's cock. I asked myself, "what's the big deal, it's not like I haven't sucked cocks before for him, well, for both of us, of course."
I guess I should back up a little. I'd never been in this type of relationship. In fact, most of my relationships were plainly abusive. Most of them were liars and cheats. I always thought all men thought this way, that they were somehow "entitled" to cheat, while women had to toe the line in the relationship or else they were the worst kind of skanks or sluts. I found out this wasn't the case with Paul. I've been slutty before, in truth, but only when I was unattached or only for my significant other when I was. I'd not cheated, nor lied about my behavior, which I cannot say is true about the men I've been with. Currently, leading up to meeting Paul, I had a few friends who turned into friends with benefits, and several....okay, quite a few guys who were "on the list" as potentials, based on their attraction to me. I was actually looking forward to checking that list off.
In no way was I looking to get into another committed, monogamous relationship. I missed my sexually free days, especially coming out of three relationships back to back to back, including my former marriage. I had no intention of falling right back into another one. I didn't want another man who controlled me either with jealousy or emotional manipulation. My ex-husband was the master of that, he cheated freely and openly yet was nearly violently jealous of any attention I got, even if it was a look from a stranger, which I had no control over. When I'd catch him cheating, he'd lie to my face, even, like one time, when he had the woman's pussy juice slathered all over his face. It took therapy and a lot of support to get out of his clutches and thankfully I did. I was looking forward to letting my inner slut out.
Then, I ran into Paul. He's smart, funny, hot "AF" as the kids say (kids say a lot, apparently). I didn't plan it. We got introduced by "friends of friends." We had an instant chemical attraction, the sex was fantastic. I harbored my old fears, however. One morning, after a night of outrageously good sex, Paul caught me crying, still in bed, sore but fulfilled. He looked heartbroken when I told him that I was having second thoughts about becoming more "attached" than we were. I told him what I feared. I didn't want to hurt him if I didn't want to be just "his." For so long I'd longed to be the one with the control, the one to just use someone for physical pleasure. I wanted to be the one who would enjoy, deny, tease at my leisure. My fear was I was falling into another trap with Paul and that I'd again have to stifle my freedoms.
After I spilled it all to him he left the room to make coffee and process what I'd said. He returned quite a bit later after thinking about things.
He said, "you want your freedom to be who you want to be, and who you are, which is pretty fantastic, by the way. I want to be with you, but I don't want to smother you. I've had my relationships, too. I'm not looking to tie you down....though I know you like that sort of thing," he joked.
"I really like you....in fact....I'm afraid I....love you," I sniffed. "But, I really don't want to be anyone's fiancΓ©....or wife right now. I'm just afraid that's where this is headed."
"Because things have gone so well?" he kidded.
"Right, actually. It's usually AFTER the commitment that all hell breaks loose and things fall apart."
"Anything is possible," he admitted. "I just really enjoy you, and not just your amazing body and your skills....oh my god, your skills," he beamed. "It's also talking to you, laughing, enjoying our conversations. I love you too, if that means anything."
"So what should we do?" I asked.
"Why don't you be who you want to be, do what you want, but still hang out with me....or even more, if that suits you. We should at least try it before blowing the whole thing up."
"You wouldn't mind me....sowing my oats?" I grinned bashfully. "I mean I know you've had experience with cheating before but I don't want to cheat. I want to be able to....and then tell it all to you. In fact, our working together, sharing, discussing then having the "after" together would be the best. Could you....do that, accept me back, after fully know what I'd just done?"
"I'm thinking I might....actually enjoy it," he admitted. "To have a wonderful woman, free to do as she chooses, yet still wants to share everything with me? That's kind of my dream scenario, actually. I never understood the whole cuckold thing, where the guy is clueless that his wife or girlfriend is banging everyone behind his back. I totally hate hate hate the sissy, small dick, cock cage, bull humiliating things with a passion. But, sharing in it, being a part of it, maybe even helping suggest things or, on occasion, direct things? That might be something I've thought about before," he admitted with a shy grin.
"I...uh....have more than a couple one night stands in mind. It's been years of built up frustration. I have kind of a "fantasy list," I said, red faced.
"Wow, that's awesome. Truthfully, how many guys?"