Part 4- Killing three birds
We had it out the next day. Yelling, screaming, crying (not just me). All of our thoughts and feelings were laid bare. I told him that from the beginning I was honest with him about what I wanted, what I needed. I told him I wanted him to share it with me and be a part of it but if he couldn't take it, I understood.
He shared all his fears, his anxiety about it all. I got it, I really did. Going into it I really couldn't say I expected it to work out, I mean, who lets their "girlfriend" do such things? That's why I had been honest about it from the start, why I'd offered him a chance to run, to hit the door, pretty much ever since then.
Funny though, I was wearing a sheer teddy and some tiny panties, and the whole time we were ranting, raving, hugging, crying, he was looking. I could see him trying to focus on the subject at hand, but he was being flooded with other thoughts.
Little by little as we rehashed our whole "lifestyle" since I started having these experiences, I saw his demeanor change. It was actually making him horny (again). I confronted him. I pointed out how this happened every time, he'd get all worked up, beg and plead for me to do "things," and only after he'd gotten off would he start his "regret tour."
We were calmer. We were having a moment. We kissed. He let me tell him about my night. He was really amazed at how it wasn't Josh that got my pussy, how Moose had filled in. He pored over every detail I gave him. I could see it, it was having an effect on him. He just needed to realize, once and for all, that he either needed this as badly as I did, or he needed to run, to dump me and never look back. I challenged him. He said he needed to think about it, he didn't seem angry at all anymore.
"Honey, I have an idea for us. Go take some time, think. When you come back, tell me exactly what I should do. I know you have ideas, I love your ideas. You tell me what to do, what to wear, what to say and I'll do it. I know we share many fantasies, whatever you want. Or, you tell me to fuck off, leave, and never come back and I'll do that too."
He didn't seem in any hurry for that, however. But, I was serious. This was it for me. Join me or dump me. I was in more of a relationship than I'd even wanted from the beginning. But, I'd found myself wanting him around, wanting him in it. If he could convince me he was a part of it, then great! If not, it was nice while it lasted.
I puttered around his house in my underwear for a couple hours doing the dishes, vacuuming, wondering if this was the last time I'd see it. "Well," I thought, "at least it'll be clean!" I found myself thinking about Frank, Josh.....and others. I wondered if I was going to go that path alone. I found myself having a glass of wine, then two....then, not sure how many. He came to me when I was into my third wine. He seemed resolute. I waited for the blade of the guillotine.
Instead, his first thought was, "You know that day you said blowjobs were like "nothing?" That you could do like ten a day?" I mean I know you were kidding, but the point is, your mouth could be used way more often than your pussy."
"Yesss," I hissed, suddenly perked.
"Then that's what I want. I want you to do the "mouth whore" thing that you brag about, that Frank calls you. Instead of teasing it, you should start doing it."
I mean, I shouldn't have been surprised, he really did get worked up over everything. I shouldn't have been shocked because the choice he had really was all in or all out. It appeared he was in.
"Wow, babe. I can do that. Remember, tell me what, how and I said I'd make it happen."
So that's how I ended up quite buzzed, on my knees in just a sheer teddy and no underwear, blowing the delivery guy, Binh, in our doorway. He left with a smile and said to, "call him anytime!"
"Was that good, baby?" I cooed, the young guy's cum still bubbling on my lips.
"That's just a start. I want you to do that, regardless of anything else we set up. Let's keep that mouth busy."
I woke up groggy only to find Paul standing over me with a goofy grin. I had wicked dreams of me drowning in a sea of sharks where they all were taking bites of me until there was nothing left. I get it, it was a metaphor.
"Get up sleepyhead, it's game day!"
"Ohhhh," I groaned. I tried to bury my head under my pillow. After all our discussions, this one had slipped my mind. I wanted to sleep off the mild wine effects.
He yanked it off me. "I already let you sleep too long, you know my friends are coming over to watch the bowl games. You have to help me get ready and you have to make your killer appetizers."
"Just another hour," I groaned, using the blanket this time to cover my head. Again, he yanked it off me, leaving me completely bare. Yes, I sleep nude, gross, I know! For me, there's nothing better than Paul's nude body spooning or cuddling me throughout the night.
"Plus, we need to talk. We won't have much time."
"Uh oh, another "talk," I thought and added a grimace for effect.
"Oh, it's a good talk," he beamed.
Reluctantly I got up and helped him with everything including the setup of folding tables for the wings, burgers and things he'd be making on the grill. My part was to make the appetizers, which the guys seemed to really like. Paul kept swatting me on my ass, as if to hurry myself along.