The big bus raced on into the night. Its lights pierced the darkness, making a tunnel ahead of itself. Next to me sat this man who had been my neighbour since we started our journey at 1pm. We have not stopped talking. When the bus made its first stop after travelling more than two hours he took it upon himself to look out for me, quite as if he were an old friend. Something about him makes me very comfortable around him; he is not good looking in the classical way, yet I feel very lucky that I came to the booking office and chose this particular seat. And that he came a day afterwards and chose that one next to me! I think I even prefer that to having a woman. What is it about him?
Now I can feel his hand holding mine under the Masai blanket. His hands are so soft it makes me long for him to touch me elsewhere. He is telling me a story about his travels all over East Africa. But while I am listening, my blood is in a boil. Which is something I cannot understand, married woman though I am, and on my way to visit my husband where he works; it will take another 12 hours of travel to get there. I feel an unholy thrill that I will have this guy with me all the way, making me feel the same way I felt when I was young with a boyfriend. Is there something wrong with me?
I think I will entice him a little. I pretend to fall asleep sometime in the night, and feel his fingers exploring my body. First he rubs his thumb against my leg in jeans as if he were afraid I would wake up and scream at him. God, why can't he read my mind that I want him to be more bold and touch me? Part of his hand rests against my crotch, which gives so much pleasure. Is it because my husband has been away for so long that my reactions are so strange? I have never known my body to behave this way!
He moves his hands to rub my tummy area. Wow! how wonderful that feels, yet I continue to act as if I am asleep. He touches the underside of my bra and I feel a current flash through me. He explores my tits, getting bolder by the minute. Then he stops suddenly. I open one eye to find he is trying to open the button to my top and my hand rushes to remove his gently.
I wonder why I did that, yet all my hormones were humming with excitement at what his hands will do to my breasts. I pray silently that he is not going to turn away from me, so my relief is great when he moves both his hands back to where mine are, his hand resting softly against the zip of my jeans. As the bus bounces on its way I rub my vagina against his hand, pretending to have fallen asleep again. My hands begin to press down on his to increase the pressure. I can tell he is also enjoying this, from his faster breathing. Suddenly I feel one hand pull away from my crotch but before I know it he has laid it flat against me. He squeezes me and I almost jump at the sensation this gives me. He continues palpitating my private parts, sending me into frenzy. Then his fingers are working on the zip of my jeans. He pretends that the movements of the bus on the road will mask his stealing.
I wonder what he is about to do, but the pleasure coursing through my body forbids me doing anything about removing his hand. Now I can feel his fingers rubbing my lips. I realize I have been wet! He strokes me so masterfully that I feel an excitement building inside me. I think it has to do with the fear that other passengers might see what we are doing. One crooked finger parts my vagina lips and finds the clit standing to full attention. He pinches it gently between two fingers, increasing the pressure. By now I can no longer hide that I am awake and going with the flow. I don't know when he starts to rub faster and faster but I only find myself about to scream from the pleasure of orgasm when I remember this is not my bedroom; I bite my lower lips to stop the scream. It seems I come and come, whether because of the movements of the bus on the road, or the excitement of doing such a crazy thing with a stranger, or whether it is being done public, or all three, I shall never know. I have only come so powerfully very few times in my life; I think I could count them if I tried. I feel an even stronger bond with this man.
But why? This is so unlike me. Have I become a sex-starved woman as I age, or what?
Too many weeks have passed since my bus ride. I cannot seem to stop myself longing to hear from Tim. When he sends me email it does not seem to be enough and I never have enough time to write. Maybe he thinks my brief replies mean I'm no longer interested in him; but always the thought that I have a husband stops me from admitting to him how I feel. I do not want to wreck my family for some cheap thrills, yet I cannot stop thinking of him! This is just crazy!