I walk into the bedroom. My husband is waiting. He stands, so still, watching for me. He is nude.
He touches his lips with his forefinger. Silence.
I stand at the door, my hands by my side.
I tremble. After all this time, he still surprises me.
I am frightened, a little. He won't harm me, but the newness of this stimulates me.
He reaches into a pile of things on the bed and pulls out a scarf.
I watch as he walks over to me, ties it around my face.
He hasn't touched me, yet. I shiver.
He notices. I feel his finger reach up, touch my ear. He strokes it, gently, then caresses my hair.
I am comforted, but still don't feel safe.
He touches my cheek, then unbuttons my blouse, slowly but deliberately.
There is a pause when it falls open. He admires my breasts, the new pink bra, the lace that you can almost see through, I imagine his arousal.
No kisses, yet, he pulls the blouse away. I feel his fingers stroke down my back, from the bra strap to the panties which show above my shorts. I tremble, again, do not move, aching to hear his voice, reassuring me.
Wanting to feel his fingers again.
He waits, silently, lets my trepidation build.
I feel his fingers loosening my belt, unsnapping the shorts. He unzips them so very, very slowly, each sound individual, sharp agains the silence of the room. He lets them fall, his hand moves around and cups my bottom. Still. I'm not to step out of them, yet.
He kneels before me, his hand sliding down my leg as he does so. So slowly, He's so prone to be in a hurry with these things, how does he control himself, this time?
I feel his hand behind my calf, lifting my foot, then he slips off my shoe and moves it away. He does the same to the other. I hope he's careful, they're new. He repeats his firm movements again, pulls my shorts away.
His hands move to the back of my thighs and I sense him pausing a moment with his face in front of my panties. I hear his breathing, smelling my sex. This arouses me more, but all I sense is the perfume I placed on my wrists.
He stands. He is insistent, now, aroused. He moves behind me, holds my arms, pushes me toward the bed. His hands guide me to turn around, sit on the bed, then he takes me behind my back and beneath my knees, moves me to lie down on the bed. Once down, he moves me to the center.
He climbs on top of me, and slowly moves my arms to the bedposts. I feel his bind my wrists.
He turns, his bottom before me (if only I could see), his feet beside my chest. I feel him tie my legs together, then to the foot rail.
He gets off the bed.
I sense him in the room, then decide I don't really know. I'd left the door open, and barefoot, I wouldn't hear him if he walked out.
Time passes. I hear the clock downstairs. I wiggle a bit, testing my bonds. I'm not restrained painfully, but I'm secure. I'll be here until he releases me.
I hear him move, beside the bed. He drapes something soft over my face, pulls it away. It feels like another scarf. I feel it placed over my chest, slowly drawn away, then again on my stomach, drawn away, then on my thighs, away, then my calves.
I hear him tying it on his head. He's blindfolding himself.
He leans over, kisses my lips, tenderly, yet passionately. When I begin to part my lips for him, his hand moves beneath my chin, stops me. Slowly.
I can feel the drape of the ends of his blindfold as he moves his kisses about my face. He kisses my forehead, pulls my blindfold down enough to kiss my brows. So slowly, but I wiggle a bit.
I'm getting so hot. My lips part, aching to take some part of him inside my mouth. My knees move apart, but are restrained by his bondage. I wiggly my hips in frustration.
He moves away, his hand lies still on my tummy. Be still.
So this is my torture. He's doing all the things that I love, that he knows make me hot. I always want him, but he's making me want him, now.
When I respond, he stops.
I get it.
I am still, somehow, and he moves to kissing my chest, staying at the tops of my breasts. He lingers there, forever, pausing only to see the blush on my skin. I struggle to stay still, but lose control and begin thrusting my hips upward, hoping to touch some part of him.
To grind.
He instantly backs away, his hand to my tummy, Still.
I moan my desire.
His finger touches my lips. Quiet.