Black Book Diary Entry
Kathy holds the distinction of having two first times. She was the first co-worker that I ever had an affair with. We had strict company rules. Any employees caught together in a romantic liaison were fired. Period. No warnings, no excuses, and no unemployment.
With all the sexual harassment lawsuits suddenly prevalent, there was zero tolerance for workers having affairs. The company didn't give a care what you did outside of work, so long as you left it outside of work. They didn't want any hanky-panky upsetting the office morale and undermining the rules that management set forth.
The only time the company brass turned a blind eye to co-workers mingling too closely was during the company Christmas party. There were still plenty of mistletoe kisses from sexy secretaries to horny managers and secret Santas giving special sexual gifts in darkened corners of the company.
"Ho, ho, ho. Merry Christmas."
"Oh, Santa is that a two by four in your pants or are you just happy to see me?"
"Ho, ho, ho. Get on your knees and find out. Ho, ho, ho."
Yet, we all knew who the players were. We all knew who was having sex with whom. The only time it became an issue was when management needed an excuse to fire someone. Other than that, it was business as usual.
The second first time with Kathy was, she was the first woman that I cheated on my wife with. She was my first extramarital affair. It's funny how you always remember the first one.
Yeah, sure, I felt guilty, but guilt only lasts if you're caught and I got away with it. Besides, I couldn't help myself. That's right, I claim temporary insanity as my defense. You just had to look at her to want her.
She had that kind of sexual appeal that drove men crazy out of their minds with lust for her. Was it any wonder why I lost my mind for her and why I was mad with desire for her? She was a vixen, a minx, and a hottie. With her dark brown hair and deep, dark brown eyes, she was built like Angelina Jolie and looked like Natalie Portman.
I worked closely with Kathy. We were so very young, at the time, both in our early twenties and we were both filled with as much wide eyed adoration for love as we had for sex. We were horny for one another.
Before Bo Derek reinforced the scale that measured the beauty of women with her movie, 10, Kathy was an eleven. Recently married barely two years, had I met Kathy before my wife, I would have married her, only don't tell my wife. Kathy was my fantasy woman.
Only, in hindsight, in remembering some of the comments she said. She didn't want children. She didn't cook. She wasn't crazy about cleaning. Her own mother said she was a slob. She was very materialistic and shallow. Oh, and she liked men, a lot.
I don't think any more than a short-term sexual relationship would have worked out between us. Matter of fact, when I broke up with her, she was crushed, brokenhearted, devastated...for a day. There was always someone in the background willing to step in, where her last boyfriend had left off.