It was ten o'clock on the Sunday morning after the Company dance that I was in my living room, just collecting my suit jacket from the night before, which I'd left draped over a dining chair, and my phone rang.
I opened it and saw that Piers was calling me.
"Yes, Piers?"
"Chris." And the hairs on the back of my neck went up, there was something in his voice. "Is Molly with you?"
"She's in the kitchen. Why?"
"Peter's dead. I've just had a call from the Welsh Police, he crashed his car on a country road in the Black Mountains some time last night. A farmer found him at about six o'clock this morning."
I sat down, "He must have been pissed out of his mind. What the fuck was he doing driving? And driving on country roads in Wales for God's sake!"
"Because he was pissed. I guess he got it into his head to go and stay in his cottage. That's up there somewhere."
There was silence between us for a minute, then I asked, "What do you know?"
"Not a lot. It looks as if he came off the road on a bad bend. There was a fall down a hundred foot hillside. The farmer found him upside down in his car this morning and very dead. I was Number One in his phone, so they tried me first."
"Good God. You don't think it was...?"
I heard Piers take an inward breath. "It went through my mind. But we'll never know. And, for Molly's sake, it's better not even to think that it was a possibility. Let's leave it that he got drunk, and decided to go to the cottage and misjudged the bend."
"But he would have known that road well."
"Yes, he would. But that doesn't mean that he didn't make a mistake. Think about it Chris."
"Yes. Sorry. You're right. What happens now?"
"I'm going to go up to Abergavenny to sort out the formalities. I can't see they'll be any problem. I guess there'll have to be an inquest, but his blood alcohol should make it an open and shut case."
Just then Molly came into the room, took one look at me and just sat down on the sofa, looking at me and waiting.
"Piers, I've got to go. Molly's just come in. I'll talk to you again, later. Probably this afternoon."
I closed my phone and looked at Molly.
She looked back, "What is it? What did Piers want?"
"It's Peter." I leant forward and took hold of her hand, "He's dead."
Molly just sat there for a second or two, then her eyes were searching mine, I suddenly thought that I must drive any bad thoughts away with the facts, "He was found in a car wreck at the bottom of the hillside, having come off the road on a bad bend on the way to his cottage in Wales. He must have been very drunk, I told you he was in the bar last night."
"Oh! I know where. There's a horrible bend, totally unmarked or fenced, with a hundred foot drop to a stream at the bottom."
I smiled, I hoped reassuringly, "I think I know it too. It frightened the life out of me when I almost went over the edge. The silly thing is, I was driving too fast because Peter had upset me. Life does turn full circle somehow."
"You don't think he could have decided to do it on purpose, do you? You know, after we announced our engagement."
I moved to sit next to her, "No, I don't. You said yourself that Peter wasn't that type, and I certainly never saw any traits in him that he was weak and backed away from life. No, I don't." I paused to make sure she heard my words, "I guess we upset him last night. He saw that he had finally lost. He should have known that long ago, so it shouldn't have been that much of a surprise. But, anyway, he obviously drank too much last night. It is just one of life's unnecessary tragedies."
I hugged her, and she was very quiet. And that worried me.
After a couple of minutes of silence, I tried again. "And anyway, if he wanted to do away with himself, why drive halfway to his cottage to do it? No, that was where he went when he was upset. And he was upset last night, so he was going to his cottage, and he misjudged that bend."
After about another five minutes of silence, I got a "Yes. You're right. It was an accident when he was drunk. But we made him get drunk."
"No, Molly. He chose to get drunk. He could have danced the night away. He could have gone home and sulked. He could have driven to the cottage while he was still sober. He chose to go to the bar and knock back several brandies. This is not our fault. It's sad, but not our fault."
She turned and looked at me. "You're right. Peter chose every step he took. It just never turned out as he expected." Then she smiled, "I'm glad it wasn't you that came off the road there. When was that?"
And I told her about Peter's first visit to my office, and how frustrated and powerless he made me feel.
It wasn't long after that that we went over to Ralph's, and we told him. I let Molly tell him, I thought talking about it might help. But afterwards she was very quiet all day.
After the boys were in bed, Ralph caught me alone in the kitchen. "Give her time, Chris. It was a shock."
"I know. And she must have a lot of memories. I guess you can't be married to someone for four years without feeling something, even if it all ended in tears."
"Stay the night. I think she needs you here."
I looked at him, "I'll have to get up even earlier. I have to get to the office early, there are some things to sort out. When I spoke to Piers this afternoon, I said I'd give him to ten o'clock to tell the Abbey staff first. Then I'd send round an email to all staff, including Exeter. So, I'm going to need a little time to compose that, and to get someone to write a little bio to attach."