For years she had just laughed at the idea. We had been married for ten years before I ever mentioned the fantasy to her. To watch her with another man. At the time I know it was purely fantasy but even then I found that it was exciting to talk about. And all she did was to laugh at the idea.
Why would I ever want another man was her response. I love you and this is all I need. I know that we had incredible sex that night.
As the years went by I mentioned the idea, not continually, but regularly and her answer was always the same. The suggestion to me however became more and more of an intense desire as time went by. I never REALLY thought it could ever happen but I entertained the fantasy and developed several scenarios to play it out as well. It seemed to always be on my mind and would not go away.
One night in bed, I detailed every step of the fantasy to her and she finally knew that it was a very strong desire in my mind. She gave her usual response, laughing and teasing but she knew at last how consumed I had become with the idea. I felt then for the first time that she truly considered doing it, that I was not just joking and what the implications might be.
I never in my heart believed that she would go through with it, but never lost hope that someday, at the right time, in the right place, with the right person, it might. I also knew how scared, how excited I would be if it ever did. It had grown to be my most intense personal erotic and sensual fantasy.
We have been married for twenty four years....our 25th is coming up next summer. We are in love as much as two people can be. She is my best friend and my lover. This in fact is the crux of the matter. I love her, and trust her completely. In my mind, what I want, I look at as a gift, from me to her. A night of pure sexuality, eroticism, sensuality, no recriminations, just excitement and fun. Her entire being devoted to sex and not restrained by a need for love and tenderness. A night of receiving. For her, there is the fear of messing up the wonderful bond that we have between us. Maybe she does not trust me as much as I trust her?
Lynn is 47 years old and looks 30. Her clothes are the same size as when we were married ( as are my own ). She is 5-3, 110 pounds, with a small frame, even petite. She has short brown hair, brown eyes and would be described as cute, rather than as beautiful. She has a tiny figure, 34B and curves in to her waist and out to her hips. Soft skin, and small graceful hands. As desirable now as when we first met.
She is very popular with men and women alike. She is always smiling and laughing, a friend to all. At the same time she is intensely shy, while being outgoing at the same time, if that makes sense at all.
I am the only man she has been to bed with. That is a part of my desire as well, for her to experience another man. Sometimes I think I am weird and I am sure that she must think so as well *grin*.
So now you understand the background.
And now you can share in my surprise.
We were at a staff party for her office. She is a nurse and they have regular get togethers that we usually attend. This was at another nurses cottage at the shore and there were probably ten other couples there, all of whom we have known for years. Lynns friend who invited us also had her brother, Greg, visiting from across the country. He was 30 years old.
Through the evening we seemed to be spending a lot of time with him, talking and just shooting the breeze, and by nights end it was if we were old friends just reunited after a long absence. As we were preparing to be on our way, he invited us to join him for dinner the next evening as he had enjoyed our company so much. I looked at Lynn and she immediately agreed and we set a time for early the next evening at a very nice restaurant in town. At that, we left and went our separate ways.
In the car on the drive home Lynn was talkative and excited, saying how she had had a good time, and enjoyed Gregs company and how tomorrows dinner should be fun too. This was so unlike her that I listened closely and when her hand snaked over and lay on my thigh while I was driving, just below my crotch, I began to have serious thoughts about possibilities for tomorrows evening plans.
At home, after showering and a light drink we were snuggled in bed and I brought up my fantasy again. She held me even closer and this time she did not laugh at the idea nor dismiss it out of hand.
Are you serious about that? she asked. Really serious? How would you REALLY feel if I did that?, she asked, looking up at me.
I knew that this time she was serious too, and the butterflies in my stomach just about caused me to feel ill.
Well Lynn, I have talked about it so much and thought about it so much, that I would be a fool to say that I did not want to see it happen. But I am scared and excited at the same time. Are you thinking about Greg, I asked?
You know I have thought about your fantasy a lot since you first mentioned it. And I never really thought about it seriously, but tonight I thought that if it ever were to happen, Greg might be the right person...., she looked up at me with a question in her eyes.
Would you like to go to dinner with him tomorrow and see what you decide , I asked.?
Lets do that and I'll think about it. Kiss me, hard, she said.
I loved her more right then than I had ever in my whole life. I lay awake afterwards while she slept like a baby. I cuddles into her and all night I know I slept little, imagining.
The following day seemed to drag at work and when I got home after work I was on pins and needles. She had arrived home before me and was showering before going out. I went up and joined her in the shower, and her first question was Do you love me? Her second was, Do you want this to happen?
It is impossible to describe the anticipation, fear, the intense sexual feeling, and the knot in my stomach that I had when she asked me those questions. My answer was Yes Lynn, but only if you are comfortable with it and know that I love you more than anything on earth.