ANYTHING FOR FAMILY
PART TWO of TWO
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ANYTHING FOR FAMILY?
Author's note: This does not stand alone. Story and characters developed in Part One.
I. THE LUKE ISSUE: PRELUDE
After breakfast, we pulled anchor and headed north up the lake to an area I knew was inaccessible from land and should still be free of other boaters, so, very private. There was a partially hidden cove with a decent-sized beach flanked by two small creeks, and some well-established game trails in the area -- an ideal spot to set up camp for a few nights.
We arrived, anchored, and had camp set up by 10 a.m. Then it was off to do some exploring. Attie and I would follow one creek and Lila and Luke would explore the other. Lila wanted a shot at better understanding Luke's issues. I just wanted to watch Attie's ass gyrate as she picked her way up the creek in front of me.
Simple goals are the best goals.
We agreed to meet back at camp for lunch -- grilled Kosher sausages, potatoes roasted in the skin, and corn on the cob, in the husk, all over charcoal.
Attie and I got back first and fired up the coals, then sat with our feet in the water and sipped a couple porters.
"Is there any hope for us, Ian?" Attie quietly asked.
"Attie, your sister is on it, and she's tenacious, a force of nature. Of course, there's hope."
"I can't continue the way things are. I'm at the end of my rope."
"Well, tie a knot in it. Lila is continuing to get Luke to open up about his issues, so she knows better what can be done."
"Good luck with that," she groused, "better chance squeezing blood out of a stone."
"We're talking about Lila. If necessary, she can beat it out of him."
Attie laughed and her face brightened.
She was sitting beside me, looking all 'Attie' and smiling. I turned, put my hand behind her head, pulled her to me and did something I had resisted for 12 years -- I kissed her passionately. Didn't mean to. Didn't think about it. Pure impulse.
She flung her arms around me and kissed me with equal passion, crushing her body against mine. I don't know how long we kissed, but at some point, my big brain regained control of my little brain. I grabbed Attie by the shoulders and pried us apart. So much for my vaunted trustworthiness.
"Whoa! Well, Fuck!" I snapped, mad at myself. "Attie, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Shit."
She put a gentle hand on my arm, "I'm not. I've wanted to do that since the first day I met you. I won't forget it. But I know we can't do that again."
"No," I answered, "Really bad fucking timing, too."
"Okay, get over it," I said to myself, but loud enough Attie heard.
"Attie, I gotta take a leak, and get some air."
"Yeah, get some air, and like you said, get over it. And, by the way, that was an amazing kiss," she grinned.
"Yeah, it was, but I really need to pee."
While I was gone, Lila and Luke returned.
"Hey, Attie, where's Ian?" Lila asked.
"Where's the beer?" Luke asked, heading to the cooler.
Attie answered, "Ian's up a creek, taking a leak, and I don't think he has a paddle to piss on!" she giggled.
"You been smoking something, girl?" Lila joked.
"Nope, just feeling silly."
Lila smiled, "Silly's good."
After lunch, Lila grabbed a six pack of porters from the cooler, then grabbed me by the arm, directing me down the shoreline, "Back in a little while," she said over her shoulder.
I asked, "What's u..." She immediately gave my arm a hard squeeze. Got it, no questions.
We walked in silence for a good distance. Lila was obviously deep in thought. Apparently, my job was just to keep her from wandering off into the water. So, I steered us along the meandering shoreline, and kept my mouth shut.
Finally, "Here, this looks good. Let's sit."
We sat by the water and drank porters. Lila stared out across the water. I kept thinking about what we would be doing if we weren't having to do what we were doing...
Finally, she briefed me about Luke. He had gradually opened up more about his problems with sex, not just with Attie, but before her. He confirmed pretty much everything Attie had said. But he started clamming up when it came to sharing details about his issues and the hows and whys. He did allude to some bad experiences when he was young, but didn't elaborate. He did want to do whatever he could to keep Attie, but he wasn't certain their relationship could be salvaged, that he could be what Attie needed. Lila assured him that everything was solvable; to just give her some time to work on it.
"So, have you come up with something," I asked.
She huffed, "Hm, yeah, something."
She was obviously down, not happy, and said nothing more. She would get to it. I just had to wait it out.
After a while, she rolled her shoulders and stretched her neck, "Sorry, Ian. I've been giving it a lot of thought, and I keep circling back to one conclusion, to the linchpin in this whole thing -- Someone has to actually work with Luke and help him get past his sexual hang ups, teach him to be a more versatile and effective lover, and help him regain his self-confidence and restore his male ego."
"Yeah, I agree. That's pretty much it in a nutshell."
She gave a small smile, then her frown returned. It hit me, "That's 'what' had to be done, not the 'how' or the 'who', as in, who could possibly..." Oh, hell no!
I looked at Lila. I might have even furrowed my brow, "Babe, tell me you're not thinking..."
"Ian, please. I don't need the drama. Don't you think I haven't thought circles around this? And that's exactly what the fuck it is! A fucking circle! And it all always leads back to the same fucking spot -- 'WHO' is going to be the 'facilitator' that helps Luke overcome his sexual hang ups, teaches him how to please a woman, and restore his fucking manhood?"
I was a little taken aback. In our entire marriage, I hadn't heard Lila say that word that many times, much less, all at once; unless I was between her legs...in one fashion or another.
Actually, I was worried she was going to slug me. And yes, that could be worrisome. Yeah, I know I can hit a lot harder. But if she hit me first, I might not get the chance to do anything but regain consciousness.
I offered, "Sorry, hon. Yeah, I see you've been struggling with this. So, is there anything we can do, or that can be done?"
"Honey, I'm sorry I blew up. It's just that when I arrived at the solution to this whole mess, I was happy for about 15 seconds, until I asked myself, "who could do that? Who would Luke trust? And who would be willing?" The answer to 'who could' was painfully clear, but as to 'who would be willing', that's where the solution became 'not a solution,' so now I don't know what to do."
She stared at the water some more. I waited. I didn't have an answer.
She explained, "Honey, you know I'm not a slave to social mores, and am certainly not prudish or remotely strait-laced. But this is, this is...well, damn. It's asking too much; certainly, more than I'm willing to do...I'm not teaching sex to Luke, and, and I'm sure as hell not fucking him!"
In my softest voice, "Of course not, honey. Nobody expects you to, would expect you to. So don't give it a second...oh. Hmm. Yeah, I see. Okay, I get why you're so upset -- If you don't help, they're fucked. If you do help, you're fucked. Sorry, just kind of..."
Lila chuckled and threw her arm around my shoulder, "Thanks, babe. I needed that."
We sat and looked at the water till the sun set. We heard voices.
II. THE LUKE ISSUE: INTERLUDE
It was Luke and Attie calling our names and I saw the beam of a flashlight in the distance.
"We're down here, just keep coming," I hollered.
Luke hollered back, "You guys okay?"
I replied, "Yeah, we're fine, coming your way."
We met up, and immediately, Attie threw her arms around Lila.
Luke explained, "She was worried. I told her nothing on land or sea would dare mess with the two of you together, but I was beginning to wonder..."
"Sorry, buddy," I slapped him on the back as we headed for camp. "We had a lot to think and talk about. I guess we lost track of time. But thank goodness you showed up. We're out of beer!" I joked, holding up the six-pack of empties. Then, acting serious, "You did bring beer, didn't you?"
Luke dropped his gaze to his feet, "I'm sorry, Ian. I forgot. Does this mean I lose a merit badge?"
"Nah, as long as you have dinner ready back at camp."
"Well, shit, just ain't my day. Sorry, no dinner."
I scolded, "Wow, I have to penalize you three merit badges!"
"Three? Why three?"
"Well buddy: One -- no beer; Two -- no dinner; and Three -- good cubbies don't say 'shit'."
"Well, I guess I'm just fucked!"