In life there are times when through boredom, indifference, or desire we knowingly place ourselves on the edge of a precipice. We imagine or fantasize about taking that leap without actually doing it because the fantasy is sweeter than the reality.
It has been almost 4-months since my 1st cyber-fling turned to my 1st real-world fling. I am still coping with it and what it means to me. My husband Steve and I are closer than ever and loved the erotic adventure we shared together with Richard and the Seattle Police Dept. LOL! This was my 1st ever extra marital fling in my 30-years of marriage. I chronicled an account of it on Literotica. "Richard, My 1st X-Marital Fling" is my first ever published story. Richard and the published story are 2-firsts for this 52 year-old. Believe it or not this fling we shared together has strengthened our already strong marriage.
My dilemma is, where do I go from here? I have this new found expanded sexuality & I don't know what to do with it. I never explored my sexuality before I married Steve. He was my first and only lover until 4-months ago. Now, heads are turning in public everyday as I walk through life in my dresses and heeled sandals. My new found sexual confidence is apparently being broadcast in my demeanor and the cadence of my heels. I do not want to turn into a 52-year old slut, but I want to explore my new found confidence and my sexually charged erotic side.
I even went to confession after my 1st fling. I explained to the priest that, "my affair was not based on lies & deceit but, by mutual loving consent". The priest seemed to understand and asked me to say an act of contrition. Trouble was...I was not contrite. I was already thinking about my next fling.
In my 52-years of life I have never been picked up at a bar or anywhere by a stranger and fucked. It has never happened!! Now...the thought has crossed my mind. I don't think so, but...the thought is there. I am a mother and a grandmother...so this sexual journey is all new to me. I never thought I would ever have another man fuck me other than Steve.
Steve keeps asking me where I want to go from here. He is fine with my exploring my expanded sensuality...he just wants to be a part of it. He adores and supports me in whatever I want. I adore him as he makes me feel so loved and spoiled. He has never told me NO in our 30-years of marriage. I don't want to hurt his feeling but...I am really curious about going it alone and seeing what that is like. I must admit that it frightens me...but it also excites me. The ultimate combination to tempt me.
Steve was there to protect me my first time at going outside the lines of our marriage vows but... we re-drew those lines ourselves. We shared that unbelievably sexy experience together and I will always treasure it. It was so exciting and satisfying as I sucked and fucked both Steve and Richard while dressed in my white dress and red sandals. A fantasy that they both shared. I had my way with both of them.
After a bathroom break they had their way with me. Steve and Richard teased, fucked, and pleasured me after tying me up. The two of them played me like a cello using their fingers, tongues, and cocks until I exploded in a string of orgasms as I screamed my fucking head off. All the while begging and pleading with them to stop... don't stop...or, fuck me harder. All this in-between my blood curdling screaming orgasms. I sucked and bit both of them caressing their cocks with the vibrato of my screams as they pleasured me. My clit pulsates at the thought of that sexy night.
I know that I want at least one more threesome night like that in my life and maybe, a one on one with some sexy stud. Steve is OK with that as long as he is aware of it and that I give him a "blow by blow" description. His choice of words...not mine. Men!!
After my 1st extra-marital fling with Steve and Richard I now find myself fantasizing about sex almost constantly. I find myself masturbating daily even more than once a day using my sex toys while Steve is at work. I now however avoid the online poker games as I now realize how easily I could get pulled into someone else's random fantasy like I was with Richard. BUT...I have all this sexual energy. I fuck Steve's brains out almost every night since our 1st fling. But...my mind and body want more.
