This is what happened in the days following my story "A Special Hair Styling."
I was totally unprepared for the aftermath of my first adventure in sex with a man other than my husband.
We'd talked about all kinds of kinky things during sex. I am much more careful than Gene, and try to only say what I mean. We even discuss what we said in the heat of passion when we're not having sex.
Gene told me he really wanted me to do some naughty things. I tried to find out if it was just fantasy or if he was being serious. I said he'd better not do anything without me, as I'm very jealous and possessive.
After my adventure with Joseph, I got all over Gene in his office. He licked and sucked my tits and finger-fucked my pussy, making me cum and cum. I was dying to tell him, but I'd promised Joseph I'd wait until he cut Gene's hair the next day.
In bed that night, I had Gene lick my breasts where Joseph had cum. I knew he wouldn't be happy I hadn't told him right away. But he would have wanted to lick my breasts if he'd known, so at least I wasn't cheating him out of that.
After Joseph cancelled Gene's appointment, I dragged Gene into the bedroom and told him. We fucked each other silly. Afterwards, I started writing "A Special Hair Styling" while it was fresh in my mind. I found putting it into words was intoxicating and a tremendous turn on.
Gene and I email each other a lot. I sent him the first draft, eagerly awaiting his opinion. Maybe we'd go play some more. I wouldn't have any trouble cumming a couple dozen more times.
"What'd you think?" I was so wet and aroused.
"So what else did you do that you didn't tell me?" There was a tone in his voice I rarely hear.
I was totally confused and my head was spinning. Shit, I knew he didn't mean it, telling me it was okay to do things. "What are you talking about?"
"You didn't tell me he sucked your tits or had his hands in your cunt. Did you suck his cock and fuck him too?"
"I didn't tell you? I thought I did. I was so nervous telling you, honey. You said you wanted me to do something. It all just happened. I was just teasing. The further the game went, the more I got into it. I really didn't think it would happen. The salon was so crowded, I didn't know there was a place outside. No, I didn't do anything else."
"First you don't tell me until this morning, then you leave out the details. So I can only assume what else you left out."
"Gene, I was aching to tell you. The moment he cancelled your appointment, I told him I was telling you. I dragged you to the bedroom, pushed you onto the bed, got on top of you and told you. I was timid and anxious about your reaction. You said it was okay, but I wasn't sure you really meant it. All the time I was telling you, you never said a word. Your expression never changed. I was terrified I'd done something I shouldn't."
"I didn't say anything so as to not interrupt you. I didn't want you to lose your place."
"How the fuck would I lose my place telling a story like that? I needed some feedback from you. How do I know what you really think? I know now, I fucked up everything. It was only fantasy and you said it wasn't."
"No, I'm just wondering what else happened, what you haven't told me."
"Nothing. I told everything in the story. I wouldn't have sent it to you to read if I had any secrets. I didn't realize I left anything out in the bedroom. I was scared."
So there we were with tons of tension filling the air. I was getting more stressed out by the minute. "I totally fucked up," I thought. "How do I undo this mess?" Why didn't I listen when I told myself Gene was just fantasizing? Talking about it and doing it weren't the same. Gene is very different from me, I can't always read him.
The next days were total agony. Gene was telling me everything was fine. I was so confused. Was it okay? What would happen next? I didn't want him fucking around, so how could I?
I emailed my cyber lover Ken, telling all. He said, "You two should have laid down ground rules. Also, if you can screw around, so can Gene. It's only fair."
"Your right, ground rules would be a big help," I answered. "Let's not even talk about the other. I won't go there right now."
Maybe I'm a bitch. But I'd proved I had self control. I was dying to wrap my mouth around Joseph's cock. I had my pussy inches from his raging hard-on while he was asking to rub it on my cunt lips, just a little bit. I wanted it. I wanted him to fuck me, but I turned him down. I don't know if Gene has the control I have.
We've been monogamous for over a decade. There are a lot of STDs out there these days. I don't want any.
Gene really wants to suck some cock and get fucked. I'm afraid of opening Pandora's box. If he'd been there Friday instead of me, with a beautiful cock inches from his mouth, would he have been able to say no. I doubt it. Maybe I don't give him enough credit.
Heck, the first years we were together, I was the slut, out fucking and sucking to my heart's content. He knew it too. Gene says he has never been unfaithful to me and I believe him.
It was hard to talk with our teenage son around. Finally, we got some privacy. We concluded I was projecting how I would react onto Gene. I would flip, so I expected him to. Despite our talk, it continued to fester in me.
At midweek we were home alone. Gene was in his office. I was my usually horny self, needing to cum. I went into his office and crawled between his legs, reaching for his pants. "Can I suck your cock please?"
He laughed and said, "Maybe." I can be a pain in the ass, always wanting sex.
I got his pants undone and whispered, "Nice" as I smacked my lips. I flicked my tongue on the head of his dick, then began licking around it. I watched him as I licked my way down the shaft, getting it wet. Once again, I couldn't read his face. I was still insecure.
I started getting into it. I do love the feel of a hard cock in my mouth. I was slurping and sucking up and down his cock. My nipples were hard from rubbing against his legs with my every motion. I could see myself sucking him in the mirror, which enhanced my excitement.
Gene roughly pushed my head further down his cock, saying, "Suck it you little slut, just like you wanted to suck Joseph's cock."