When I read a word I don't know, I look it up in the dictionary. When I read a concept I don't understand, I research it until I do. I've researched the concept of voluntary cuckolding, but until recently didn't understand it. Why? Because it seems, no one else appears to either. There are literally no reputable studies out there, that I could find, that explain it. What studies exist, are seriously flawed, particularly in the ways the samples are selected. I'll expound on that in an afterword. I kept reading and the story below is the result of my research and some theorising. It also presents my scenario on what might happen if a guy, not temperamentally suited to the lifestyle, at the behest of his partner, tries it.
I haven't read many voluntary cuckold stories, so if this one has been done before, I apologise.
This one is aimed at a very specific audience. Those of you who, like me, have read stories where men willingly watch their wives with other men and ask questions like, why? How? Even, WTF? If you aren't someone like that, you'd probably best not read it. You might find it offensive. For the rest of you, keep in mind you know me and my style so, though it may appear at first to be a cuckold story, I ask you to please persevere.
It is presented as a sequel to a story I read some time ago. Sorry I can't remember the name or the author. If it was yours, then I apologise that I can't acknowledge you. I mean no disrespect. The original story was about a childless couple that were deeply in love. The wife went with friends to Las Vegas and witnessed one of the other ladies getting it on with a well-endowed negro. She got obsessed with it and slowly convinced the husband to let her do it once. I think there was a little, 'If you love me, you'll let me do this', in there. After months of nagging and maybe withholding a little sex, he very reluctantly agreed. While still trying to convince him, she was corresponding with candidates on the net, effectively behind his back. Eventually, he relents and decides to prove his love for her by letting her do it. He witnesses her pleasurable experience.
This story begins the next morning. It has minimal sex in it. It is a far better read due to the efforts of CreativityTakesCourage, thanks Lovey.
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John awoke, after an extremely poor night's sleep, on the couch in the lounge, with the first feeble light of dawn. The feeling of dread that had started creeping into his soul the previous night had matured in his sleep. He just knew his marriage would never be the same as before last night.
He'd left the bedroom before the end of the first performance of his wife Sandra and her big, black-cocked internet buddy, Michael. He'd thought he was mentally prepared for the experience, but it hadn't occurred to him Michael and Sandra would kiss before the foreplay and the main event started. The intimacy of that act hurt.
And then there was the sight of his wife trying to cram as much of the monstrous organ into her mouth as possibleβit did nothing for him. Then Michael returned the favour, before mounting Sandra for the first time. Initially, John was excited by her excitement. He'd even sported half an erection for the first few minutes of observing their mating.
Then her screams started.
John was shocked. He'd never heard her make anything like that sound with him. How could he ever compete with that? Not until they invented dick transplants. His erection immediately deflated.
He stayed there looking at Sandra thrashing around. He loved her. That's why he was giving her this experience. This one-off, loving gift. He sat there, waiting for her to acknowledge his sacrifice or even to check if he was travelling okay. Nothing. He might has well have been on the moon. Absorbed in the intensity of the moment, she was completely ignoring him, her husband. It just made him feel so... inadequate.
John tried sleeping in the spare bedroom, but the sounds of his torture were too close. The couch was as far away as he could get. The silence at about eleven finally allowed him to drift off to sleep. Only to be woken at just after 3:00 a.m. by the sounds of more nails being driven into his soul. Had he been asleep when Sandra came to see if he was all right? She must have come, mustn't she? Then why hadn't she woken him up?
He must have dozed until about five-thirty. All was silent upstairs, he noted with relief. Maybe Michael was an early riser and was gone. John tiptoed upstairs and looked in the master bedroom. He really wished he hadn't. The sight of Michael lying on his back, fast asleep, with Sandra nestled in his shoulder, hurt like hell. This wasn't sex, it was intimacy. Did that mean he'd been conned? Could they be that intimate after only meeting last night or was this only officially the first time? John wandered downstairs again in a daze. What had they done?
He was brewing a second coffee, just before 10:00 a.m., when John heard the next evidence of life upstairs. Sandra's shout drifted down the stairs.
"John."
John walked to the bottom of the stairs and shouted up them.
"Yes."
"Is that coffee I can smell? Can you bring us a cup please?"
That was it.
John's breaking point.
He grabbed his coat, phone, and wallet and walked out the front door. It shut quietly behind him. He turned, opened it again, then slammed it as hard as he could. The whole side of the house rattled. He jumped in his car and drove away. He checked his phone was on and started counting under his breath. He gave up at five hundred. Why hadn't she rung?
He drove and walked around for what seemed like an age. He was having a late lunch at a fast food restaurant when his phone finally rang.
"John, where are you?"
"Having lunch."
"Why did you leave?"
"If you don't know now, you never will."
"I'm sorry, John. We just got carried away, I suppose. Are you coming home now?"
"Is he gone?"
"Yes."
"Okay. See you shortly."
Sandra was sitting in the kitchen in her dressing gown when John walked in the front door. She rose to give him a kiss, but he held her at arm's length and averted his face. She looked confused.
"Have you had a shower yet, and gargled?"
"No. I rang you as soon as Michael left. Look, John, you agreed to last night. Why are you acting so upset?"
"Oh, I'm acting upset, am I?"
"Yeah. Almost busting every window in the house slamming the door this morning kind of gave you away."
"So, you knew I was upset three hours ago, yet you only rang me just now."
"Yes, John. I tried to ring when you left, but Michael, er, distracted me."
"What? You fucked again this morning?"
Sandra's averted eyes answered the question.
"Where did I sleep last night, Sandra?"
"I don't know, John. In the spare room maybe."
"No, I slept on the couch, Sandra. You would have known that, if at any time between nine o'clock last night and ten o'clock this morning, you gave enough of a fuck about me to find out how I was travelling with all this."
"I'm sorry, John. I guess I was a little caught up in it all last night. Then Michael woke me up in the middle of the night and, well, we did it again. Then..."
"Then, this morning, you were so concerned with how I handled last night that you yelled down for coffee so I could bring it to you like a servant."
Sandra hadn't looked at John for several minutes. She had no answer to John's very valid points, so she stayed silent.
"Sandra, will you at least acknowledge that what I did for you last night was the most loving gift I could give you?"
"Oh, yes, sweetie. Not only that, it was the most loving gift I have ever heard of."
"And you repay me by acting as selfishly and inconsiderately as anyone I have ever heard of."
"Yes, I see that now, John. It's just that last night was the most..."
She stopped, instinctively knowing a graphic description of how mind-blowing the experience had been would be a really bad move. She would take that secret to her grave, along with another one. She realised one of the reasons the previous night had been so special, was John clearly hated it. That was obvious when he walked out of their bedroom the first time.
Silence settled in what was once a very loving and comfortable household.
"I'm sorry, John. I'll make it up to you though. I promise. Just, well, just not tonight."
"Why not? Because you're too stretched out? Have you got friction burns?"
"No, it's just that...well, I don't like to say, John."
"Come on. Out with it. I doubt you could make it worse."
"Well, I... I've had so many orgasms since last night that I started to cramp. It's really uncomfortable down there."
"Okay, so I was wrong. Why do you keep looking at the clock, Sandra?"
"Um, I have an appointment in half an hour, John."
"Who with? Michael?"
"No, of course not, John. Last night was a one-off thing, you know that. I'm yours exclusively forever now. My itch has been scratched."
"So where are you going?"
"Can't you just leave it knowing I have to be somewhere, John? You know I wouldn't go if I didn't have to. I can see I have some damage control to do here. I should only be an hour or so."
"No, Sandra. I thought I knew you as well as anyone could know someone else, but I've seen a stranger since last night. Where do you need to go?"
"Okay, since you insist. I need to go to the doctor to get the morning after pill."
John felt like someone had punched him in the gut. He literally fell into a chair.
"I'm sorry, John. Like we agreed, I didn't wear my diaphragm last night. I thought Michael would be so big and long he might damage it. I know we agreed on condoms, and I used them last night, as you saw, and again this morning, but when he woke me in the middle of the night, I didn't notice he... Well, in the heat of the moment, you know."
"I can't believe you did that, Sandra."