Act of Contrite

Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction written solely by myself blakat, with no characters reflecting the likeness of non-fictional entities.

Note: This is my first story so please give feedback, I'm anxious to know what my readers think.

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My name is Aiden, i'm 24 and married to my wife Madalyn who's 23. We got married at the young age of 18 simply because we were in love, horny and I was taller than her. The best night of our lives was our wedding night when we took each other's virginity, it hurt for her for the first 2 minutes and I came shortly afterward but we laughed about it and literally kept going at it again and again until eventually the sun was raising and my penis was deflated. This was followed by the worst night of our lives just 3 month after when she had a miscarriage. We were young, inexperienced but deeply in love. We stayed away from the idea of having a baby until her 22nd birthday when we decided we were finally over the grief of what wasn't our fault, after months of continuing our already consistent sex life she got pregnant.

We continued to live in joy for the next 2 months until the night of my 23rd birthday when I was walking home from work and got mugged, I remained calm and catered to the man's whim but even to his content with my wallet he shot me in the back. My wife stayed at my bed side for months while I recuperated, still joyed at the fact of our upcoming baby we continued to be in love even while knowing I would never walk or be able to make love with her again. When I was released Madalyn was 7 months pregnant and looking ripe to pop any minute, which led to the death of our second child. Little baby Samantha was born a month and a half before her due date, having a defected lung she passed away 2 days after her birth. A year has passed since then and while our love hadn't withered a beat, we are both dead people.

"Hey Aiden" said Harold, my child hood friend who just 15 years ago had a game of dungeon and dragons to see who would get to marry Madalyn when we were older, "Would you like some help getting changed? Madalyn left early for her gyno appointment and called me over to keep an eye on you."

"Were those her exact words?" I replied while trying not to sound insulted.

"Well I'm sorry Aiden, I didn't mean it like that. Do you need afew minutes alone?"

"Naa I understood what you meant you big ole lug head. " I said with a smile, "Why don't we start the day with some dungeons and dragons. Maybe this time I'll keep my end of the bargain when you beat me."

Hours latter we got done with our game of dungeon and dragons and Madalyn got home looking excited as the day of our wedding. "AIDEN!!" She screamed in utter excitement.

"Madalyn babe your about to fall, sit on my lap and tell me whats up" I said putting my wheel chair in park. Madalyn walked over and took a seat on my disabled leg, while I couldn't feel her soft rump anymore I could still smell her beautiful smelling hair.

"The nurse brought back the test and confirmed that all I have is a simple thyroid issue, with that fixed I could become a fully functional mommy slash baby making machine!!"

We 3 cheered and hugged each other for what felt like hours, as excited as I was hearing I could finally be a father I couldn't help but feel helpless that in order to be one my wife would have to sign up for a sperm bank.

Weeks went by and all I ever thought about was my potential son or daughter having absolutely zero traits of me. It came the day where Madalyn would have her surgery and Lord behold with only a one night stay she was back at home taking care of me.

"Babe, don't hide it. I know its troubling you." She said to me that night in bed. I looked at her with a blank face, "You will make a fantastic father regardless if your the dna donor or can walk."

"Surprisingly beyond the fact there will be no lap bouncing there's just one thing bothering me..." but before I could say she said "The sperm bank.."

"Listen babe, " She said caressing my cheek, "Your still man to me and there is nothing wrong with being skeptical of having a banked child. I wish there was a better way too."

With that said I got a idea, one I wasnt proudest of. "Madalyn, what if there was a better option?".

she closed her book and said, "I'm all ears babe."

"Before I say this let me tell you that this isnt part of some sick fantasy or anything, it's just a idea." I said, her eyes showing attention, "I appreciate you saying I'm still a full man, and I know you mean and feel that way. But I know I'm physically lacking in the department. And you are a women, a full women." She continued to look beginning to show a look of discomfort, "What if you had a hand picked sexual partner that we both agreed on, able to take care of the sexual needs that you have and that can give you the child I can't."

Madalyn looked at me, shocked and almost angry, "Aiden, listen to me. I assured you when the accident happend that you are the only man I ever had interest in, the only man that I would ever want to see me naked or even in a bikini. I wouldn't even use a dildo let alone produce a child with another man."

"But babe that's the thing, you can't tell me you still don't get sexual desires, I still do and I'm incapable of expressing them." her face showing some calm now, "And the way I see it, hand picking a man makes more sense then some random sperm."

"I agree about the sperm but I want to assure you that while our sex life is well.. Penis less. I'm overly content with your mouth and fingers, your still a incredible lover." She said with the most truthful eyes.

Happy to hear her words but still not convinced I resorted to her weak spot, her arm pit "Will this convince you!"

Her laughter overwhelming as it was proved to her how serious I was, it was a kinky thing we picked up when we first started having sex.

"Madalyn I want you to know how serious I am, I want this for you. I want you to be able to express your inner women."

"Aiden I can see your serious, but I know it will hurt you. I have no desire to sleep with another man, the thought alone makes me feel empty."

"Or maybe it reminds you of how empty you are with me." I said, tears starting to roll down her face. I put my arm around her to comfort her,

"Babe I'm sorry, I just want you to have what you deserve."

"YOUR MORE THEN I DESERVE YOU JACK ASS." she said wiping her tears, "Of course I miss the sensation of penetration, but I miss the sensation you gave me. That's all."

"Then if I can't do that for you, why not at least try it one time with someone you trust. The desire will only grow over time anyways." I told her with earnest, I continued to hold her tight.

"Aiden.. I love you." she said hugging me back, "Your putting all jealousy aside for me. I know you so well honey, you are actually concerned." she looked at me and smiled, "I'll try it for you, once. And only for your concern. But I have a condition."

"Ofcourse. Let me guess, black guy?"

She smacked me laughing, "No but if I actually am going to do this then it would only make sense to do it with someone shorter then me, a kink of mine about you is how your taller. It makes sense to atleast try something new." she said, looking scared, "But my actual condition is a condom, this way you can remain my only bear back fella. However if I feel like I can live with myself what so ever then I will consider going bear back, but only so to get a child."

Our search began.

"Hey Aiden, what's happening?" Harold said over the phone, "Before you say anything I have to tell you, I'm really excited for thanksgiven this year, I note only have the new madden but I desperately want to try out your new zelda game." Hardold and I had a thing about playing football on thanksgiving and not on any other day because we detested the sport, so the madden games kept that tradition alive for us.

"Yeah, alot of weirdos are dissing it, but I love the motion controls, it makes me feel like I'm wielding a sword. People take mobility for granted that's for sure."

"Hey man you don't have to sell me, it's zelda!!" He said in a honest tone, "So what did you call for?"

This was going to be easy, he was my long time friend and while it made sense he should be the one to help us out I didn't want to screw the dynamic, "Listen Harold, there is a huge favor Madalyn and I have for you and honestly it requires you to sleep overnight. Why not come the day before thanks giving and spend the night?"

"Well I have alot to do that day and I planned on doing nothing except chilling after 6 so... Yeah, why not. I'll see you then."

As I hung up I remembered hearing Madalyn cry when I mentioned how I could be whats making her feel empty, it was like a movie where I was focusing so hard on the memory that when she spoke to me everything climaxed into one sound, "Hey honey what did Harold say?"

Acting a little startled I replied, "Oh, he's coming the twenty third. He's excited about the new Zelda."

"Then he's going to love what we got him for early Christmas, not every friend would buy there friends a game and a whole new console." she said, with a look of uncertainty on her face, "And you can't go wrong with Zelda."

"Madalyn your small talk is your weak spot, what's wrong?"

"It's just ever since I was 6 the only men I ever thought of being with was you and prince charming from Cinderella." she said and I chuckled, "I tried to imagine what it would be like sleeping with Harold, I know he liked me back in the day and this would probably be a big thing for him. But it won't for me."

"And what did you feel when you imagined him in bed?" I replied, with slight unease of the situation.

"I imagined sex without you, and it seemed.. stupid."

"I know how you feel, if I imagined myself making love with anyone besides you I cringe. But then I remember that what we have when we shared our bodies in the bed room would be nothing compared to two people simply trying to achieve orgasm."

"And that's how I have to look at it, it could never compare in any way shape or form to anything me and you could ever do and I want you to know that." she said with a big smile, "Now you, I need to ask you. How would you feel knowing the children you will raise weren't from your dna? And from your best friends none the less."

This was something I had been contemplating, and her asking made it so easy to compile, "I consider myself a father already, I love the children you and I made together even though they are passed, and I'll love these new ones just as much." this brought water to her eyes, "If there boys then I am going to make sure and convince them to freeze there sperm though, that's something that would have made me really happy right now."

"Yeah, that's a smart idea from a smart man." she said as she walked away to cook dinner.

Three days had passed and Harold was going to be at the door any minute, Madalyn was taking one last shower before her first chance of sexual penetration in over a year and she wanted to be properly groomed. I could tell she was dreading it but my hope was that he sexual needs would be met to full. Even with love being enough I knew how much sex brought joy to her, though the sex she enjoyed so much was the act with me... *Knock*

"Hey Aiden." Harold said as he walked in holding his key we made for him, "What's cooking?"

"She's making chilly Harold, Christmas came early." I said knowing this was our favorite dish since child hood.

"I knew you two crazy kids would do something like this, that's why I haven't eaten all day." He said holding his suit case, "I'll get to the guest room if you don't mind, I want to put this thing down." he said while holding up his brief case.

"Yea well listen Harold we might be dropping a bomb shell on you tonight, nothing wrong but I want to ensure that me and Madalyn are okay." I said to little avail, he was already 50 miles away.

Two hours had passed and we were at the dinner table, Madalyn had the chilly ready and we we all eating and talking about the random stuff that we had been talking about since age 5. That was until the wife popped me the eye, she wanted me to know she was ready to ask. I winked to re insure her that I had no second thoughts.

"Uhoh, the wink." Harold said while wiping chilly off his chin. "What are you two crazy kid's plotting now?"

I paused like a idiot, I did not know how to go about asking him what we had planned to ask him. But then Madalyn helped, "Listen Harold Aiden and I have been talking, and we don't want to do a sperm bank."

Harold's jaw dropped, mortified almost looking like he was about to cry, "But guys its your dream, don't you want to start a family?"

"Harold there's nothing we want more, but we feel that there is a better option." I re insured Harold, he attempted to collect himself, "I brought up a concern of mine to Madalyn regarding our sexual activity and how we could solve both issues at once."

Harold's moved his face to Madalyn, "It's a something that I assured Aiden wasn't a issue, but I'm willing to try it only because he's so concerned about it."

"You guy's aren't considering having Madalyn swing with another man are you? That won't solve anything, she wouldn't be treated right.: Harold said becoming flustered.

"That's the thing Harold, it wouldn't be just any man. It would be.." I said but was interrupted.

"You Harold." Madalyn finished for me, "You made the most sense."

"What..?" He looked puzzled.

"It has nothing to do with any fantasies." I insured him, "And it would have nothing to do with love." assured Madalyn.

"Wait hold on, your asking me to produce Madalyn children?" He asked with a look of judgment.

"Yes, that way we would know the father." said Madalyn.

"Listen I can see some sense in that, but can't I just donate sperm?" asked Harold.

"While that's a fantastic idea Harold, that's what we would be asking you right now if it wasnt for what I want Madalyn to not be deprived of." I answered, "Aiden is concerned of my sexual desires, while I am content he wants me to be able to experience penetration just once, and continually if I find it's something I crave."

"Count me out, I can't do that to you two." Harold sprung to his feet and rocked the table, this caused hot chilly to spill on Madalyn. She got up and ran out of the room crying.

I sat there in my wheel chair hoping I did not lose a friend, surely enough after hearing the shower start, "You know Aiden, I had a thing for Madalyn. But there wasnt a say I was happier when you two got married."

I looked up "I know Harold." I replied.

"You two really have thought about this, haven't you?" He asked in a calm.

"Yes"

He looked up, and took a gulp. "I will help you and Madalyn discover what you need, anything for you guys."

Delight popped in my head, everything was starting to come together and it was perfect, "She's in the shower as we speak, nothing can make two people hotter then a shower."

He smiled and walked toward the stairs, "Hold up Harold, she wants her first time with anybody other then me with this." I pulled a Condom out of my pocket, he said that he understood and walked up the stairs.

Becoming excited I went into reverse on my wheel chair and turned to aim myself to the living room, this way I could view the camera system he had installed to keep a eye on me. This would be one of it's first real uses seeing how Madalyn never wanted to leave my side. I popped the channel viewer to the bathroom camera and watched as the door knob twisted.

"Wha" I heard Madalyn say through the audio output, Harold had walked into the room ready to take off his pants and join Madalyn.

"Madalyn are you sure this is what you want?" he asked looking nervous.

"Yes, anything for Aiden."

Harold's pants dropped and his shirt flew off, he walked into the walk in shower with Madalyn and began kissing her. 40 seconds had passed and the groping became intense, he began pinching her right nipple and shocked her by inserting his bony thumb into her vagina. Madalyn began to instinctively thrust her pelvis against his thumb and even grabbed his balls. Her face looked content, almost like she missed it.

"Listen Harold, I don't want to be treated like a princess, that's what Aiden and I have." she said assertively, "Not out of any kink but I want to be treated like a slut, don't be gentle."

Harold looked shocked, but quickly adapted by pushing her down to her knees by her shoulders and shoving his dick in her breast, he rubbed the tip of his dick against her nipple and made her nipple grow hard. After a minute of pleasurably messaging his dick with her C sized breast he shoved his dick into her mouth by plugging her nose to force her to breathe using her mouth and shoved it as far down as he could, she initially gagged but began to suck and jerk it. This went on until he pulled out and smacked her breast with his cock afew times until it blew all over her breast and up to her chin.

"Put your condom on, let's do this." she said looking undignified with water drenched sperm leaking from her chin. She leaned against the shower wall and her boobs smushed to the sides of her body, her butt stuck out toward him. "Common, let's go."

Harold walked to his pants and unwrapped the condom, he put it on and walked behind Madalyn to grab her hips, "It's been awhile, I won't treat you like a princess, but I won't abuse you. I will go slow."

"Thank you Harold." Madalyn said in a genuine fashion, that is until 3 inches of Harold's dick slid into her and then back out. "Ouch!" she said laughing and turning her head.

Harold grabbed his penis and pressed it against Madalyns pink pussy, his head slid down her pussy lips until they came open and he slid in. Madalyn gave out a soft moan and winked at the camera, I gasped in surprise that she knew I was watching. Harold slowly jerked his hips every 40 seconds to push himself deeper into Madalyn, he let her get used to his length in preparation her the act ahead. Eventually after afew more soft moans Harold grabbed Madalyn's tits and pushed into her all 9 inches of the way.

"Ahh" Madalyn groaned, "Uhh, start humping" she said with her face scrunched up.

Harold started to pump in and out of Madalyn's vagina and her face grew a look of disgust, he held onto her hips and let out afew moans himself. Madalyn finally opened her eyes to reveal the tiniest little sparkle, showing she must be enjoying the sensation even through all of her discomfort of not having me as a partner. This continued until Madalyn lifted up her left leg up to Harold's shoulder showing how she grew comfortable enough to switch positions. Harold enjoyed the merry go round motion frictioned on his dick by Madalyn, and Madalyn obviously greatly enjoyed this positioned because she finally began to pump back and forth to meet his motions. Harold knew he wasnt going to last much longer before cumming and so he warned Madalyn. "Madalyn, I'm going to cum inside you any moment now." she turned around and began to moan wildly, showing how close she was as well. But just as Harold felt Madalyn's pussy clenching harder against his cock she pulled forward forcing Harolds dick to slide out.

"The bed room, now. And take off your condom." She said as she learned over to turn off the water, she ran naked to our bed room and Harold followed.

I was shocked at Madalyn's decision but overall happy for her, she would finally be able to get the release that she deserved. I switched the video feed to the bed room cam and to my surprise they were already in our bed room. I watched as my wife was thrown onto my own bed by my best friend no less, she adjusted her back and spread her legs apart.

"Fuck me." She told Harold, a word Madalyn had never used in bed before. Harold took off the condom and placed his cock head against her opening, he rubbed it up and down like before but Madalyn wasn't about to play that again. With all of her force she pumped forward and consumed the entire length of his cock into her organs. "AHH, I LOVE THE WAY YOUR BEAR COCK FEELS INSIDE!"