This is the continuing story of a true life affair between two close family friends.
For those who haven't read Part 1, Penny and I are both in our early forties, married (though not to each other) and each of us has two teenage children.
Penny is a highly educated professional and, I suppose, not really one of those women you would immediately lust after. She's tall and pale, with short dark hair and brown eyes that are usually a little cold -- but which for me became bright and exciting. Her body is angular - perhaps even skinny rather than slim and bears the unmistakeable signs of having borne two children. Her breasts are small but round and surprisingly firm. Her face is full of character and distinctive, rather than beautiful and she has a commanding, somewhat aggressive personality which many find off-putting.
And she is without a doubt the most exciting lover I have ever had.
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Not surprisingly, after Penny and I had spent those first incredible hours in bed together, the rest of the day passed in something of a daze. I drove northwards to my business meeting -- a meeting in which I had to fight hard to concentrate -- and Penny of course went to her work.
I simply could not believe that it had all really happened! But the memory of her wonderful body, the smell of her on my clothes and the hot soreness between my legs were all too obvious evidence for it to have been a dream.
For the first hour of my homeward journey, I felt as if I was riding a cloud! Barely noticing the heavy traffic, my mind raced back to the way Penny had looked in her silk underwear; how she had enticed me; how she had tasted; how she had smelt; how she had sounded. How different all these things were from my wife.
Oh my God! My wife!
Suddenly an avalanche of guilt descended upon me. God! How it descended! A cold, almost painful fear gripped my chest and I began to sweat.
...How could I have cheated on my wife Jane?
...On my friend, Paul, Penny's husband?
...On our kids?
...Had we just destroyed both of our marriages?
...How on earth could I behave normally with Penny now?
...How could I see her again?
...And how could I not see her?
...How could I carry on at home as if nothing had changed?
...Did I want it to stop now and forget it happened?
...Did I want it to go on and on?
...What if Penny had an attack of conscience and confessed all to Paul?
...What if.....
There were just too many questions. My head span as I drove along, going over them in my mind as the miles passed by painfully slowly.
Eventually I realised there was only one possible way forward. Penny and I had to talk and talk soon if my mind was ever going to be pacified. I dialled her mobile with my hands-free phone. The ringing tone echoed around the car as I waited anxiously for her to pick up the call, my chest aching with anticipation.
It rang and rang and then went to the answer phone. Penny's recorded voice, cold and professional, filled the car. I swore aloud and hung up. Ten minutes later I dialled again but with the same frustrating result. Reluctantly giving up, I turned the car radio on, increased the volume and tried to concentrate on the road.
The loud music and heavy traffic helped to make me think less about my conscience and more on my driving as the weather deteriorated, so I was surprised about an hour later when my mobile rang once to tell me I had received a text message. I pressed 'show' and eagerly looked at the screen. It was from Penny.
'Saw your calls. In a meeting can't talk how do you feel?' I read.
As luck would have it, a motorway service station was only five miles ahead. I drove far too quickly towards it and parked in the far corner of the car park.
I took my mobile out of its holder and, clumsily typing with one finger, I replied
'I can't believe it happened' There was a long pause after I pressed 'send'.
'Do you regret it?' eventually appeared on my screen.
'God no but I feel v v guilty' I replied, honestly.
'Me too can we meet tomorrow to talk it through?' Penny asked.
'Not easy for me. What time?'
'8am ok?'
'Ok' I typed. There was an even longer pause.
'I'm not sorry. I really hope you aren't' Penny's words twisted the knot in my chest further.
'I want you Penny' I typed and pressed 'send'.
I was aghast at myself. Where had the guilt and remorse suddenly gone?
After a minute, my phone beeped once again. I looked nervously at the screen.
'I want you too''
There was a long, long pause before my phone beeped a last time.
'My house tomorrow 8am. GTG now xx'
I sat back in the driver's seat, staring at Penny's last message, bewildered.
It was so hard to keep my mind on my job that day. I tried but was badly distracted. Needless to say, the evening with Jane was also difficult and after a night of broken sleep, the following morning found me once again in my car outside Penny's house. I watched and waited until Paul had left for work, taking the kids to school on his way, before driving quickly up the driveway and parking outside the front door.
The automatic gates closed silently behind me.
I knocked on the front door just as I had done the previous morning and waited, pacing up and down on the driveway, still wondering what on earth to do for the best -- my conscience and my lust in full pitched battle.
After what seemed an age, the door opened and a serious-faced Penny let me in. I gulped. No seduction was planned for me that morning; she was dressed for work in a smart dark blue, pin-striped skirt, a freshly pressed white blouse and dark blue cravat. She wore only a little light make up and her hair was brushed and shiny.
Whereas the previous day she had looked sexy and available, today she looked calmly professional; very cool; very intimidating. On a coat hanger in the hallway hung her suit jacket and her laptop computer stood in a soft leather case ready to be taken to her office.
I could barely relate this sophisticated academic with the hot, passionate, woman I had made love with so passionately only 24 hours before. And yet.......
"Hi" I said as I crossed the threshold, feeling the inadequacy of the greeting but unsure how to respond given our newfound intimacy. We pecked each other awkwardly on the cheek.
"Coffee?" Penny asked as if nothing had changed.
"Please!" I said, remembering that I never did get my coffee the previous day. The reason why made my loins stir. I tried to dismiss the feeling as I followed her through to the kitchen.
This time there were no spurious problems with the coffee grinder and in an awkward silence I watched Penny's skilful preparation of the hot, strong drinks, trying to think what to say to the old friend who had just become my new lover.
In the end Penny saved me.
"I don't regret it, Tom." She said, characteristically coming straight to the point. "I had a bad night thinking about it, but I don't regret it."
I breathed a sigh of relief for so many reasons.
"I feel the same. I hardly slept at all. I just can't believe it really happened."
Penny opened the large American style fridge door and poured milk into the two coffee cups. She passed one to me and sipped her own.
"Cheers!" She said ironically and sat down on a tall wooden stool at the kitchen table, staring slightly vacantly out of the window. It was a beautiful bright morning, cold but sunny.
She took another sip of the piping hot, strong coffee. I stood behind her, sipping my own tentatively. Our bodies were close; almost, but not quite touching.