It was our twenty-fifth Halloween together. I watched as she passed out the candy cups she'd made to the little trowels who made their way to our door. Halloween! Such a savage holiday. Steeped in magic, tempting the very fates that on all other nights we hide; fear. But tonight, we laugh at the demons, mock the monsters and wink knowingly at the dark forces of evil. I remembered other nights preceding the Holy Day of All Saints remember fondly the nights of passion, of wild sexual escapades with...well, it doesn't matter who they were with. I'm married to Helen now, and Helen is...well, Helen is simply Helen. She is beautiful, to be sure. Her body is a temptation to all men who see her, and the irony is, she does nothing to encourage such thoughts.
To say she is a mild woman is to greatly understate her. Her smooth full breasts, her pinkish, almost light rose-colored nipples, when aroused jut forward likes bullets. And damn near as hard too! They adorn a chest made of the smoothest of skins, the palest of design, marked only by freckles, and those freckles adorn her face as well. They decorate her alabaster skin, her soft reddish hair, her green eyes capable of great passion, but of late, content only to smile soothingly, to calm my fires, not fan the flames of my desires. She'd settled now, at mid-forty she has forever more forsaken the wild side of her, trading that for the more conventional, more conservative wife she's become.
Nowadays, butter wouldn't melt in her once steaming mouth.
Nowadays, she's more lady than woman.
Nowadays...
I watch her with the neighborhood children. Such a proper woman. She spent hours making those candy cups, filling each one with various goodies, placing a silver coin in each cup, alone with a special prize, maybe a movie ticket, maybe just small ring designed for a fairy princes. She spends the year finding little whatnots to pass out at this holiday, and she'll miss none of it.
I asked her if we could go to a party in a club in a neighboring town. I asked her if she would dress up like a tart, and we'd go out to celebrate. But she'd have none of that. Not Helen. No, Helen reminded me that we're not kids any more. She done all that, she didn't intend to do it again. I could go if I fancied, but she'd not participate. I didn't go, of course. I didn't want to see other women dressed like that. I wanted to see Helen. Other women don't excite me. She does. But in the end, I didn't go, I stayed home and I watched her. It is not enough, but it is all there is. And I am grateful for small favors. Tonight, perhaps tonight we'll come together and perhaps tonight I'll lose myself in passion.
"Could you go to the store for me?"
I heard a voice interrupt my thoughts of erotic possibilities.
"Patrick, could you go to the store for me?" It was Helen's voice. She was talking to me. She had interrupted my thoughts of passion with a mundane question. '
"What?"
"Could you go to the store for me. We're out of milk, and I want to have cereal with fruit in the morning."
"It's damn near nine o'clock." I replied.
"Oh, I see. Nine's too late to go out to get me milk, but if I'd have gone to a club with you, nine is just the shank of the evening. Is that how it works?"
"No. Oh, never mind. I'll go. Is milk all you need?"
"Well, actually, I'd like some fresh fruit, if you're going out anyway."
"Of course," I said putting on my coat. "I'll be right back."
"Take your time and drive carefully. There are still a lot of children walking the streets."
I didn't reply to that. If she was so fucking worried about the children, why didn't she get her milk and fruit before nighttime? It didn't matter. I was already out in the car, backing out of the drive. This wouldn't take long. I headed toward the supermarket a mile from our home. Made more sense to go there than a convenience store. I knew I'd find milk almost anywhere, but the fresh fruit...well; I'd need a bigger store for that.
The parking lot was rather empty, not surprising considering the time and season, and I found a parking space near the entrance of the store. The nearly empty parking lot took on a spooky glow, probably from a combination of the neon lights from the store reflecting off the light fog rolling in that night. Didn't take long to get the provisions and return to my car. I guess I was more pre-occupied than I thought, because I opened the car door, and almost sat down before I realized it wasn't my car.
How embarrassing. But worse yet, there was someone in the car. A woman sitting in the back seat. I didn't see her at first. She looked at me and didn't say a word. Just stared at me. She was dressed for Halloween; at least I think that's why she looked like that. Short dress. Very short, actually. Long black hair. Her sweater was tight...so tight! And the tops of her breasts were exposed. A lot of breast showing there.
I was flustered. I mumbled something about thinking this was my car...terribly sorry. Didn't mean to startle you...but she never said anything to me. Instead, she took her hand to her right breast and began to squeeze the nipple through her sweater. I was mesmerized! I wanted to close the door, I wanted to not look, but I was helpless. I watched as her eyes looked right into me...right into my soul, so it seemed. The top of the sweater started to lower, exposing even more of her breast. I regained my composure as her right nipple came into view. I continued to back out of the car door, closing it behind me. She disappeared into the darkness of the vehicle.
"What are you doing?" A male voice asked me.
Turning around, I saw him. Now, he was dressed for Halloween. No shirt. Tight, body hugging pants. No...those weren't pants. He wasn't wearing any pants, only some sort of men's briefs. Not the kind I wear. Fruit of the Loom didn't make these. These were tan colored leather...or vinyl, or something shinny like that. And no shoes. This man was practically naked in the parking lot!
I found my voice. "Sorry. Looked like my car. Damn near identical. Sorry. No harm meant." I tried to back away from him, but there was something so powerful about him, almost magnetic. I finally broke my gaze and looked around. There was my car! Nearly fifty yards away, toward the center of the lot. I mumbled another apology and made my way to my own automobile. I didn't remember parking it so far away. The longer I walked to it, the further it seemed to be. I was very conscious of the fact that the brutish guy back there, the guy damn near naked in front of a major grocery store, that man was still watching me. Did he think I was trying to steal his car? Did he think I was trying to make time with his...his what? His wife. His girlfriend. Maybe his daughter?
I reached my car. I remember being disoriented, almost like I'd been drugged. I hadn't drunk a drop of alcohol in weeks. Been working too many hours...been too busy concentrating on the business. But now, now I felt so tired. I wanted to be home, I wanted to be back in my own driveway, my own garage. I wanted to be in my bed. I wanted to kiss Helen goodnight and fall asleep. I started the car, slipped it into gear and started home.