It took me a week before I could see Skye. I went to her apartment, mainly because I didn't want to yell about being spanked in public.
She was blushing when I came in. That frightened little girl look she wore while looking like a sex fantasy in a thousand dollars worth of silk. A voice in my head wanted to tell her to undress. She deserved to be punished for what she did and that was the punishment I wanted to deliver.
Instead, neither of us spoke. She got us beers and we sipped them, looking over each other's shoulders. It was like the worst argument we'd ever had as room mates. I was dating a guy she'd let slip away—somebody I'd asked her about before dating. We, the guy and I, had a pretty good thing going. Then Skye started wearing less when he was over. She'd "accidentally" come out of the shower without her bathrobe fastened. It was all stuff that she'd do if a guy wasn't there, so there was deniability. We argued bitterly for a weekend and didn't talk for almost two weeks, just leaving angry notes about dishes and other chores.
Then one morning, she came in my room, collapsed onto my bed, and cried, "I'm sorry." We'd cried together and that was that.
"Just say it, Skye."
"What," she mumbled into the bottle.
"That you're sorry."
"I didn't..."
"Skye ... I forgive you."
"You don't have to."
"I want to. You're my best friend. But why didn't you tell me about all of that before?"
"How could I? She only spanked me twice and..." She got up and threw her bottle in the recycling and got us both another beer.
She drank the new one without finishing the thought.
"And what?"
"I can't."
"Can't what?"
"Say it."
"Skye, you saw me get spanked. You pushed me to her."
"You said you forgave me," she pouted.
"I do. But still..."
"Fine. I liked it. She sometimes makes me undress in front of people. Its so humiliating, but..." She bit her lip.
"It turns you on?"
She nodded.
I swallowed. "Now?"
She nodded.
"Did you ever?"
"I didn't lie about that."
"Did she try to make you?"
"No," she said breathlessly.
If we'd been sitting on the sofa, instead of across a table, I would have kissed her. The table either gave me resolve or killed my courage. Fuck resolve. I was almost certain Blake would have encouraged me to fuck Skye.
"Did...?"
"What?"
"Did you want her to?" At this point, we were whispering, leaning towards each other across the table. It was probably the most intimate moment of my life.
She put the tip of her thumb in her mouth and bit on it, then nodded.
"Like now?"
"Do you think she'd order us?" I asked.
"I don't know. She never made me, with somebody. Would you?"
I nodded.
"Tell me to."
I leaned back in the chair and rotated it. "Lean over my lap."
Her eyes went wide. It wasn't what she was expecting. But she did.
I caressed her ass through her jeans. She squirmed and I could smell her strongly.
I spanked her once, then twice. She moaned.
"Did she ever spank you bare-bottomed?"
"No," she panted.
"Well, this will be a first. Pull them down."
"Oh god, really?"
She got up, awkwardly, stumbling as her tight jeans came down. She left her panties on. I pulled them to her knees.
"You disobeyed."
"I didn't mean to..." She said, but then smiled.
I pulled her back over my knee and spanked her softly. She moaned continuously.
"Count fifteen."
One.
Two. Harder.
Three. Harder.
Four. Harder.
By ten, I was hitting her almost as hard as I could. She was sobbing, but I hit her even harder. Anger I didn't know I had filled each strike, but she never asked me to stop.
I was full of remorse thirty seconds after I stopped. I'd been brutal. A monster.
"I"m sorry. I'm so sorry."
"I wanted it. It was so good until it wasn't." That wasn't a Skye way of thinking. She had always been more needy and childish.
I caressed her butt gently. "Does that hurt?"
"A little. Don't stop, though."
I caressed her for a minute, listening to her breathing become ragged, like I'm certain my own was.
"Can we move? My arms are tired," she said.
I helped her up and started towards the sofa, but she took my hand and led me into her bedroom. Silently, she sat me on the edge of the bed and laid over my lap. I resumed caressing her ass. She started pushing against my hand, so I slid it between her thighs. She was so wet, my fingers slid into her with out resistance. She bucked against me, coming almost instantly.
Later, we laid next to each other, fingers touching, her naked, me dressed. We hadn't kissed and I wasn't sure if I wanted to. I was turned on, but I wanted Blake inside of me, or I wanted Tala to watch us.
So I closed my eyes and breathed, letting myself loose the tension. I knew it would come back strong when I told Blake. We'd fuck all night. We'd fuck so much, he'd fuck past the pill and I'd get pregnant, I thought. I laughed.
Skye touched my cheek. "What?"
"Nothing. Just a silly thought."
"Are you upset? Do you want me to?" She looked down towards my pants.
I help her palm to my lips and kissed it. "No. That was exciting. But I want Blake. Or ... Do you think she wants us to ... in front of her?"
She pulled my hand to her breast. "Do you mind?"
"No, but I don't think I could do more, okay?"
"No, this is all I want," she said as she used my hand to explore her breast. "Mmm, that's nice. I don't know what Tala wants. I think she just like humiliating and controlling. With you, I knew it turned you on. Are you sure you don't want me to? I'm kind of curious."
I shook my head. "No. I'm sure Blake will think this was all very hot, but I don't want to cheat on him."
"If she told you to?"
"I don't know. Part of me never wants to see her again. Maybe the bigger part of me. I might not have said no, but I didn't consent to that. It frightens me that it turned me on."
She sighed.
"What?"
She shook her head. "Not now. Do you like this?"
"This? Lying together?"
She pressed my hand into her breast.
"I don't mind. I guess I do like it. Part of me wants to get home and fuck Blake to death. But part of me is very content right now. You have very nice breasts."
I took the initiative and started to explore them more. The idea of sucking on her nipples wasn't at all unpleasant, although I was worried that she wouldn't want to stop at that. Blake was an excuse, of course. I didn't want to cheat, but I also wasn't sure I really wanted to have sex with Skye. Actually, I was certain I didn't. After I stopped partying, I became the responsible one. She started felt a bit like my kid sister. Exploring her body didn't seem incestuous, but kissing or going down on her did. It didn't make sense, but its what how it felt. So I took joy in her breasts and even down her belly, but I stopped my hand before it went much farther.
"Can I take your shirt off?"
"No, lets just lie here, okay?" I pulled my hand away from her belly and took hers. I clutched it by our chins. She pushed towards me and kissed me, but it was more of a peck than a real kiss.
"We shouldn't."
"Okay. Are you mad?
"Not at you. I love you, Skye. More than Blake, even. But I'm not sure about Tala. It was so wrong, but part of me wanted it. Wanted it a lot."
"And wants it to happen again?"
"Maybe..." I bit my lip. She was so mad the last time I'd asked her if she was gay, but now... "Skye, are you a lesbian?"