What started out as simple fantasies have now become more of an obsession. I love women - I know, we all do - but I love to watch them; big, small, fat or thin. Any colour any race, I love to watch them all!
I guess it all started even before puberty hit. I'm sure that it was still sexual even at that time, but I can remember watching my teacher as she moved about the classroom, her dress billowing as she strode purposefully through the column's of desks and chairs and every now and then I would catch a glimpse of leg or thigh. I was too young then to even know what an erection was, but I clearly recall the tingling feeling that these observations would leave in the pit of my stomach. As I passed through puberty and into my teens the feelings still remained close to me. I looked at the catalogues that my mother bought. Not just at the lingerie section but all of the pages; shoes, stockings, jewellery - just any chance to look at pictures of women.
The sexual implications of my fantasies really hit me the following year. It was a hot summer and my folks had packed me off to an uncles farm in the country. I hated to leave behind the wonderful catalogues filled with all my favourite women - my friends, now - but to try and sneak them out of the house would have been to difficult. I just hoped and prayed that my aunt would buy the same type of thing. Actually, I warmed to the farm very quickly. I had always been a bit of a loner, and the fact that there were very few youngsters there of my own age didn't worry me in the least. I spent my days walking the narrow back lanes, the sun tanning my skin and dreaming of my mother's catalogues.
My initiation into the world of voyeurism came that very first week. It was a hot day and, as usual, I had walked out into the fields and lanes after lunch. Crossing a narrow foot bridge, I decided to follow the stream that ran beneath it. Uncle had told me that there was an attractive waterfall somewhere close and I was determined to find it. Everything was quiet save for the gently babbling of the water and I followed the narrow stream for about twenty minutes as it meandered this way and that through tall fields of swaying corn. I was beginning to hear the volume of the water flow increase and smiled to myself as I realised that I must be approaching the falls. I rounded a corner and saw them. Their voices carried on the air; the high pitched laughs and squeals of teenagers playing. Instinctively I stopped and used a nearby tree to hide my presence. There were two teenagers in the water under the gentle flow of the falls - a boy and a girl. They were older than me - I guessed about eighteen or nineteen - and were splashing each other playfully. The boy was tall and good looking. His short hair shone wetly in the afternoon sun. But my attention was fixed on the girl. Probably not a super model, but to me she looked stunning. Her long black hair stuck to her tanned skin between her shoulder blades and she had the most wonderful pale green eyes. The water wasn't deep and as she stood my heart raced as two beautifully formed breasts encased in a black bra emerged from the watery depths. Her tan extended all over her upper body - the product of many hours working out doors, I guessed - and her slim waist tapered nicely. My cock became instantly erect and I wondered if the sexy black bra was accompanied by matching panties. I didn't have to wait long to find out because after a few more minutes of swimming and splashing, the two teenagers climbed from the water and settled themselves onto a large bed of flat rock with the idea of sunbathing. At least, that's what the girl had in mind. Her male companion, however seemed to have other ideas.
"Oh, get off me, Ted!" she admonished him playfully as he tried to kiss her, "It's way too hot for all that now."
"Come on Sandy," he replied with a grin, "that's not what you said last night!"
Sandy way laying back on the rock bed, her left leg straight out, toes pointing and her right leg bent at the knee. Her boyfriend, Ted was propped up on one arm, his other hand listlessly smoothing the skin of her leg.
"Mmmm, that's nice," I heard her say in a sort of half moan as his fingers lightly played over her thigh. She was obviously warming to his attention.
I had never felt my young cock so hard before. Looking at pictures was one thing, but seeing a beautiful young woman spread out not twenty feet in front of me was something else altogether. There was a certain excitement to just watching, I found. The thought of seeing but not being seen sent shivers across my skin and made my penis throb in my shorts.
The next thing I knew, the couple were kissing passionately. Ted's hand was groping the outside of his girlfriend's bra and trying desperately to pull it up and over her firm tits. She resisted at first, but they both seemed to know that her protestations were merely a token gesture. As Ted released her breasts from their confinement and quickly followed that up by peeling off her matching (yes, they were!) panties, I came in my shorts. I had hardly touched myself, but the sight of my first, live, naked woman pushed me far over the edge. I had masturbated before, of course, but the streams of thick cum that stained my underwear seemed to last so much longer than when I had just jerked off over a magazine.
I stayed hidden for another hour that afternoon and watched Sandy suck Ted's cock into her mouth until he also came. He returned the favour and dove his head between her slender legs while she tugged mercilessly (it seemed) at her stiff nipples. They both seemed unconcerned with the level of noise that they were making and I climaxed another two times before admitting defeat and slinking, rather guiltily, I recall, back along the footpath. I never saw the couple again that summer, but the rest of my stay was a virtual blur of masturbation whilst recalling the image of their lovemaking to my mind.
As I passed into adulthood, my craving for voyeurism abated not one bit. Every possible opportunity I got would be spent in live peep shows or sneaking down quiet lovers' lanes just hoping to get a glimpse of something or someone. Gossip spread quickly around my office. Some found my fetish a bit disturbing, I think, but there was also one of my co-workers who, quite frankly, seemed to find the idea quite exciting. Her name was Janet and, after a few clandestine meetings in a bar well away from our office, she asked me outright if the rumours and office gossip were true. I coloured severely and looked at my shoes. Janet was a lovely looking woman and I was sure that she knew that I had been watching her at work.
"It's okay," she said soothingly, "I like the idea that you've been looking at me. Do you think I have a nice body?"
I could hardly speak, but lifted my head and nodded eagerly. It was to be the start of a wonderful relationship that culminated in our marriage a year later.
It was perfect. I loved to watch and Janet loved to be watched. My most pleasurable experience was to sit at the end of our bed, propped up against a pillow with my cock in my hand and watch my lovely wife at the other end; panties pulled to one side and fingers deep in her pussy as she brought herself to orgasm after orgasm. It was not until the second year of our marriage that I realised that Janet wanted to take the voyeuristic thing a bit further.
"Have you ever thought about watching me with another man, or even a woman?" she asked casually one night as we relaxed in front of the TV.
I could hardly believe my ears. It wasn't that I was shocked or disappointed that she felt she needed more. It was simply that I had been longing to ask her the same question for months but had never quite found the courage or, indeed, the right time. I took a deep breath before I answered. I wanted to stay cool.
"Is that what you want?" I asked
"Well, it's something that I've been thinking about. It just seems like the next natural step. But it is quite a big step. Do you hate me for wanting this?"
I could see tears in her eyes and my cool facade suddenly disappeared. "Oh honey, no! I love you. This is exactly what I want as well - I just didn't know how to ask you."