I was staring at the ceiling light as Matt's movements became more rapid and he grunted before holding still, his cock pumped inside of me. When the last shudder had gone through him he turned to me and kissed me softly on the lips, like he always did, before thanking me and rolling off to my side, scooping me up in his arms and starting to snore.
I glanced at the photo of our son and daughter on my bedside cabinet. I had it all, a husband who worked hard enough that we'd risen to middle-class, a picture perfect cottage in the south of England, two fab kids, and yet I felt so irritated with it all.
Part of it was due to sexual frustration I was sure. We had sex nightly, for some that'd be wonderful. For Matt it was. He never failed to find me willing to lie underneath him in the same missionary position he'd favoured for over a year now. It'd start out the same way, a full on kiss, his fingers in my pussy. He'd bring me to orgasm before thrusting inside me and then it was 50/50 whether I'd get to come again or not. It all depended on if he lasted two minutes before squirting his load or if he felt generous and held back. It never went past the fifteen minute marker. By 10:45pm he was always asleep behind me.
When it had all become so routine I can't honestly say. Ten years ago when we'd met we'd had sex like wild animals. In the shower, in secluded public places. Hell in those days he actually pushed my head towards his cock for me to take him in the mouth. He'd even use his mouth on my cunt at times.
These days I felt sexually dead. Restless to extremes.
Sighing, I reached to turn my lamp on so that I could read some of my book before falling asleep.
**
It was Saturday, Matt was at home with the kids while I shopped in the town for my own birthday present. He couldn't even be bothered to pick something out for me, instead throwing a couple of hundred quid in the tacky card he'd only scrawled 'Love, Matt' in. Not even writing my name or adding any kisses after his name.
I pulled into the parking area of my favourite little coffee place before straightening my lipstick and stepping out. Maybe a couple of hours to myself would be good for me.
**
Sipping my coffee I almost sighed in bliss, the luscious milky concoction flowing down my throat just like I wished Matt's come would. Truth be told, I'd take any man's come. Looking around me I noted the quiet atmosphere and the usual crowd. None of them friends, I barely saw anyone I knew any more, my life was full of taking care of Matt's children, keeping the cottage looking pristine and working out so that my 37 year old body didn't start to fill out.
As I was stuck in my own personal lamentation of what my life had come to, a hand landed on my shoulder. Startled I turned around to see a handsome face grinning at me that I hadn't seen in years.
"Amanda!" He laughed "Fancy seeing you here love! Mind if I join you?"
"Not at all, make yourself comfy." I answered with a grin of my own. Sliding into the seat next to me was Dean. Dean who I'd dumped for Matt. Dean who would eat my pussy out for hours until I begged for him to stop. Just maybe I'd find a birthday present worth having in town today.
"So how are things? Still with what's-his-name?" He enquired politely, taking a taste of his own coffee before resting his hand next to my leg.
I could feel the heat coming from his body, his shoulders as wide as they were the first day I'd met him. We swapped pleasantries about my crappy, middle-class life for another five minutes or so before I asked him if he had settled down yet. His brown eyes seemed to come alive as he answered me.
"Nope, I thought I'd found the woman for me but she figured that someone else was better for her." Did he mean me? Surely there'd been plenty of women afterwards, the guy was a first class hunk.
"Oh I'm sorry to hear that." No I wasn't. "She obviously doesn't know what she's missing." I sure did.
"I don't think she does, all happily married with her two kids... Are they good kids?" This time I knew he meant me. My skin came out in goosepimples as I stared at him in surprise.
"Yes they are. Surely you don't mean me?" I spat out.
"I mean you honey. I've never forgotten you, nobody else ever came close." He called me honey, I felt my heart beat against my breastbone viciously. He first started calling me honey after making me come into his mouth for the first time, saying I tasted like honey so that'd be his name for me. I swallowed hard.
"Tell me Dean... Do you still have that thing you like to do?" I gulped. Was this my wish come true?