Editor's note: this submission contains scenes of non-consensual or reluctant sexual situations.
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'I can't sleep.' I keep thinking to myself. 'How could I possibly sleep when I'm laid so close to what I want? How could anyone?'
I stare into the darkness of the motel room where I can just make out the picture on the opposite wall and the bedside lamp next to me.
I don't turn it on. I don't want to wake her.
I sigh quietly and listen to the rain beating down onto the pavement and the billowing wind that causes the place to creak.
She's still asleep.
With every breath she releases, my neck tingles. The hairs standing to attention at the feel of her breath on my skin.
'What am I doing?' I ask myself. She's a new friend. We met at a party a couple of weeks ago and we just ... hit it off. It's like we've known each other for years.
I can't stop thinking about her. Since we met, she is all I can think about. It's like an obsession. It's confusing and frustrating. I don't want to have the kind of thoughts that I have. Not about her because she's not into girls. She likes men.
'She likes cock.' I remind myself. 'Big hard men with thick cocks.'
I roll over to face her, to watch her sleep. She's beautiful.
Our mouths are only centimetres apart and I have this urge to kiss her. I blow on her face a little and study her for a reaction. A flicker. A movement.
But she doesn't move.
I blow harder and move my face closer. She doesn't feel a thing.
I touch her shoulder and shake her slightly to see if she stirs. She doesn't. She's asleep in a deep slumber. Her loose curls fall over her shoulder, and a few stray hands are lying against her lips. I lift my hand and tuck them behind her ear.
My body tingles as my hand touches her face. 'I can't take this.'
I move my mouth to hers and very carefully, slowly, I brush my lips against hers. Only slightly. They only just touch but it's given me the kick I needed. My stomach somersaults and I check that she's still sleeping.
Her lips are parted slightly so this time I press my lips a little harder to hers and slip my tongue in.
She tastes good.